The Beta's Decision

Fine with me

-Benjamin

"This is the 'Quiet Room' as I like to call it. This will be the Reading and Learning room. Some of the students already use it," Ella showed us around but all I could think of was Genesis.

The rejection. Her going out with another man tomorrow night.

She is trying to kill me and she is succeeding.

"Sweety, you okay?" Skye asked and wrapped her arm around mine, planting a kiss on my shoulder as she did so.

"I'm fine."

"Is there a secret space where students can go to fool around?" Sabrina asked and I tried hard to keep my cool.

That is all she could ever think about. s*x.

I have a nymphomaniac for a sister.

"Excuse me?" Ella and the others, including me, looked at her waiting for an answer.

"I mean, students like to fool around in libraries, don't they?"

"There is no such area here. You have to keep in mind that there is a school nearby and the most frequent visitors will be pupils. Minors. I would want this to be a safe space for everyone."

"Being that my sister spends most of the time sucking d**k, one expects her to ask this kind of questions," I blurted out and I felt ten pounds lighter.

"What the hell is your problem? That was a joke," Sabrina defended herself.

"Oh, so your kinds of jokes are only inappropriate ones?"

"Benjamin. You don't need to insult your sister in front of everyone," Skye looked embarrassed.

"How about you stay out of this? This does not concern you," I raised my voice more than expected but what came after . . .that I did not expect.

Skye slapped me and ran for it.

"You deserved that," Sabrina smiled and ran after Skye.

"In my office. Now!" Ella looked mad and I followed her and so did Xander.

"You are in trouble."

I rolled my eyes and ran my hand through my hair.

This day is getting a lot better.

"What the hell is your problem?" Ella shouted as soon as she closed the door of her office.

"Ella, please sit. I don't want you putting yourself and the baby in danger."

"Xander, thank you for being concerned about me, but right now, focus your concern and anger on him. He keeps insulting Sabrina and his bride-to-be. So I am asking again. What the hell is your problem?"

"Ella, this is between me and my sister."

"The hell it is. I may not be your Alpha, or know you for the longest time, but I am your damn Luna and you are going to tell me what is going on. Do you think I care about your brother-sister smackdown that is going on? You are hurting the people that care about you. Your fiancée slapped the s**t out of you. How about you pull yourself together?"

"Ella, calm down," Xander was trying not to raise his voice.

"Why do you care if I hurt the people that care about me? It is not like you care about me and I hurt you."

"Why do I care? Because your fiancée comes every night to my house and cries because of you. Your sister is crying because of you. Genesis, who you have ignored for the past week, has been crying and hurting because of you. You may not have hurt me but you sure as hell have hurt people that I care about and care about you."

She walked out of the office and slammed the door behind her.

The only thing that she said that got to me, was that I have hurt Genesis.

She has been hurting because of me?

"Benjamin, you haven't been in your right mind lately. I hate to admit it, but Ella is right. You have hurt a lot of people. I don't know what is going on with you, but if you want to talk about it with someone, you know I am here."

I placed my head on the desk and as emotionally exhausted as I was, I couldn't keep it to myself anymore.

"I kissed Genesis today. I kissed her and I hate myself for it."

"You what?" Xander was more surprised than angry.

"It happened. I couldn't control myself."

"So I sent you home because you weren't in your right mind. Instead, you go looking for Genesis and kiss her, when you are about to get married to another woman?"

"That sums it up. Yeah."

"Dude, this is killing you."

"You think?" I banged my hand on the desk and Xander sighed.

"I am sorry. It's just . . . What is actually bothering me, is that Genesis rejected me."

Xander looked at me without saying a word.

"It hurt. She rejected me because what we have, could never happen. I have been a jerk to her all these years and yet . . . I don't know what to do, Xander."

He stood from his chair and put his hands inside his jeans' pockets.

"I thought you didn't want to be with her."

"I don't," I said defensively.

"Or maybe I do. But still. That was too much even for me."

"Ben, I am no expert in these things, but I have been through hell to be where I am right now with Ella and it was worth it."

"How is that supposed to help me?" I asked, desperate to have an answer.

"Maybe you should go through hell too. Maybe it will be worth it in the end."

He left me alone in Ella's office.

Go through hell; I thought to myself.

If this is what hell feels like or worse, I am not sure I want to go through it.

I stood from the chair and decided to go find the others.

Just as I reached the lobby, I smelled her perfume. My heart started pounding again and I hated it. My fiancée is here and she does not know, that my heart beats like this for another woman.

I am a piece of s**t.

Walking a little further, I recognised a male voice. It was not Xander's.

Fuck.

I rushed toward the reception and I saw her talking to him. The guy who had asked her out not one hour ago.

"Ready to go?" He asked her.

"I will get my purse and be right there."

What the hell? She is going out with him now?

My skin felt like fire and my blood boiled.

I will kill him.

She came back from her office, holding her purse and coat and as she walked towards Paul, I know she sensed me because her expression changed, but she did not look at me.

He offered his hand and she took it.

"She is mine," I mutter through gritted teeth.

My wolf surfaces enough for me to lose control and I ran toward them.

"Stop!" A very domineering voice shouts and I stop immediately. It's Xander's Alpha voice. I can not disobey him.

I looked at the door and wished it were made of glass, so I could see her go, even if it pained me.

"You are lucky Skye is at the Café with Ella and Sabrina. She would kill you if she found out."

Fine with me. Then the misery would go away.