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1471 Words
Charles Hudson
" Lavender, Manuel is arriving tomorrow. He says he wants to replace me here in Mexico. He's sending me up to Jo in Texas. Is he suicidal or what the f**k?
Why is he even doing this, I don't see how he can be fit for a mission like this?"
I was mostly trying to understand all of this in my own head.
From what Jo told me, he was beat down, weak. He had been on drugs and was in very bad shape.
How can he be returned to health in such a short time?
" Charles, he has other issues. Intel has come in about a powerful lawyer for the cartel.
His name is Jorge Armani and he has offered a substantial reward for Manual's head and the return of his daughter.
Angelina is his daughter. She was taken from him at a very young age by Grislan's ex and held by her for bargaining to keep her agenda aligned with the cartels.
Charles, perhaps he's doing this for the girl...and for Josephine."
" He's an i***t then. Why not just return the girl to her father?" I would have done just that.
Lavender stood in front of me and held my suit lapels, leaning up on her tip toes and blowing her sweet breath just inches from my lips.
Her perfume was quite nice, intoxicating in these tight quarters.
Ian had left us to move ahead into the southern region, looking for Sanchez.
We were tasked to stay back, wait and see if he returned to his old huants.
I was sure Ian was protecting Lavender by not taking her in too deep.
I wasn't the type to cheat, but I hadn't been with a woman in a long time. My body responded to her closeness by hardening.
She had a twinkle in her beautiful lavender colored eyes, she enjoyed flirting, that's for damn sure.
Her long black hair was loose around her shoulders. I looked down her perfect nose and those high cheek bones to her pink lips.
I smiled and held myself still.
" Hmmm...you sure a man like you can settle down with one woman?
I mean, look at you. We've been sleeping in the same bed and each night you find a way to pull me into your arms.
No...not technically cheating. But Charles, you want me." She purred that last part.
I leaned down and spoke to her open lips.
" Lavender, you are married and I am committed to Jo. But that doesn't mean I'm not a man. Yes, I have my needs. I'm not crossing any lines." I moved her away from my body.
Her hand brushed my groin, feeling my response to her being so close.
" Good, I am friends with Jo. I even considered pursuing her.
Ian knows when we are undercover that we must do things that are not in our character.
But my husband and I have an understanding. We don't speak about our undercover identities and in truth, anything goes. It must be this way Charles."
I turned from her. Denying my attraction to her and went to pack my bags.
She came up behind me and pushed her hand into my pants, touching me intimately.
I groaned at her hand giving me such pleasure. I held back.
" Look at me." She said.
I turned my head as her hand continued to explore my manhood.
I was breathing hard.
" I need s*x, I'm a very s****l creature. I'm going to show you what people do undercover.
So, technically not cheating. Besides, don't you think Manuel and Jo are f*****g their brains out?"
I thought about her words. I turned to face her to rebuke her, but my body betrayed me and I pulled her in and kissed her hard instead.
I was giving into her offer of s*x while undercover. She had been flirting with me for days.
Standing half naked in the room as she slowly dressed. A gentle touch here or there.
I pushed her back onto the bed and slammed my body against hers.
She grabbed my blond hair and held my face to hers, probing my mouth with her sweet tongue.
" Good, let's get this out of the way, then we can continue our day." She said between kisses.
I cupped her small breast and bit her n****e over her blouse.
She moaned with pleasure then moved herself against my hips.
I stopped.
I felt something hard pressing against my own hardness.
I reached into her pants and found the cause of the the firmness that was pressing against me, just like my own, but smaller.
" You're a f*****g dude?" I cried. I quickly scrambled off of her and stood up, backing away till I hit the door.
" Well, not fully. I mean...I do have my feminine sides. Come lay down, let me show you how I can also please you like a woman can."
My heart was beating hard. But honestly, I was still attracted to him and intrigued.
" I am man, and woman. I enjoy being a woman mostly. But yes, I can be whatever you want me to be. Oh Charles come see, I'm so wet for you now."
I held still at the door.
" It's too much. I'm already regretting what we've done so far. Lavender, get up."
" Oh silly boy, it's just s*x. Raw passionate s*x. Come on, let's play!" She sat up and began to touch herself.
" I see you are interested."
She taunted me while playing with her own body seductively.
" Jo will kill me." I said, feeling like a s**t.
" If I have s*x with a dude, I don't think she will ever get over that." I said looking away.
" Oh, how boring. Jo knows me, all about me. I've even tasted her cherry lips as Lavender and as Blue, she was quite intrigued.
She accepts me as I am. Perhaps we three could be together some time, all together.
When I f****d Lana, she liked Blue quite well. Don't be a prude!"
I felt rage boil up in me now.
" What do you mean you f****d Lana, my Lana, you f****d her as a man?" I never wanted to admit it to Jo, but I still loved my wife.
Lavender had once confessed to me and Jo the she was with Lana back in Sweden, but I had no clue what she actually meant, s**t.
I couldn't help it. It was hard for me to just turn off my feelings for Lana.
So now, I wanted to hurt Lavender or Blue or whatever she f*****g went by. She was mad hatter crazy.
She bit her lip and moved towards me.
" Charles, I am not telling you this to upset you, I am just horny as hell.
Now come here and let me please you. I assure you having both parts makes me an expert at s****l pleasure.
I know how it feels to have a woman's mouth on me as well as a man's. Come here Charles."
She held her arms out to me. I moved past her and ran to the bathroom, locking the door.
" Damn." I almost had s*x with her or him. I need to call Jo.
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" Josephine, we need to talk." I said, resolute that I would confess everything to her right now. Good bad or ugly, I had to tell her.
" Oh Charles, Manuel divorced me. He's acting weird. Please stay there and protect him, please. Promise me now!" Jo was frantic.
" What? I can't stay here. I need to talk to you. I need to tell you..."
She cut me off.
" Charles, I love him. I'm sorry, but I do. I can't let him go without knowing he will be safe without me.
Charles I can't move past this if he isn't leaving me because he wants to, he's doing this because he has to, I think he is protecting me and Angelina. Please Charles you need to do this for me."
The guilt of what I had just done made me concede. I couldn't face her. Staying here would buy me some time.
She loved him. And I loved Lana. I understood Joey completely. It was a big f*****g mess. But I think we both knew that once all this s**t was behind us, we would finally be free to be man and wife.
I sighed. " I will watch over him, yes Jo for you. I love you baby. Just know, whatever happens, I love you. You have my heart. I'll call you once he arrives. Goodbye, be safe my love."
" Thank you Charles, thank you so much. I love you."
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