The Beta's Decision

Heart attack

-Genesis

Benjamin is kissing me. His lips are really on mine. His hands are on me. On me!

He pushed me until I was backed up on my bedroom door and scooped me up and I voluntarily wrapped my legs around him. He opened the bedroom door and I knew he wanted me too. He wants me.

I pulled slightly on his hair and he growled.

Just then he stopped kissing me and looked at me. He just looked at me.

"We can't do this," he said suddenly, and I knew that we would never be able to have each other. He put me down and my heart felt a thousand times heavier. This is all there is ever going to be between us.

"You are right." I couldn't believe I just said that, but it was true. He is engaged to be married to Skye.

"This can not happen again. You just kissed me because of the mating bond. I know you hate me," I managed to say it quickly.

"Genesis, no . . "

"I do not want to hear you say anything about you not hating me or any other crap you can come up with. This is driving me crazy. I keep having nightmares because of you. My heart nearly explodes everytime I see you with her. I can't take this anymore. It is enough."

"What does that mean?" He grabbed my hands but I pulled them away. I do not want him touching me. Not if I am going to do this.

"I, Genesis Martin, reject you, Benjamin Peters, Beta of the Golden Moon."

My world crashed after saying those words. Everything was spinning. My heart felt like it was being pulled out of me with an unsharpened knife. This hurts too much.

"No. No! I won't reject you. How dare you?"

"You are to be married to Skye," I said as tears flowed down my face.

This is the only thing that is going to get me through this. I have to forget him. I have to get rid of this bond. This is not love that we have. This is torture. Having to see him with another woman. He sleeps with another woman and he expects me to be okay with it? No. Enough is enough.

"I don't care!" He yelled and grabbed me by my shoulders. I tried to move away. I do not want him touching me. It makes me weak. It means too much.

"Let me go, Ben," I cried and when I saw his face, it was just more pain for me. His eyes were red. He has the same expression he had that day when I told him I had found my mate. This is killing me.

"No. You are my mate."

"I am not yours anymore. I rejected you," I yelled, but he didn't care. He brought me closer to him and it made the rejection even more painful.

"I am not going to reject you. I will not do it!"

"If you won't, I will make you. You know I can do it. You know fairies can manipulate. That is why you hate me, isn't it?"

"I don't hate you," he shouted, and let go of me.

"Leave. I do not want to see you again. I don't want you near me. I don't want you thinking about me or looking at me. I want you out of my life."

"You don't mean that," he murmured painfully.

"I do. I am giving you what you always wanted. You wanted me dead. Away from Bells. Ever since the accident. Here it is."

"Why are you trying to hurt me?" His hands turned into fists and that is when I knew, he was about to lose control.

"I am freeing you. Reject me and you will finally be freed of me. You will be able to marry Skye. She is the one you want."

"I do not want Skye," he growled, and punched the door with all his strength and I flinched. When I opened my eyes, the door was turned into pieces of broken wood which splattered across the floor.

He was now breathing heavily and looking all around the floor at the broken door.

"I am sorry."

"Leave," I whispered, and he looked hurt.

"Please leave," I said again, and this time he obliged.

As soon as he left, I fell on the floor and put my hands around me, trying not to have a meltdown. This was the end between Benjamin and me. The only thing that was left to do, was to make him reject me. After that, I will never have to suffer because of him. Ever again.

Now I have to pull myself together and fix the door, before someone starts questioning me.

With a wave of my hand, the door splinters started putting themselves back together and in no time, the door was back on and standing. Not a scratch to be seen.

I stood up from the floor and decided to take a shower before Ella comes back from training and we have to leave for work.

*****

A shower can really clear one's mind and body at the same time. It really helped calm me down. I looked at the clock on my nightstand which showed I only had less than an hour to get ready.

I rummaged through my closet to find something to wear. To my luck, Ella had gone shopping while I was in the hospital and bought me some clothes. I wanted to pay her back, but she insisted it was a gift from her.

She has helped me a lot since she came. She is the only person to be by my side, no matter what she has heard about me. I don't know how I will ever repay her.

As I kept looking for something appropriate to wear at work, I found a beautiful light blue pencil skirt and decided to combine it with a white shirt and white stilettos. This is just perfect and simple.

"Genesis, are you inside?" I heard Fey, Ella's younger sister, calling from outside the door.

"Yes. Come in."

"Hey. I didn't see you downstairs, so I thought you would be here. Want to go grab something to eat tonight?"

"I would love to, but it's my first day at work and I don't know how long I will be working today."

"Oh, that is right. I forgot."

"It's okay. How about I text you when I am done and we can go out then. Ella and Sabrina could come with us as well."

"Well, to be completely honest, I wanted to be alone with you."

Oh no. I smell trouble.

I wrapped the towel around me again and walked out of the closet.

"What is going on?" I asked as soon as I walked inside the room.

She looks pretty concerned.

"You know I will be seventeen in a couple of weeks."

"Yes. So?"

She took a deep breath before she spoke again.

"I want to have s*x with Xavier on my birthday."

"Fey! I thought you wanted to wait until you turned eighteen."

"I can't wait that long."

"But Fey, you haven't even marked each other yet. It is too soon. Besides, why did you want to talk about this with me?"

"Because Ella would freak out and tell on me to dad or send me back home. I want to stay here."

"Listen Fey. I really appreciate you coming to me to seek advice. You should always talk to someone about that, but I don't think I am the right person. You should be talking about this with your mother or Ella."

"But they will think I am dying to have s*x and can not wait."

"Why would they think that?"

"I don't know. My mother waited until she got married. Daniella too and so did Ella."

"Fey, you are not your mother or sisters. If you want my advice, here it is. Talk about it with your mother. You have to trust her. She will be there for you."

She looked disappointed but smiled and gave me a hug.

"Thank you."

"You are welcome."

Boy, if I have kids and they come to me to talk about s*x, I think I would have a heart attack.