Tiffany POV
Matapos kaming mag usap sa phone ay mas bumigat ang nararamdaman ko. Alam ko sa sarili kong namimiss ko na siya Boses palang niya, halos di na ako maasagot. We planned to meet to talk but he told me na may scheduled flight sila for the next 2 days so doon nang kami magkikita.
He told me about what happened to Miss Kisses that day and that he didn’t even think na pupuntahan siya nito sa condo niya.
I let it go knowing that she has all the rights, siya pa din yung legal. They are engaged and they haven’t broken up yet.
I went out of my room and down to the living room nang makita ko si Kuya Matt, he’s waiting for Dad. Papunta sana ito ng office. He looked at me saka ito napakunot ng noo.
“Follow me.” Nauna itong naglakad papuntang office. I followed him.
Nang naka pasok kami, nilapag niya ang bitbit niyang kape then asked me what has happened. Probably he saw my eyes. Namamaga pa siguro ito.
I told him I was alright, but who am I kidding? Definitely not Kuya Matt. Told him everything, simula nang malaman ang tungkol sa amin until now.
“So you mean to say, kung makipaghiwalay si Miguel kay Kisses, she’s gonna do something?”I nodded.
“What happened to Tristan?” I shrugged.
“Di ko alam, bigla nalang daw ito di pumasok and the latest news was hinahabol nya yung architect na lumoko sa kanya.” Napa upo ako sa couch sa harap ng mesa.
“Leave Tristan to me. But, are you sure it’s what you want to happen between you and Miguel?”
“No. But as of the moment, that’s what I am thinking about. I don’t want to hurt someone. Dahil lang sa nagmahal ako, may masasaktan ako.”
“Tiff, that’s what sacrificing means in a relationship. May masasaktan talaga sa huli no matter which path you choose.”
“Pero Kuya, kung kaya ko namang iwasan, iiwasan ko nalang.”
“You’re making a decision base sa nakikita mong consequence. Mahal niyo naman ang isa’t isa diba?”
“Yes, but—“
“There’s no but in there, Tiff. Kung mahal mo, mahal mo.”
Napayuko ako at nag isip isip. Kuya had a point. Miguel has told me he’s gonna fight for us. I should do the same. I should fight with him. I heard Kuya sigh and stood up beside me.
“Wag kang gumawa ng bagay na pagsisisihan mo din sa huli. I may support you, but you will always be the one na makakaranas ng sakit. It’s you.”
Inanga ko ang ulo ko sa kanya and nodded. I have decided, I will fight for the love tyat we have. I quickly got up and hugged Kuya, I even kissed his cheek saka nagtatakbong lumabas ng office.
I immediately went to my room and searched for my phone. I texted him to tell him a imemeet ko siya sa condo niya. Nagbihis na ako ng madalian saka ako lumabas at nagpahatid sa driver.
Kinakabahan ako na parang naeexcite. I want to see him as soon as possible. Nang makarating ako ng building nila ay agad akong bumaba ng sasakyan.
Buti nalang nakikilala ako ng guard kaya nakapasok ako ng madali. I asked the front desk kung nandito na si Miguel, but they told me wala pa daw. I waited sa may lobby.
I was fidgeting while holding my phone, biting my lip then ooking outside kung najan na siya. Wala pa din. I waited for more minutes hanggang nagging isang oras na.
I was losing hope. Pagtayo ko naman, pumasok naman din siya sa building. Nagkita an gaming mga mata and I smiled when I saw him smiled too.
Lumapit na siya sakin then held my hand drsgging me to the elevator. Wala kaming imikan sa loob bt our eyes were looking at each other and our hands intertwined.
Bumukas na ang elevator a siya ding pag iwas ng tingin namin. I smiled when he immediately dragged me out and almost ran to his place. He opened the door and bago pa man ako makapasok ng maayos, he closed the door and locked it then pushed me against it.
He leaned it to kiss my lips, hungry and full of passion. He tasted my mouth with his tongue. Tila espadang naglalaban ang mga dila namin. He carried me inside not breaking the kiss. Ibinaba niya ako sa may couch as we continue.
Akmang huhubarin ko na ang suot nitong tshirt when a loud knock was banging on the door na siyang nagpatigil sa paghahalikan namin.
A series of door bells and knocks were heard hanggang sa nagsalit na din ang gumagawa nito.
“Miguel! Open this damn door! I know you’re in there! Open up!” nakikilala ko yung boses na yon.
“Shh, stay here. Wag mong pansinin sinasabi niya, okay?” I slowly nodded and he got up.
“Kisses ano ba! Let’s go! Nang gugulo ka ditto, obviously walang tao sa condo niya. He left like ke said.” Ibang boses naman ang narinig ko.
“No, alam ko nandito lang siya. He got nowhere to go, he’s just like me, alone and lonely. We both need each other.”
“Tama na, Kisses. This is not you anymore. Nagppadala ka na naman sa mga emosyon mo.”
Lumapit naman sakin si Miguel, kakalabas lang nito ng kwarto. Sumeyas lang ito na wag akong maingay. I can hear some footsteps outside.
“Mam, nakaka istorbo na po kayo sa building. Wala po jan si sir, kahapon pa po umalis. “
“See, I told you. Kaya tara na, he’s noy coming back, Kisses. He already said his goodbyes yesterday. Tama na.”
“Hindi. Hindi. Miguel, alam kong nanjan ka! Pag di ka bumalik, papatayin ko sarili ko. I will ake sure na di ka sasaya sa kanya. Tandaan mo yan,Miguel, akin ka lang.”
Napatakip ako ng bibig ko. Lumapit si Miguel sa pintuan at sinilipang peep hole. Narinig k nalang ang papalayo nilang yapak at ang boses nitong papalayo. Nagwawala pa din si Miss Kisses.
Hindi ko lubos maisip na laying gawin yon ni Miss Kisses. Hindi halata sa kanyang gagawa siya ng ganoon na bagay.
Nakahinga naman ng maluwag si Miguel nung wala na sa labas sila. Bumalk ito sakin saka sinapo ang magkabila kong pisngi. He kissed my forehed saka ako nito niyakap.
”Don’t worry. She has been like that before. Her cousin can tame her. Napagusapan na naming ito.”
Hindi ak sumagot kaya humiwalay ito ng kaunti sakin saka tinignan ang mukha ko at ang mga mata ko.
“Baby, don’t worry. She will be fine. Andoon na ang pinsan niya to help her.”
“She said… she said…”
“I know. Like I said, don’t listen to her. She can’t do anything. Okay?”
I just nodded and nagpatianod nalang sa kanya. Lumipat kami sa kwarto, he sat me on his bed. Then he sat beside me.”
“You want water?” I nodded. Lumabas ito to get some water. Hindi ako gumalaw sa kina uupuan ko. I remained seated pero nakatingin sa malayo.
Hindi ko nga namalayan na dumating na siya and gave me the water. I accepted it and took a sip. Nilagay ko din sa bedside table yung baso at humarap sa kanya. He was holding a can of beer sa kamay niya.
He looked at me and gently caressed my hand. I looked at our hands and then at him. He was staring back at me. Then he drank from his beer.
“Why did you want to meet?” I kept silent. Pinag iisipan ko ang mgasasabihin ko. I was already decided when I came here, but after hearing her say those things, biglang umatras nanaman ako. I smiled a bit and looked down. Then inangat ko ang ulo ko sa kanya.
“I just miss you, I couldn’t wait for another day. I needed to see you.” He smiled and caressed me left cheek.
“I miss you, too. The fear that you might not want to see me is hovering my head. Akala ko, hindi mo na ako kakausapin.” Napapaiyak ako sa lungkot. I raised my hand to caress his cheek.
“I love you.” There. I finally said it. Biglang nanlai ang mga mata niya na tumingin sakin. He held my hand from his cheek and kissed it.
“I love you, too. You have no idea how long I yearned to hear that.” He kissed my palm then my wrist to my forehead, he continued to the tip of my red nose then to my lips.
He just gave me an innocent peck. Then he hugged me. I savored the moment, the last moment we will be close like this. I grabbed his beer and also drunk from it.
“Get another one, let’s get drunk tonight.” He eyed me suspiciously but went to grab more beer.
He came back with a basket of beer and some chips. Doon lang kami sa kama naupo while we drink and eat.
We talked about what happened, gusto kong malaman kung anong nagyari. I also listened of how he felt with the situation.
Mas nakarami pa siya ng nainom kaysa sakin. Namumula na din ito. Ilang oras din kaming nag iinuman at nagkkwentuhan lang.
Doon ko lang nalaman na nagtatago na siya kay Kisses at kung anong tunay na nangyayari sa kanya. Sobrang nakokonsensya ako sa pinagdadaanan niya.
When he was already drunk at nakahiga ang hating katawan sa higaan, placed the bottles back to the basket pati yung chips namin.
I laid down beside him and hug him closely. His eyes were closed pero dumilat ito ng naramdamang lumapit ak sa kanya.
I lifted my head and whispered in his ears in my guttural voice. “make love to me.” Humiwalay ito then looked at me suspiciously.
“Are you sure?” I nodded and raised my hand to caress his lips. “Please.” I begged.
“Don’t beg, my love. I’m going to give it to you, I just want you to be sure.”
“I’m sure. Take me.”
That said, he kissed me. This time, it was with need. We kissed like there’s no tomorrow. Ang mga kamay namin nasa mga pang itaas naming, kapwa ginagawan ng paraan mawala lang ang suot na pag itaas.
He unhook my bra as soon as nahubad niya ang top ko. His kisses were addicting, his hand on my mound, slowly kneading while the other was playing my n****e.
I moaned. Ang bibig naman nito ay nasa leeg ko na, ang mga kamay ko nakayakap sa kanyang balikat. Naparko ang balikat ko sa ginagawa niya.
He positioned himself in between my legs. Kapwa pa kami nakapantalon. He was taking his time in enjoying my mounds. My moans were not withheld, I keep moaning in pleasure.
Then his hands slide down my thighs, as he slowly massaged it. He hands were busy unbuckling my belt while his mouth now harasses my n*****s. Napapa ungol ako ng malakas sa sarap.
Finally, when he was able to unbuckle my belt, he swiftly took off my jeans along with my underwear. Bigla akong nahiya, its been a while since I waxed and there were little hair growing. He said he didn’t mind.
He kissed me under my mounds to my stomach, to my navel down to my flower. He sniffed then pushed his tongue out and into my wet core. Halos mabaliw ako sa sansasyon na binigay niya. He looked at me sexily before he held my legs to push it farther.
Nang maluwag ko na itong nabubuka ay agad naman itong napayuko saka dinilaan ang kahabaan ng guhit nito, napa angat ang balakang ko sa sarap.
He then lapped his tongue on my folds and sipped on my c******s. Napapasigaw ako sa kiliti at sarap. My hands either grip on the sheets or on his hair.
Halos mamaos ako at maputulan ng hininga sa ginagawa niya. He kept plunging in and out and keeps licking like he has his favorite lollipop.
Hinawakan na niya ang balakang ko para manatili itong di gumagalaw. Maya maya pay, naramdaman ko nalang na unti unti akong pinapasok ng mahabang bagay sa aking p********e.
“B-babe.. m-masakit..” bigla itong natigilan.
“Your first?” I didn’t answer but just looked away.
“s**t, sorry baby. I’ll be gentle.” Unti unting ipinasok nya ang mahabang bagay na yon sa loob ko.
I had to check, masakit ngunit parang masarap na ang nararamdaman ko. s**t. It was his finger. Napahiga ako sa kama and ended up moaning and groaning out his name.
May nararamdaman akong parang gustong lumabas habang abala si Miguel sa kaka pasok at labas ng kanyang daliri sakin.
“Miguel.. I-im gonna… ooh baby, parang.. parang may lalabas.” I told him. But he just chuckled and told me to just let it go.
Hindi ko na napigilan at parang nilabasan man din ako. Nabigla naman ako nang yumuko ito at parang may sinipsip sa ari ko.
He stood up after a while and unbuckled his belt. He removed his jeans along with his boxers. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko upon seeing his thing down there.
Fuck, he was big and long. He slowly leaned in like a lion about to eat his prey. He positioned in between then simply licked my mounds and kissed my n****e.
He wrapped my legs around his waist saka ito dumukwang palapit sa tenga ko.
“I will be gentle. I promise.” Napalunok ako saka tumitig sa mga mata niya.
Hiniga niya ako then started kissing me yet, again. This time, I feel something poking my v****a. Hindi naman ako tanga to not know what was poking.
I held his shoulder and looked in his eyes. Desire and lust, yun ang una kong nakikita sa mga mata niya. He then touched my leg before he slowly entered me.
Napapikit ako sa sakit. Pero dinahan dahan niya at paulit ulit niyang nilabas masok ang ari niya sa ari ko na di ko na nararamdaman ang sakit. Merong hapdi pero habang paulit ulit niya yung ginagawa ay napapalitan ng sarap ang bawat bayo.
Napapikit ako sa sarap. Napakagat labi din ako. Ang mga kamay ko naman ay nakayakap sa leeg niya. Parehong basa sa pawis. Napadilat ako nang magsalita ito. “Look at me, baby.”
Those deep set of blue eyes, staring back at me, his weight on top of me, and the way he thrusted in and out of me, all of these explains why I am so breathless right now.
Kumapit ako nang bahagya sa kanyang balikat habang umuulos siya sa akin. We kissed and it
was a deep one, one we both know na magpapadama sa pagmamahalan namin.
He pulled out and flipped me on my stomach taking me from behind. I moaned as he thrust once more. Para akong mawawalan ng ulirat sa sarap. He leaned forward to my shoulder and his lips were on my ear, whispering sweet words.
“Damn
it…” he whispered.
I
feel him so close, he grabbed my mounds and kneaded them as he thrusts.
“Oh,
baby.. I’m close..” I moaned as I close my eyes.
Nararamdaman
ko na malapit na din ako. In one last hard thrust, we both came and sighed.
Napahiga ako ng patihaya matapos niyang ilabas ang kanya sa akin and laid
beside me.
He
pulled me closer and held me tightly. He kissed my forehead and covered us with
a blanket. Agad naman akong napayakap sa matipuno niyang dibdib..
I
sighed and smiled. The man I have only dreamed of, and sure as hell won’t like
me or notice me, is the same man who now got my virginity and expressed how he
felt for me for so long.
But
the thought of what he said a while ago, it made me think twice. Tumingala ako
sa kanya at naramdamang nakatulog na ito.
I caressed his cheek and lightly kissed his lips. I don’t know what to do when something already happened.
My
eyes were brimming with tears as a thought came to me. I cannot ruin his
future. And I cannot hurt that someone who made it first even before me.
And
even if we were together, will it not be against all odds? If only you’re not
my professor and I am your student. If only we are at the same age, and if
only… if only you are not to be married, will we be happily be together?
Pinagmasdan
ko siyang natutulog ng mahimbing, dahan dahan akong umalis sa yakap at ipinalit
ang unan sa kanya. Pinulot ko ang aking mga damit saka nagbihis ng madalian.
Pinagmasdan
ko siyang muli at naluha na lamang, siguro hindi na niya ma aalala ang
nangyari. Lasing na lasing naman siya eh.
Hinay
hinay akong lumabas ng pinto saka inayos ang sarili ko at naglakad na palabas,
bago ako makasakay ng elevator ay pinagmasdan ko ang hallway papunta sa kwarto
niya. It was a bittersweet goodbye. Saka ko nilisan ang lugar na iyon.