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Chapter Two.

SIENNA'S POV

I knew it would be hard coming home and telling my family. But I also knew once it was done then I could try to move forward without memories haunting me every corner I turned. However I also knew the sxret i would keep for now wouldn't allow that either. I also knew I should sleep.

I barely took in anything as we made our way to my parents house. Sid had told Ethan to take me in the back way after five minutes so he could tell my parents away from me. And I was greatful for that at least I could have a moment then, I also knew Sid could handle my parents being not only my brother but my best friend for life.

The painkillers where kicking in and I even felt tired as Ethan put the kettle on. I knew rest was vital and I also knew it would be impossible. I hated every second of feeling like this.

I sat at the table fiddling with my necklace. It's become my new comfort. Odd to think a necklace can bring comfort in the moments of grief.

No sooner Ethan placed a drink infront of me as he took a seat in walked my mum. I'm my mums double in looks with the only difference being I have my dads coloured eyes where as my mum has greenish eyes.

Yet today I swear if it was possible there was a red fire colour burning in her eyes until they landed on me where her eyes soften from anger to love.

"Hi, Ethan. I don't want to seem rude but could I have a moment with Sienna please?" My mum says without taking her eyes off me and I could tell she had been crying.

"Sure" Ethan says getting up and leaving the room as my mum walks around the table and wraps her arms around me tightly from the side.

"Your never leaving me again" my mum says and with that the flood gates start up again and the tears start to pour out down my face again.

"Thats it cry it out. When your done and ready then we will talk about it. I just wish you had told me sooner, I'd of been on the first plane there" My mum says

"I wanted to. I had booked my flight and was ready to come home to tell you your be grand parents. But he found, he um, uh he found out and took it all away. I feel like I can't breath when I think about it. Let alone find the word's to speak about it" I say through my sobbing tears all the while my mum holds me close as she runs her hand through my hair to sooth me, as if I'm a little girl again. How I wish I was little again so I could guide my younger self away from the camouflaged danger zone.

"It's okay, your here now" My mum says and I can hear she is crying as well.

We must have cried a while because the next thing I know me and my mum are surrounded by my dad and Sid and we are soon in a family group hug.

"We will get through this" Is all my dad says

"Okay let's all back up and Give Sienna some space" My mum says after a few minutes and everyone moves away taking seats around the table watching me.

"When I'm ready, I will explain it all. Right now though I need to try restart my life again where I don't feel haunted every corner I turn. Where I can feel safe whilst I over come everything and find my next steps in life. If I could go back and ask for your help, I really would trust me on that one. I would then maybe be here on better happier terms" I say whilst fiddling with my necklace.

"Is that a locket?" my mum says pointing to my neck

"Yes" I say as I stop fiddling with it and hold it in my closed palm.

"Can I see?" my mum asks whilst she watches me closely.

I nod my head yes as my mum leans closer.

She gently looks at it and then opens it to look inside.

"Beautiful" My mum says and I know she means the picture inside from when I had my scan. My mum then closes it before taking my hand in hers and says "When your ready we will talk".

"If you don't mind, I'd like to get some sleep. I haven't slept since before the flight back" I say.

"Go ahead, we will all be here for when you wake up" My dad says and my mum stands up before saying "I will help you with yours bags"..

"I can take them up mum" Sid says

"No, I will take them up. You all had a moment with Sienna already, it'smy turn now" My dad says and no one argues with that whilst I make my way out the kitchen not worried who takes my bags. I just want to lay down and be alone. But before I can exit the kitchen my phone rings and I see its Vic video calling me. I answer the phone knowing she won't give up until I do.

"Hi Vic" I say but it's not Vic on the phone its my little cancer patient Owen.

"Dr Beatwood, Your a hard women to track down. You thought you could go without saying goodbye?" Owen says.

"Owen Why do you have Dr Mills phone?" I ask trying not to laugh at the latest antics

"You answer my question first then I shall answer yours" Owen says and I decided to sit back down as I could tell this would be a long call.. I looked to see everyone looking at me confused.

"Well Owen just like you when your poorly your family look after you, So I came home so my family could look after me. look there all here. Everyone say hello to my favourite patient Owen" I say as I turn my phone around slowly to show him everyone.

"Hi, Owen I'm Sid Sienna brother" Sid says.

"The Coolest brother ever according to Dr beatwood" Owen says

"That's right, And this is our mum" Sid says point to my mum and I adjust the phone so Owen can see my mum.

"Hi, Owen" my mum says looking at me stunned.

"And I'm Siennas dad" My dad says going to stand behind my mum abandoning my bags.

"Your the one who is the captain of big ships" Owen says excited.

"I sure am. How do you know that?" My dad asks

"Sienna would tell me about you when we both became patients" Owen says excitedly.

"Alright Mr, I've given you more answers than you deserve tell me how come you have that phone?" I ask as I turn the phone back to my view.

"Dr Mills promised she would call you, but then forgot so I may have used my ways to borrow her phone to call you myself. Plus I need you to tell Dr moody off" Owen says and I can't help smiling as I shake my head in disbelief and reply

"You mean Dr Long, Now you know he only does what is best for you, but tell me what has he done this time?" I ask.

"He won't let me go to school for one day. There having people come in to do a magic show and I really want to go" Owen says looking sad.

"You know the rules, Why don't you get Dr Mills make Dr Long do a magic show himself for all of you during chemo?" I say

"Yeah because throwing up whilst trying to watch a magic show is really gonna make us feel better. Dr Beatwood please hurry back your the doctor we always want because your nice" Owen says

"Owen Carter, I just knew it would of been you who stole my phone. What are we gonna do with you mister" I hear Vic say and I can't help trying not to laugh as I say "You should of kept your promise then Dr Mills".

"See I told you Dr beatwood would want to speak to me as much as I wanted to speak with her after all she says I saved her life!" Owen says and my face drops. I know I'm no longer smiling as Vic takes the phone and says "Sorry Sienna. As for you Owen its time to say goodbye. We can call again at a later time I'm sure Dr Beatwood must be tired and she still needs to rest herself remember".

"Okay, Bye Dr Beatwood make sure to tell Dr moody two here to let me talk to you again soon" Owen says.

"I will bye Owen" I say putting on the fake smiled I've mastered around the children at the hospital. A few moments later I see Vic has left Owen room and she says "So Sorry, I had no idea he stole my phone".

"Its okay Vic, plus its sweet his antics of getting into trouble was to talk to me this time. By the way tell Dr Long he better think fast before Owen decides to play tricks as pay back for not allowing him to the magic show" I say

"I think its to late for that, actually I wanted to take a picture and send it to you. But Owen snuck into Dr Longs office and stuck stick it notes all over the place, as well as blew up a box of medical gloves with water leaving them all over the floor" Vic says

"That kids gonna go far in life with his sense of humour" I say.

"I know. I will get pictures sent across later. Right now though, I have parents heading my way. I gotta go. look after yourself" Vic says

"Bye" I say and then the video call gets cut.

"He seems like fun" Sid says

"He is unless you upset him then watch out. over all he is a good kid though wanting to have fun while he can" I say.

"He has cancer doesn't he?" My dad says

"Yes, he also found me and although he hates Dr Long that day he ran as fast as he could to find help and was shouting at Dr Long to run faster bringing him back to me. Then he continued shouting at anyone else he see in passing to do what was needed. He deserves to have a magic show. I may just ring Dr Long later and have them arrange one for all the kids at the hospital" I say whilst fiddling with my necklace.

"I will arrange it. If that's what Owen wants thats what they shall get" My dad says moving to get my bags again and I then remember I was heading to bed before the phone call.

"I will miss all the long term kids patients the most" I say standing up.

"I'm sure there miss you as well" My mum says

"I know they will. But I also know there in good hands. Anyway, I should go get some sleep. night" I say

"Night" My mum and Sid say at the same time and then I head out the kitchen this time actually making it upstairs to my old room. Its been painted since I was last here no longer a deep pink now its a light ocean blue with matching bedding. There's even new curtains but there cream. Yet all my pictures have been hung back up and my favourite Teddy a white one lays centre of the double bed.

"Your mum wanted the whole house decorated, remember?" My dad says coming in with the suitcases.

"Yeah, I just forgot. It looks nice" I say going home to sit on the bed and I look out the window where I can see the familiar trees in the background, blue skys are still out.

"I always prayed you would move back, I never imagined it would be like this. It breaks my heart how you came back but im glad your here again" My dad says sitting next to me.

"There's no birds outside today" I say

"There be by soon. When I've refilled the bird feeders your see" My dad says.

"Maybe tomorrow I will see. I'm gonna rest" I say

"Okay, but we will have a chat once your rested" My dad says giving me a kiss on the forehead as he stands up.

"Night dad" I say and he says "Night" before leaving and shutting the door. As much as I want to cry I know its not good so I do my best to keep the water works in and try to rest.

ETHAN'S POV

"I got you a drink ready" I say to Sid as he walks into mine.

"I need more than one. After you left we found out so much more. Sienna went to bed and I rang her friend Vic. She said she was expecting my call and that Sienna had finally agreed that she could tell me everything once she was home. Apperently Sienna said she didn't know if she could bring herself to say the words so Vic was willing to do it. Only When I said Sienna had told me she was shocked, However Vic told me everything" Sid says.

"What do you mean everything?" I ask downing my own whisky tumbler.

"Sienna was brutally attacked after That bastered found the scan photo. apparently he had become a violent drunk after his parents where killed in the car crash. Sienna was taking the beatings in secret thinking she could help him through it. She was so stressed she had no idea she was around 14-15 weeks pregnant. She only found out because she fainted at work. Vic found her thankfully and thats when she found out she was pregnant. however only a select few people knew and she told them not to tell Clive as she was going to surprise him. But Apperently Sienna was secretly planning to escape and had even booked a flight and packed her bags hidden in the car ready for after her last doubled pulled shift. She even did the double shift to apperently have a way of not going home to protect the baby from his drunken beatings. Vic then said a member of staff who had now been fired informed him, they didn't think Sienna should be working since she fainted and needed to look after herself and the baby now.

He then apperently thought the baby wasn't his which it was and stormed into the hospital dragging Sienna into a linen closet and stabbed her multiple times. A patient up to no good found Sienna raising the alarm. Vic also stated that the only time she told the story was to the police when she first came round discovering the baby was gone.. stating the murdering prick would pay for killing her baby. But the second the police left after taking the statement Sienna apperently then broke down crying and after a few hours of crying she became hysterical screaming to the point she had to be sedated that night. After that she refused to speak about it" Sid says then he downs his drink.

"No wonder she lost it in the office today" I say poring us both more drinks.

"It gets worse" Sid says.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"Maria is pregnant, we were waiting until the three months mark to tell people. Its next week. I had to ring her and tell her everything, we agreed to tell my parents today so we can decided weather or not to try keep it a secret longer or tell Sienna with everyone else next week. Now everyone is arguing over what to do. I'm excited to be a dad but I don't want to hurt my sister more when she is grieving the loss of her baby. Plus she clearly trusts me most as she came to me first" Sid say.

"Firstly congrats man" I say patting his back then I continue saying "Hard choice to make regarding Sienna though. Wish I had the answer for you".

With that we down our drinks again and Sid then say "Thanks. Back to Sienna though there is more. She had a second operation four weeks ago. Vic said we need to keep a close eye on her because she flew against doctors orders and is still in the recovery process. I don't know how to get my head around it all. In one day I've found out my sister was nearly murdered the asshole is already in prison awaiting a sentencing trail date as he admitted it. plus my niece or nephew was killed by him as well. I just can't get my head around it" Sid says

"I'm still in shock myself. We all adored Sienna growing up as she was the only one out of us all to be a girl between the families. I know the others gonna be just as shocked and angry as well" I say

"We should tell them before they find out Sienna is back. Warn them to not say anything as well" Sid says.

"Agreed, I will arrange an emergency meeting for the morning" I say.