Waiting For You (A Forbidden Love)

Chapter 6 Diversion

"Arthur, come on man have a life, let’s go somewhere, attend tayo ng party, maraming chic dun"; konbinsi sa akin ni Albert, he’s a party animal. Kaya sumama ako, i need to enjoy life and need diversion. I feel I'm going crazy with my situation.

"Man, you are so busy at school malapit na tayo sa finishing line but never pa kitang nakita na gumimik. Life is short, it destined to be enjoyed while it last"; kausap niya sa akin nong nasa party na kami. Simula noon sumasama na ako sa gimik nila. They are interesting to go with.

We go some clubs, flirted with girls around. I occasionally drink, smoke but not into drugs, never i would do that. My friends had some of my thoughts as well.

Albert circle of friends becomes my friends, pero di ko pinabayaan ang school that's i promise to dad and to achieve my goals too. I got still good grades, excel academically, nothing to worry even i go to a party and clubbing.

Same with my friends, i dated some girl to kill my time. I only go a girl that is not toxic but game, like ayaw ko ng sakit sa ulo, if one day they become clingy, i dispose them right away and find another one. My friends are same, babaero, minsan pinagsabay pa but i wouldn’t do that.

I would still respect girls, their emotion and I’m upfront to them that i am not into serious thing. I am just cruising around, wouldn’t force someone. Getting a girl is not hard for me to do; i believe i am one of the good looking men in this world.

"Man, there's a girl na interested sayo, nakita ka niya sa party ni Janeth, seems a good girl naman ito, she wanted to meet you"; sabi ni Albert while we in a night cafe hanging out, drinking a beer after our long exam today.

"Really, baka toxic yan katulad nong last, kaya iniwan ko na"; sagot ko sa kanya kasi recommended niya yun sa akin. At first okay, game, chill, walang arte pero nang nagtagal naging selosa na at nang-aaway.

"No, this one is good, nakasama ko na siya sa ilang gimmik kasi friend sila ng current ko now eh. As i observe chill naman."

"Okay, i will meet her, set up the date"; pagsang-ayun ko sa kanya. I just want to be busy or it's my mind that i want to be occupied para di ko maalala ang aking situation.

Lumilipas ang araw, buwan na ganun ang lifestyle ko. Nakalimutan ko na siya, my time was tied with school and partying, maagang umalis at gabi na kung makauwi. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends.

I meet Lila she is a cool girl, magkasundo kami kaya i ask her to be my girlfriend and told her that still i am not into serious relationship just a casual hook up, if she's open to it and she said yes. Since then palagi kaming magkasama sa gimmik sa labas after school. Minsan tumatambay kami sa condo ni Albert at dun magpapalipas ng gabi.

One time, my friends came over to my condo to have a drink and some girls na kasama niya pati ni Lila. I let them in to my place, have ordered something for our lunch, di pa kasi ako kumakain kasi natulog ako galing at its past 2pm na. I got a box of beer in my storage so i put it in my chiller to cool.

"Man, you got a nice place, i wonder why you haven't invited me to come over here?" Ani ni Albert na namamangha sa condo ko. He's place is smaller than mine.

"Nah I'm just don't have much time here, halos palagi tayong magkasama sa labas, diba?"

"Yeah right, how about you Lila, have you gone here before?" Tanong niya kay Lila, baka iniisip niya dito namin ginawa ang bagay that a couple usually do kasi we have privacy.

"No, it's my first time to come here also, kung di mo pa kami isinama ni Mayet, di kami makapasyal dito"; balik saaad ni Lila. Wala talaga akong plano na dalhin sila dito. This place is my sanctuary. Kung di sila dumating ng alanganing oras di sila makapunta dito.

When the food arrived we ate then started drinking our beer after while turning some music. We had a good laugh while drinking, sometimes nagsasayawan na. The place becomes loud, though it's soundproof, anim kaming lahat andito sa condo ko at by pair, mga girlfriends ang kasama.

Pagsapit ng ng gabi, lahos lasing na ang iba kasi sunod sunod ang inum nila, ako di masyado. Magkatabi kami ni Lila sa couch. Most of my friends, kita ko naghahalikan na, kahit nakikita namin wala na ang hiya, may tama na kasi.

I am on my way of kissing Lila, ng biglang may bumagsak sa likuran ko. Nahulog at nabasag ang picture na nakasabit sa wall. My excitement suddenly gone at napatulala ako.

"Yeah i have forgotten her already. Ni ko na siya kinusap or tingnan man lang kapag paalis na ako at pag-uwi ng bahay like i used to do before." Para akong binuhusan ng ice sa alalang yun at nanlamig ang buo kung katawan.

"Man, who is this chic? She is so pretty"; saad ni Albert ng inabot ang frame kaya kinuha ko kaagad sa kanya ang larawan. Tinago sa room ko pero sinundan niya ako dun at nakita niya na may isang maliit na copy nun nakadisplay sa study table ko sa room.

"Man, sino yan? Sobrang ganda niya." Tanong pa niya. I think he is really interested to know about her. Albert had been my close friend here in the city.

"My dream girl"; wala sa sariling sabi ko sa kanya at inilagay ang frame sa drawer.

"Ah kaya pala di na interested sa mga chic before kasi meron ka na pala. Where is she now?" Curious niyang tanong, i know i spark some interest in him.

"She was gone somewhere kaya hinahanap ko pa"; kahit she is older than me in real life but in that picture hindi halata para lang kami magkaidad kasi it was taken nong bata pa siya like 18 years old. Di naman halata na that photo is already old.

"Are you still looking for her until now? Are you that in love?" I saw some sympathy in his eyes.

"Yeah, i have been looking for longer now but i can’t find her. I am beginning to lose my hope that one day i gonna see her"; emotional kong saad kay Albert. He just pats me in my shoulder.

"Just keep hoping man, a heart that truly loves never loses hope". Napatango ako sa sinasabi niya and he signal na lumabas sa room ko to give me privacy.

"I am sorry for forgetting you and thank you for reminding me that you are just there". Tama si Albert the hearts that truly loves never forgets and never loses hope.

"Hope one day i'll finally see you and be with you; that's my biggest dream more than acquiring any awards". usal ko sa kanyang picture sa na nakalagay sa aking study table. Yeah one day i will.