My Best Friends Brother and Me

Chapter 10 – Pain V’s Pleasure

Leah’s POV

Well, that was an anti-climax, to say the least! But at least we cleared the air, and we were honest about our feelings. Well, I wasn’t completely honest, I was too pissed off that he made assumptions. But maybe he was right, maybe I would get him out of my system if we just had s*x.

The problem was, would we now get the opportunity?

I fell asleep with him spooning me, which surprised me. I thought he was all business about the s*x and not so much into the cuddling. Seems I may have misjudged him a little.

He woke up before me and when I got up, I went straight into the shower. When I got out, I headed into Kaya's room where all my clothes were and got dressed.

I made my way downstairs and Kai was at the kitchen table eating breakfast.

"I made you a coffee."

"Thanks" I smiled as I went to get it.

"Dad called"

"s**t, I missed it! What did he say?"

"Not much. She was stable but tired, no different to last night really, but he sounded terrible."

"Come on then. Let’s go. The sooner we get there, the sooner we can see for ourselves"

We set off on the hour and a half journey to the hospital. It was one of the things living so far out in the sticks that made life difficult. Everything was so far away.

"Can I link my phone?"

"Why?" he asked curiously.

"You’re driving. I’m the DJ" I stated, as if it was obvious. I thought it was.

He laughed "Yeah, go for it!"

I sang along to the tunes with my feet on the dash, no longer feeling self-conscious in front of Kai. We talked nonstop for most of the journey and when we arrived at the hospital, Cal met us at the front door to take us down to the ICU.

When we got there, Kaya looked like crap. She had drips attached to her, machines were beeping and she was covered in wires.

"Wow, didn’t half do it in style hun!" I tried to keep smiling, but it was a difficult site to see.

She smiled weakly "Yeah I know right!"

We stayed and chatted for as long as the staff let us.

"You two seem to be getting on really well! I thought you were at war against one another!" she grinned.

"We held a peace treaty, Amnesty", I smiled.

When the nurses kicked us out, we went to the family room to go and see Mel and Cal. They looked crestfallen.

"What’s the matter?" Kai had the same concern on his face as I did. Something was wrong.

They looked at each other and Mel nodded.

Cal spoke quietly, "It’s not good news" he choked out.

"What isn’t?" I asked, not understanding.

"The consultant came by with her results while you were with Kaya. While she was stable, she wasn’t getting any better, despite the treatment. When the results came back, they realised why. She has gone into septic shock, complete organ failure"

"What does that even mean?" Kai asked, although I think it was clear we all had a pretty good idea.

"She’s dying Kai" I said softly, in mild disbelief. "Isn’t she?" I needed clarification, hoping I was wrong.

I was broken. I didn’t really need them to answer because I knew it was true.

Mel nodded and the tears streamed down her face. "We aren’t going to tell her."

"Why not!?" Kai shouted.

"She doesn’t need to know. Everyone she loves is here, knowing it will just frighten her." I spoke with raw emotion.

"How do you know that?" he was angry.

"Because we are the same, and that’s how I would feel’, I stated calmly. I also knew it was what Mel and Cal needed to hear, that they were doing the right thing. I honestly thought that they were.

"Okay", Kai resounded to the fact that this was how it was going to be, and we all just broke down, shock taking over.

"How am I going to go back in there and be normal?" I choked out.

"She is critically ill Leah, she won’t expect you to be too normal", Kai placated, his eyes glazed.

"I guess" my heart sank, trying to take it all in, "Kai, what are we going to do without her? I can’t do this’" I started to cry and he held me in his arms, not caring his parents were there.

He swallowed hard, whispering "We've got each other."

I hoped he meant it; I wasn’t prepared to be alone. Kaya was like a sister to me; she was my best friend and I have known her my entire life. This was all just so wrong.

"I think maybe it’s best you two go home and let this sink in. Come back tomorrow when it’s not all so raw?" Cal suggested.

"Cal, I’m scared"

"Me too, sweetheart, me too" he pulled me into a hug, and I sobbed all over again.

"Come on, Let me take you home", Kai suggested. I think deep down he wasn’t ready to face Kaya either, pretending like everything was going to be okay.

"Can I stay with you? I don’t want to go home to an empty house"

"Dad?" Kai asked for permission.

"Fine by us, I’d rather you weren’t on your own either. Can you let you folks know?"

"Sure. I’ll ring my dad. Can you tell Kaya we’ll be back tomorrow?"

"Dad, did they say how long?" Kai said a little absentmindedly.

I wasn't sure i wanted to know the answer. Although I knew deep down, it was better to be prepared.

"Days. Maybe weeks. It is unlikely to be in the next 48 hours". He could barely look us in the eyes.

We left the hospital a couple of hours after the news. I honestly don’t know how Kai drove back. I don’t think he knew either. I called my dad and he wanted to see me, so we stopped at home before going to Kai’s.

"You can both stay here if you like?" Dad suggested, probably thinking it was best we weren't on our own in the state we were in.

"Thanks Mr. Barnes, but I have to see to the animals"

"I promised I’d help with the horses. Kai doesn’t usually do them. And Mel doesn’t really want him to be alone, do you mind?"

"No, of course not. Stay as long as you are welcome. I know they are like family to you sweetie. Just let us know how things are!"

"Promise" I hugged Dad tightly and he shook hands with Kai.

Dad gave us some money for food, and we stopped off for chips on the way back.

We got home and ate while it was still hot, sorting out the animals when we had finished, in a numbed silence. It was eerily quiet at the house, and it dawned on me that Kaya was never going to see her horses again, the dogs, her house, or her room.

"Kai"

"Yeah"

"I can’t sleep in Kaya's room"

"Why?" he looked at me with confusion and worry.

"It doesn’t feel right"

"Yeah, I get it. Grab your stuff, come in with me"

"Thanks’"

I tidied her room, made the bed, packed my stuff, and moved in with Kai. I didn’t care what anyone thought, and I wasn’t leaving until Kaya took her last breath. She was my family, and until that day happened, I belonged here.

I had a quick shower to wash the dirt and sweat from mucking out the horses. It was already getting quite late; I didn’t know where the time had gone. We planned to be up relatively early tomorrow as we wanted to be at the hospital by 10. I threw my hair in a towel and put on some Pjs and headed into Kai's room.

He had stripped off and was naked, just pulling on some clean boxers. f**k me, his body was to die for.

"Oops. Sorry"

He chuckled,"Well you’ve seen it before, Leah, and felt it" he winked, "so I’m passed being coy about it’ He had a point.

I couldn't help my eyes wander over his body, but a sudden pang of guilt hit as I realised that I was lusting after Kai as Kaya lay dying in a hospital bed.

"Don’t feel bad, Leah. She would understand. I am incredibly hot."

"What?"

"You are staring. In fact, you are practically dribbling. But I can see the guilt in your eyes, and I am assuming that guilt is not for being a pervert!" he grinned.

Damn. He was right too. I wiped my mouth to check if I was dribbling. I wasn't. So I walked over to him and slapped his arm playfully, for making me check!

"Jerk"

"Was funny though" he said as he slid on his t-shirt. He sat on the edge of the bed and bent down to get his PJ bottoms.

My emotions were all over the place, but I decided it was now or never. Who knew what tomorrow would bring? So, I walked over to him and placed myself between his legs. His eyes widened for the smallest moment and then he regained his composure. He was eyeing me with almost a daring look in his eyes, as if to say, ‘what’s your next move?’.

I wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction of seeing my nerves, so I took control, lifted his top back over his head before pushing him onto his back, almost falling on top of him.Every part of me waited for him to stop me, to tell me we shouldn’t be doing it or that he had changed his mind. But he didn’t.

He just lay there looking up at me, a small grin playing on his lips and a glint in his eyes. My newfound confidence made me feel sexy. The way he looked at me made me feel sexy. Taking charge made me feel good and I revelled in the satisfaction it gave me. I went in for the kiss, soft, sensual, and slow. I taunted him with a small bite of the lower lip, teasing his mouth apart to slip in my tongue and deepen the kiss.

His manhood hardened beneath me, becoming more erect with each passing movement of our kiss, and I could feel it twitch against me. The throbbing between my legs was becoming unbearable. I desperately wanted to rip off the clothes keeping our skin from touching. But I knew slow and steady won the race. There was no pleasure in rushing.

I edged my way down his body, my hands gripped onto his hips, tracing my mouth around the V indents of his lower abdomen. I could see his eyes roll slightly to the back of his head as he let out a soft moan.

"Oh God, Leah" He called out my name and it sent shivers down my spine.

It sounded so erotic coming from his lustful mouth. I slowly and seductively took off his boxers without taking my eyes off his. I could see the lust filling in his eyes as they darkened, and I knew mine probably looked the same. A small, sweet smile played on my lips as I readied myself to go in for the kill.

He was completely exposed to me, so to even the playing field, I sat up and took off my top, exposing my bare breast to him. I could see his eyes take every inch of me in and he instinctively sat up and took them in his hands. He caressed and kneaded them, and the feeling took me by surprise. No one had ever done this to me before.

He buried his head in them for a moment before taking them in his mouth, one at a time, licking, nipping and sucking my sensitive n*****s. I felt my cheeks heat, not from embarrassment but from pure s****l desire. My need was insatiable, and he was driving me crazy. I tilted my head back as I softly moaned and I could feel his smile play out on my skin, even though I couldn’t see his face.

I gained some composure and pushed him back on the bed, running my fingernails gently down his chest, as I made my way back into position. I took his throbbing d**k in my hand from the base and lubricated his shaft with spit, never once losing eye contact.

I had never done that before but thought he would probably find it a little dirty and hot, which, by the look on his face, he did.

The spit dribbled from my mouth and slid down his c**k, and I wrapped my mouth around his tip. I started slowly sucking and nibbling his tip, before taking him in whole, sliding up and down with my mouth while my one hand followed the rhythm pumping up and down his shaft, my other hand gently kneading and cupping his balls.

He writhed in pleasure, and he clenched his ass cheeks, I knew it was doing the trick, so I started to move and pump a little harder.

But then he lowered my hand down to mine, to stop me. I couldn’t help but worry that I had done something wrong. I mean, I wasn’t a complete novice, but I wasn’t experienced either.

"Don’t look so worried" he heaved, "you need to stop being so damn good at that or. I am going to come" he panted almost out of breath.

I grinned "That was the plan". I winked at him, and resumed my assault, confident of the outcome.