Chapter 8 – Keep on Dreaming
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Leah’s POV
I woke up in Kai’s bed. He seductively looked down at me. "Morning" he soothed.
I slowly moved to sit up and tried to tame my wild hair, "Leave it, I like it. Its wild, like you"
I grinned. I liked this Kai. He was sexy and confident. This could be dangerous.
"What makes you say I’m wild?" I asked seductively.
"I can see it in your eyes, they are the windows to your soul."
His words sent shivers down my spine and my n*****s instantly reacted. I rubbed them instinctively, making them harder and my core ached and throbbed with need. s**t.
He leant over, closing the gap between us, and I didn’t stop him, I wanted this. I had been waiting for this. I needed it.
I put my hands around his neck and pulled him in, his lips touched mine and the electricity was electrifying. My body demanded more, his tongue slipped in, and we fought each other for control. Breathless, we pulled away.
"Kai" I breathed heavily as I squeezed my legs together trying to relive some of the throbbing.
"Want me to help you with that?" he was so brazen and raw. It turned me on no end, and despite knowing it was wrong, I found myself nodding with compliance.
We weren’t in a relationship, man, we had only had one conversation in as many years, but I couldn’t help myself.
He slid his hand down my shorts and panties and slid his fingers between my folds, already slick with desire for him. He circled my bud and I arched my back.
"f**k, Kai, that feels so good"
I leant over to him and put my hand on his groin, rubbing him over his boxers, excited to feel his growing excitement and eager to please him too.
I didn’t want him to stop touching me, but I moved his hand away so I could get a better feel of his manhood. I went to put my hand in his boxers, but as I moved it down…
"Leah"
"mmmmm"
"Leah" a little louder.
I stirred, still in the process of moving my hand a little further down.
"LEAH"
My eyes shot open.
Oh f**k no. I had been asleep. I was soaked through, and my hand was still on his erection.
I moved my hand from it at lightening speed, but there was no coming back from that.
"f**k" I shouted. I was mortified. I couldn’t look at him. I knew I was a deep shade of red.
I pulled my knees up to my chest and held my head in my hands.
"Leah"
"Kai, s**t, I don’t know what to say. I am so sorry! I am mortified. I should go. Shit."
I went to leave, and he pulled me back onto the bed.
"Leah, look at me"
"I can’t"
"Look at me" he said softly.
I did as he said, shame written all over my face.
"It was just a wet dream, Leah. It’s a natural part of growing up. And believe me, wet dreams are hot!"
"Holy f**k! You heard me say that!" I got up to leave. That was more than I could bear.
"Sorry, Leah, I’m sorry, come back, I was messing." I could hear the merriment in his voice and I just wanted to run.
He knelt up and grabbed me, so I fell back on the bed, his erection still very evident. My eyes widened when I saw it in the flesh.
"Yeah, sorry about that, my body has a mind of its own when it’s touched."
"s**t Kai, I’m so embarrassed, please, let me go."
"No way. If we don’t clear the air now, how are you going to spend two hours in the car with me in the morning, never mind the entire day at the hospital, the trip back and, um, I don’t know, the rest of our lives – I assume you intend to be Kaya’s friend forever! You can’t avoid me forever!"
"I don’t know, you did a pretty good job of avoiding me last year!"
"Touche"
"Kai, how bad was that – honestly" the heat in my cheeks was going nowhere, but I needed to know, I’d only worry about it indefinitely if I didn’t.
He grinned, "Bad? Leah, from my perspective, it was not bad. It was f*****g hot!"
"For f**k’s sake Kai, you’re not helping. What did I do? I mean, I know what happened in my dream." I looked away; this was horrific. "But what did I actually do?"
He almost looked embarrassed as he said "you touched yourself, and then you touched me. Then I woke you up."
"Why didn’t you wake me up sooner?"
His face was a picture "ahhh, yes, well, when you started, I thought maybe it would be more embarrassing for you if I woke you up than if I pretended it didn’t happen. But then, when you started touching me, I knew I had to wake you. No matter how much I was enjoying the show!"
"f**k Kai, why do you have to do that? Why do you have to make this more embarrassing for me than it already is?"
"I’m sorry, I’m sorry, really, I am, I’ll stop!"
"You enjoyed it?" my eyes widened as I realised I had said that out loud "Ahhhh why do I do this to myself. s**t. Pretend I didn’t say anything." I got up to leave for the third time.
For the third time, he pulled me back onto the bed. Only this time I fell forwards onto him.
I could feel his erection pressing into my stomach and my breath hitched in my throat, my lips were milometers away from his mouth and as I opened my eyes and looked up into his, for the first time, I recognised that look.
"You want to kiss me" I said, as a wry smile crept across my lips.
"s**t" was barely audible.
"Oh my god, you do, don’t you?"
"Leah, please"
"What Kai? What do you want me to do?"
I felt like I had all the power, and I was feeling brazen. I don’t know what had come over me, but at that moment, I lost a little control, but I knew exactly what I was doing.
He moved a little beneath me and his erection twitched on my belly. I moved my body up just enough, so his d**k was throbbing on my swollen core.
"Move," he almost whispered.
I knew what he meant, but I also knew he didn’t mean it.
So, I did move, just, not off him, but against him.
I started to slowly grind against him, never taking my eyes from his. His irises almost seemed to go a shade darker as he let out a soft moan.
"Hmmmm," it was music to my ears.
"Kiss me Kai"
I didn’t have to ask him twice, this time he took control and kissed me, hard and with passion, our tongues classed and invaded each other’s mouths and his hands moved to cup my face. It was better than anything I had dreamed of.
I moved my hips rhythmically against his crotch, the throbbing, aching sensation deepened to a desperate need for release.
"Leah, we need to stop" he heaved.
"Why?" I didn’t want to.
"Because if we don’t, you may do something you regret."
"What about you? Would you regret it?"
"No, but that’s different."
"Why?"
I sat up still on him, straddling him as I looked at him, wanting to know his reasoning.
"Because I’m not a virgin, Leah. And, well, Kaya is your best friend. She would expect this from me, maybe not from you?"
"f**k Kai! That’s so twisted. Double standards. I should have known better than to think you were different."
"No, wait, I didn’t mean it like that, please, let me explain."
I stood in the doorway.
"I’m listening"
"Please, come back". He patted the bed and I sat on the edge.
"Well?"
"Okay, s**t" he looked nervous "Leah, that day last year that you walked into the bathroom, you remember?"
I could hardly forget it! "Obviously, Kai, I wasn’t going to forget it in a hurry, was I!"
He smirked "Well, neither did I."
"I know! You avoided me for an entire year because of it."
He ignored me and carried on.
"I was sure you were going to say something to Mum or Kaya, and I knew I’d be in the s**t for it, so for at least two weeks I waited for the backlash."
"Kai, that makes no sense, I walked in on you and dropped my towel. You were just cleaning your teeth. Why the hell would I embarrass myself by telling them what I did? f**k. You saw me naked!"
"Yes, I did" was he blushing? "I was avoiding you because I couldn’t picture you with clothes on. Even when you were standing in front of me in them. It was embarrassing. I had no control over my bodily functions’" he looked at his crotch "and I didn’t know what to say to him. I was trying to get you out of my head!"
"So, it’s all just physical? You think if we have s*x, you’ll get me out of your head and what, move on?"
"Leah!"
"What? It’s a legitimate question, how do you know I won’t agree to it?"
"Girls don’t think like that."
"Hypocritical bullshit, don't you think? Why can’t girls think like that, so your saying boys can’t fall in love and have feelings and attachments?"
"I’m not saying that."
"Sounds like double standards to me!"
"I guess it does, doesn’t it?"
"Just a bit, yeah"
"But surely you don’t want your first time to be a one-night stand?"
"How do you know it’s my first time?"
"I just do" he lowered his eyes sheepishly.
"Well, even if it was, who's to say it would be a one-night stand? And even if it was, I’m not saying I wouldn’t be okay with that. I’m not precious about my virginity, Kai. Don’t get me wrong. I wouldn’t just give it up for anyone. But I’m certainly not holding onto it for marriage, far from it."
"So, you would be okay with a one -night stand?"
"Going back to the original question, for you, is it just physical? You think if we have s*x, you’ll get me out of your head and move on?"
"Yes. Now I sound like a jerk"
"I would say it’s the most honest you have been so far tonight, and I respect you for it.".
"Really?"
"Yes, now, about Kaya. She would forgive you but not me, you say?"
"You’re twisting my words."
"No Kai, I’m repeating your words"
"Well, she would expect me to be a jerk. She would want more for you than a one-night stand with me."
"Okay, you are half right’
"WHAT, you two have talked about us having s*x?"
"NO! you i***t, she thinks you have a crush on me. She said if I felt the same, she would be happy for us to get together."
"She said that?"
"Yes Kai, I wouldn’t be saying it if she didn’t!"
"What did you say?"
"I lied!"
"And said what?"
"Ugh. I said I wasn’t remotely interested in you."
"But you are?"
"Duh! Wet dreams Kai, you played heavily in the last one, quite physically I believe!"
"That’s just a dream."
"Based on real fantasies"
"How long?"
"About as long as you! Please try and keep up!"
"So, you think, if we have s*x, you’ll get me off your mind too?"
"Not exactly. But I’m prepared to give it a go!"
At this point, emotionally, I wasn't really sure what I was letting myself in for. I knew for me it was unlikely to go away, but if he thought it could work, maybe it was worth a shot. I mean, if all else fails, at least I know my first time is with a guy who respects me enough to have a legitimate conversation about it with him first. A hot guy, I have been lusting after for what seems like forever, no less. Not only that, but the fact that he had stopped and checked this is what I wanted, was very honorable and a far cry from some of the first times the girls in my year had had.
"What if you get stronger feelings?"
"What if you do?"
"Guys are wired differently"
"Again, with the bullshit."
"It’s not bullshit, it’s kind of true."
"Yeah, okay, well, we can figure that out if it happens."
"I don’t want it to be awkward between us."
"What because it was so peachy between us before?"
"Good point." He chuckled.
"And Kaya?"
He raised his brow. "It would be weird if you asked her to be a part of this, and I would be running for the hills."
I laughed "you’re such a d**k Kai, I mean, do we tell her?"
" Well, I, for one, am not into s*x chats with my little sister. But I’m not gonna tell you not to. She’s your best mate, and I know you’ll wanna talk to her. Just, please, whatever you do, tell her you wanted this. Because if you don’t want this, you need to say so now."
"So, we are going to do this then?"
"I guess we are, if you still want to?"
"Kai, I’m kind of not feeling it right now. It sort of feels a little, I don’t know, staged and weird."
"Yeah, I know, feels like we just agreed a contract for s*x. Passion and lust have gone right out the window! Wanna just cuddle and go to sleep?"
"Yeah"
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