Your lie that night

Chapter 17

Only 1 month was left for Shreyan's wedding. the whole palace was getting renovated. From new bulbs to new paint, new flower decorations, and new curtains. everything was new there, even our section was getting renovated. Everyone was working, some were carrying ladders, and some were cleaning the floor but I was ordered to decorate the flower vase, as it was less effort job. Leiya and Anku were fighting with each other on some topic and we all were laughing at them when a lady on head servant uniform came toward me.

'Is your name Katerina?', she asked

'Yes, why?'

'Young master is waiting for you in his room', her words gave me a shock.

'Waiting for me, why?', I stammered

'it's important, according to him'

'Now'

'Yes, please come with me', I was stomped and there was no reason for me not to go. I stood without anyone noticing me and followed her. Different questions were arising in my mind, most of them were because I wasn't confident if I would be able to control myself from adhering to him again if he shows a little bit of empathy, as I thought I was still not over him. When We reached the door, the lady stood there, signing me to go inside. I stood out there, I wasn't ready to face him but I don't know when my legs were already walking inside. He was sitting on a chair facing away from me. He knew I was there but still was silent. After a while when the environment was too awkward I opened my mouth

'Why did you call me?', I tried to sound rude but I stammered. He turned his chair around to face me and stood up from there. I was watching his face after so long and his face, his exposed canine were no longer stopping my breath. 'Please sit', he pointed at the sofa and I followed his direction.

'Katy I know, there is a lot of things that need to be sorted out between us but at first, I need to know, if that baby in your womb is mine or not?',

'What?', he was asking me that directly for the first time when we talked after so many months. It showed why he wanted to see me. It was not for me, not for the baby just to know if I had proof of his mistake or not. His question hurt me but I fixed myself. I closed my eyes and remembered Saurav telling me to be strong. I began to interpret what Saurav would have wanted me to do if he was there. so I decided to be strong over him

'It's mine'

'I know it's yours, but father?'

'It doesn’t have one'

He stood up in reticent, 'But you need sperm to have one, just tell me whose sperm is that?'

More arrow in my heart, 'Katy be strong, be strong', a gust of air came whispering this to me in Saurav's voice.

'Why do you need that. Are you afraid if it's yours? Don't get hope on that'

'Then why are you here?', he shouted

'It's none of your concern'

'This is my house Katy', he came toward me in rage

'So what, this is the place where I work', I shouted back when he kneeled down on the floor and kept his hand on my thigh, which was not creating any series of current like before

'Look, Katy. I want to be honest now. so listen to me. The thing that happened between us that night was an attraction, it was lust and I thought it was the same for you'

'Lust, attraction', I gasped, 'was that all, Shreyan, was that the only reason of you being there for a whole week until you get to sleep with me'

'No, that's not the case. I was there because I liked being around you', he moved his finger through my hair again, 'I liked the way you used to be shy when I came near you, I liked the way you used to stare at me. I liked everything about you, I liked you but still was our relation that serious that you are carrying my baby? So I need to assure you if it's not mine'

'What if it was yours, Shreyan?'

'I would definitely suggest you abort it. And I would question you why you haven't done that till now'

'How dare you tell me to abort my baby', I screamed when the word abort hit my ear. It felt as if someone was killing my child in front of my eyes

'That means it's mine, right?'

'What if it's your sperm, I have shared my loneliness with him for 4 months now. What if it's your sperm it was my decision to let it grow inside me, what if it's your sperm, it's mine and only mine. And don’t worry I will never reveal this to anyone'

'Are you mad Katy? Have you looked at you? you are just 15 Katy wake up from your dream. Your career, your study just think about your family'

'I don't care, once I have thought of letting my baby live then that's it. My age, my family, my career couldn't come between. And why do you think I am not mature enough huh you slept with me I was mature enough that time, wasn't I?'

'Look, it wasn't my fault completely, I warned you about that but you were the one who'

'I know Shrey. I know so I don't blame you for it. It was me the whole time who was in a one-sided relationship, and one-sided love imagining things on my head. So you are free Shrey I forgive you for not replying to my email, I forgive you for engaging to Lila when I came here to ask for your love, I forgive you for humiliating me that day. I forgive you for everything and just know I am over you Shrey', my heartfelt lighter when I forgave him for everything. It felt like there was no gurge left for me on him. I felt like a bird who just knew how to fly in the sky. I really felt I broke down the one last connection that I had with Shrey.

You are over me?'

'Yes, I am over you. I have no feelings left for you. No love no gurge and just a little request to let me work here until I get ready to tackle my family with this', I kept my hand on the stomach.

'it stills feel nonsense, I can't see you in misery all alone'

'You won't because I have tackled all the miseries that came on the way already, I have already learned to remain happy on what I got', I turned around and went near the door when he stopped me from pulling my hands from the back

'you can't do that to me, Katy'

''What have I done to you?'

'Now after knowing you are going to have my baby, how can I marry Lila'

'Like you were going to do before knowing'

'Listen, Katy, I can understand your feeling, your anger toward me but still, I can't have a baby'

'Why are you having a problem because of it. I am saying you have nothing to do with it. It's my baby and it's my responsibility. Just think that night never happened'

'But that night was the best night I had ever had in my life', even his that statement wasn't hampering me, I went toward him and held his hand, 'I pity you Shrey, cause you don’t even know what you feel maybe it's a problem of you high-class family. You can't stand being with a girl with a background like mine, but still is affected.'

'I agree with you, I am the one who can't be with a girl like you cause I have a father who is ready to give away all of the possession that I deserve to other under the influence of my stepmom if he founds a small mistake of mine.'

'So  I am telling you I pity you. All your feelings are influenced by your class that you don't realize what your real feelings are. Don't worry I will never be the reason for your dad to point out his finger at you', I said and released my hand from his and went straight toward Saurav's office. I don’t know why but I needed to see him right away. With time my walk was becoming a run and I was craving to see his face.

I thud open the door of the office giving him the shock and looked him straight into his eyes

'I am over him Saurav'.