Sophia I was feeling disheartened by now and Joshua's words kept ringing in my head when he asked us not to feel the way I was feeling currently but it's my fourth attempt and I suck at it terribly. How am I good at learning new things? Total crap, father might have been wrong about me...It doesn't apply to everything. I was feeling like sulking like a child and throwing this lump of distorted mud on the wall or better at someone's face. Not only did it feel like a sheer defeat but it also aroused annoyance and a little anger. I wasn't even able to ask for Professor Joshua's help because of Caleb. Guess, I was pushing him a little too much. 'Sigh' The class which seemed to be fun is no longer fun for me. "Soph! What are you doing? You look like a wrung-out cloth spread crooked