The Destroyed Luna

Chapter 6: Milly

***CONTENT WARNING!!!*** THE FOLLOWING CHAPTER DEPICTS SEVER DESCRIPTIONS OF DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, AND BAD SELF SPEACH!!! THIS MAYBE UPSETING FOR SOME READERS!!! READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

How long has it been? A day? A week? A month? A year? I have no idea. All I know right now is the pain of my broken heart. All I know is that this is the worst feeling I have ever felt.

Why did Liam do this to me? Why did he lead me on like this? Why did he make my heart so full just to rip my soul out and crush it right in front of my face?

I feel so tired. I feel so broken. I don’t want to wake up, but I know Star needs her rest. Why does it hurt so bad though? We weren’t even fated mates. Is this what it feels like to be rejected? Is this what every wolf feels when their world falls apart?

I shake my head and roll to my other side. It can’t be nearly as bad as being truly rejected. I guess there is that. If I had been truly rejected, there is a huge possibility that I would have died from the pain. I just want to fade away. I want to fade into the background of reality and then completely disappear from everyone and everything.

There is no hope for me. There is no use for me. I am clearly unlovable from all standards and walks of life. I was the least loved out of my siblings. I was the least sought after when I was in school. Nobody wants second best when they could have Mia or Max. I am nothing and I will always be nothing.

Milly, are you there?

I am. What is wrong Star? I don’t want to do anything right now.

I know, but I need your help. Would you be okay with us sleeping in the dungeon for a little while? Just until you are ready to take back over?

I honestly don’t care, Star. I am just trying to talk myself out of just fading away. Please, just make the best choices you can. I will work through everything else when I am ready to take back the control.

Alright…

I sigh and roll back over on my side. Why can’t Star just figure this all out? She is going to be on her own soon enough. I don’t need to be in this world any longer. I don’t deserve to be here any longer. What purpose do I serve here? What could possibly be the reason I need to be here?

Milly, my child. Please, let me comfort you.

Who is there?

It is me, Selene. We need to talk again.

Ha! We never talked the last time we spoke to each other.

I know, but I have others who wish to speak to you as well.

I roll my eyes and huff. Fine… Bring me into your world.

I feel my body pulled into the dream state and I feel myself come out of the water of the pond. Sitting on her usual rock is none other than Selene the Moon Goddess. Standing next to her are two wolves and two people who look pretty familiar.

“What is this? Some kind of intervention? Who are all of these people?” I fold my arms across my chest and huff.

“You must have been gone from me for too long.” A white wolf with a black star on her forehead says. “It is me, Milly. I’m your wolf, Star.”

I gasp and rub my eyes. “Star? What are you doing here? How is this possible?”

Star rolled her eyes and shook her head. “It is possible because I am asleep right now. You need to come back home. You need to wake up and take back control of our bodies and your life.”

The woman walks closer and I realize just who it is.

“Mom…? Is that you?”

She smiles and nods her head. “Yes, baby girl, it is me. You need to know something. We both love you. We know that it has been so hard on you since we left. We know that life hasn’t treated you fairly either.”

My father walks over to me and wraps me in a tight hug before he tilts my chin up to look at him. “My baby girl, I am so sorry that you have felt neglected by everyone. I am so sorry that you feel you are a waste of space or any of that other stuff you keep telling yourself. You are not any of those things. You are my beautiful, smart, kind, carefree, and mischievous little girl. You have always been the thrill seeker out of all of our kids. You have made it your goal in life to drive us crazy with that because we just want you to be happy, healthy, and safe. Please know that we love you just as much as we love the other two. Milly, you are also our pride and joy.”

I shake my head as the tears start to flow down my cheeks. “Why did you leave? Mom left me all alone with only Mia for guidance. Now you have left me all alone with only Will for guidance. I need you! I need both of you and you both left me!” I start to break down. I can feel myself hyperventilating. “You both left me!”

I feel my father pull me close to his chest and start to kiss my head. I feel my mother place a loving hand on my back and start rubbing soothing circles around it. I even feel Star come over and place her head on my shoulder. The other wolf came closer as well, but he didn’t touch me. He just sat down next to Star as I cried into my father’s chest.

When I finally calmed down enough to breathe, I lifted my head and looked into my father’s eyes. “Why did I have to fall in love with Liam?”

My father sighed and gave me a sad look as he slowly shook his head left and right. “I have no idea, baby girl. I do know that I never wanted something like this to happen to you. I never wanted you to suffer the way that I did or the way your mother did.”

I swallowed hard and looked between the two of them. “You both fell in love with someone who wasn’t your mate?”

My mother smiled sadly and shook her head. “No… We fell in love with each other and then we both had to suffer with the fact that we couldn’t be together anymore.”

I swallowed hard and nodded my head slowly. “I see… So you’re saying that the pain I am feeling right now isn’t valid…”

My mother shook her head hard. “NO! That is not what we are saying at all. What we are saying is we NEVER wanted to see any of our children suffer the way that we did. In turn, it looks as though you all are going to suffer but in very different ways. Mia has already gone through some of her trials. All of you have gone through the trial of becoming orphans… We don’t like to see any of you in pain or having hard times, but we know that this has hit you the hardest. Mia has Will to help her through all of this, Max is still a child and is being guided and led through all of his emotions by Walter who has two grown boys, but you… You have truly had no one to help you over the last two years and we are so sorry. We never wanted this for you.”

I bite my lip and shake my head. “Why did this have to happen?”

Selene sighs and moves forward. “It had to happen to prepare you for your mate. When you finally take back control, you will get to meet him. Until then, you are both trapped in this weird spot. Star and Fenrir know each other and have been doing their best to comfort one another through this whole process. When you finally shift back, your mate is not going to be mentally ready for you and it is going to be a long road of breaking down walls. You have to know how to feel love even when you are surrounded by self-hate and doubt. That is the lesson that had to be learned before you met your mate.”

I sniffle and shake my head. “I don’t understand. Why do I have to learn this lesson?”

Selene sighs. “You have to be the one to learn it because he hasn’t been able to learn it himself. Please believe me when I tell you this. You are his last hope. You have to learn to love yourself and then show him how to love himself before you two can love each other. Each fated mate relationship starts off with pure lust that is supposed to bloom into love over time. You two have to start with love before the lust will come into play.”

I feel my bottom lip start to quiver as I realize what she is saying. “So, you are sending a broken mess to fix a broken mess? That doesn’t make any sense.”

Selene smiles softly and shakes her head. “It does when the mess turns into the most beautiful picture of all. Trust me, when everything is said and done, you and your mate will have a relationship that others will envy for centuries to come. Just trust me.”

I sigh and nod my head. “Okay… When do I need to go meet him?”

Selene sighs and looks up at the stars. “You should go and meet him now.”

I feel myself fly backwards and as I land gently on the ground, I snap my eyes open.

I look down and realize that my paws are present. I sniff the air and that is when something clicks inside of me.

Mate.