Chapter 16 - Theo
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I had somehow allowed myself to edge closer to Autumn, and now we were almost head to head. She smelt heavenly… my mind whirred with the devilishly naughty thoughts taking over… it had been a while since I had been close to a woman, and none had seemed to catch my attention like she had right now. But, I knew I needed to behave. This was not a girl I wanted to mess around with. She was overcoming a heartache. I did not want to complicate that.
I slowly edged my head to the side to move away, but my eyes met hers, and time seemed to stand still. My heart was pounding. I felt like a naughty teenage boy hiding in the bedroom of a girl I was dating right now…
Autumn chewed her lower lip nervously, only bringing my attention to her lips… oh dear… her lips were full, and had a slight pink shimmer to them, maybe lip gloss? I wonder if it was flavored? I found myself thinking. Not sure where that thought had come from, but only more surprised by the thought that followed. Kiss her and find out…
And as my eyes met hers again, her long lashes fluttering nervously, I did just that. A moment of madness. I moved toward her quickly, placing my lips upon hers, and as much as I would love to say she surrendered to my kiss, Autumn flinched the second my lips touched hers; shoving me hard in the chest. In a flurry of limbs I fell from the edge of the bed because of the force she had shoved me…
I landed heavily on the floor with a thud, pain shooting up my back as I did. Yeah, that didn't go well, did it? My heart was pounding heavily once more. Though now it was hard to say whether that was from excitement or the shock of falling from the bloody bed… what the f**k? I was one big disaster after another. I looked up at Autumn, who looked down at me with wide eyes, an expression of understandable shock upon her beautiful face. Safe to say I messed up... I slowly licked my lips… mmm incidentally, it seemed the lip gloss tasted a little of strawberry.
“I am so sorry!” Autumn gasped, her brows furrowing a little as she seemed to register the scene in front of her as she offered me a hand. “You took me by surprise.”
Took her by surprise? I can understand that. I could fully understand that she was not expecting a guy she had known from childhood who was simply meant to be catching up with her to suddenly pounce on her, lips first... how bad did that make me look? Hell, I think I had surprised myself. A moment of madness indeed. One I think I may live to regret. The thing was, I wasn't even sure how to fix this...
I didn’t take her hand, but stood myself up, knowing that I may well have f****d up big time in kissing her. “No I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that. Though I didn’t expect to end up on the floor.” I tried to lighten the mood, chuckling lightly, though in truth I felt humiliated. I couldn't lie, at that moment, as our eyes met, I had desperately wanted to kiss her. It was something I have thought of more than once since we met up again, I have to admit. And, as I went to kiss her, I had wanted her to kiss me back. See where it could go. Hoping it would go somewhere... But, instead, I had been well and truly rejected.
Now standing, I turned away from where Autumn sat upon the bed, facing the window, not wanting to look at Autumn, unable to face up to her after having pounced on the poor girl. Looking at her made it all feel so much more real, not to mention filling me with guilt. But I heard her laugh lightly. “No, that was my fault. I didn’t mean to push you so hard, even so, I thought you were sitting on the bed better! I didn't expect you to fall, I thought you would just move away.”
I smirked. I guess I could understand her logic, and at that moment, with some unwanted lips approaching, could I blame her for shoving me so hard? Not in the slightest. I was lucky she hadn't punched me! That black eye would have been fun to explain for the remainder of the holidays... But, unfortunately for me, I was not sitting well on the bed like she had assumed, I had been literally perched on the edge, having maneuvered my way to be closer to her. Oh, how I regret that now!
“I am sorry, I should not have done it all the same.” I repeated, knowing it was a mistake. Again, the comparison to feeling like an awkward teenager feeling increasingly accurate.
“Are you hurt?” her voice sounded concerned, and suddenly she was standing in front of me, and there was no way of avoiding her. I could not help but smile at her kindness. Despite the fact I had acted inappropriately, she was concerned for me, with no real reasoning, I may add...
“Autumn, I fell off the bed, not off a building.” I said with a dry smile. I felt like such a fool. So not doing well at making a good impression.
I edged away from her, thinking it may be time to leave her alone now, give her the sapce she had obvioulsy been craving when she came to her room, as I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket. I pulled it out, only to see a message from my mother.
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Theo.
Where are you? You rushed out of the room. Was everything okay? Don’t let Annabel bother you, if she said something. You know she doesn’t mean it. She just sometimes speaks before thinking. Come and find us, there are people me and your Dad want you to see.
Mum
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I knew my absence had been noted. Although my parents would not make a massive deal of it like Autumn’s may, I knew they wanted me around to basically show me off to their friends, as awful as that sounded. I looked towards Autumn, who was watching me with a sad expression upon her face. I think it was safe to say I had ruined things between the two of us for the rest of the holidays…
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