Healing Alpha's Heart

Seeing him again

Sam was still gone when he arrived... or more precisely, showed up, because he was already here when I returned home but did not shown his face since now.

It was actually here because Valery always invites him to all family functions because Darcy has no one left from his family and the only person that he is close with is Val. There is also the fact that Val severed all ties with her family years ago and has not been in contact with them ever since they disowned her publicly. So other than me and Colin, Darcy is the closest thing she has to family and after everything they went through, they became each other's family in more ways than one.

But it is now how I knew that he was here.

It was not common knowledge or something I expected.

Mostly because the situation between us has been tense ever since I confronted him a year ago.

I want to blame it on the fact that I completely wasted that night, but what I said that night was nothing more than what I was thinking back then and what I am thinking right now. Alkohole only gave me the push to confront him after he had ignored me the whole night. I followed him outside and scream shouted at him that I loved him and that I knew that he had feelings for me because we are destined mates. Tears were rolling down my cheeks as took s stumbly step in his direction ready to either slap him or kiss him, but before I could do either he grabbed me by the shoulders in hopes of stabilizing me, but released me instantly as if touching me has burned him.

Without saying another word he just turned on his heel and left and ever since that night he avoided me, especially staying alone in the same room as me.

So I did not really expect him to be here, but I knew that he was here the moment I stepped into the house. There was no mistaking who the scent belonged to... the same scent that almost sent me to my knees. It lingered at the front of the house when I arrived and it hit me before I even strapped through the door. That deep woodsy scent mixed with a hint of mint.

It doesn't matter how hard I try to prepare for him or his scent, the first moment it hits me I am ready to fall to my knees. No matter how hard I try to ignore it or play it cool, his scent still hits me like a fast-moving train.

My knuckles went white as I gripped the table. I did my best to keep myself in place as everything in me screamed to go to him... to beg for his mark... for his love.

But no, I would not do that.

I will no longer bed for his love/

NO.

After I am done with him, he will be the one begging.

With newfound confidence and calmness, I sat there with my back straight and head held high, not paying him any attention even though I felt him move behind my back. I held myself in place as I felt him move through the room without even looking. It was so hard not to move, not to follow him with my eyes... but I had to.

I have to make him think that I am done with him, that I am done with waiting for him to love me and that I had given up hope on us and moved on.

"Oh look who finally decided to show up? I was sure that you would not show your face today."

The not-so-light mocking tone in Valarie's voice made my brother chuckle next to her and the man in question rolled his eyes as he walked to the table and gave a light kiss on the cheek to the smirking woman that was mocking him out in the open. I am sure Sam would have a heart attack if he heard a woman disrespect an alpha like that. And in most scenarios with a different alpha than the two at this table, she would be dead in the best-case scenario. But even if Darcy got offended and would be the man who would take his hurt feelings out on someone else in a physical way, he would never get a chance to hurt her. My brother would hold his still-beating heart in his hand before he could even take a step in her direction.

Colin has a well-earned reputation for killing people that he got by doing the dirty work for other packs when he first took over after our parents died. The pack needed money and there were not many ways that he could earn enough and fast.

The first pack that offered him the job hoped that he would die on the mission and they could take his pack, but surprisingly to both them and my brother, he did not fail. Not only did he survive, but he also took out the person without getting hurt even a little bit.

After that, jobs like that came flooding his way and he managed not only to save the pack but make it thrive.

Sure it was not the best way to earn money, but it paid well and he was good at it.

After a year of jobs like that, he earned the name he is known now by, the Executioner.

So to say that Valery knew the lengths that Colin would go for her without even blinking an eye, makes her feel safe enough to no longer dampen her true character and colours. It was beautiful to see her flourish even after all that he had gone through.

Even now after all these years I still see some of the shadows in her eyes, but Colin manages to clear them up before they can take root in her...

Darcy went through a lot of the same as Valery, but unlike her, he never recovered from it... and I am not even sure that he is even trying to. It looks like he is still stuck in what happened and he is not letting himself break through or move.

My thoughts were interrupted when he spoke and the sound of his voice sent shivers down my back.

"Well, I can't not say hello before leaving tomorrow."

His words hurt me a bit as I realized that he was not here for me, but probably on pack business with my brother, but I ignored that feeling and concentrated on the current moment.

The whole time he spoke he did not look at me, not even for a second. It actually felt like he was avoiding looking at me at all costs.

"So? Are you going to say hello to Alisha?"

Valarie said with a little chuckle in her voice.

Darcy took a deep breath and as if he was getting ready to do something very painful, like putting your hand in an open fire. He turned to me and our eyes locked for a second. For that second everything else faded, there is only him and I in the whole universe.

Air got stuck in my throat and I could only take a true breath when he turned his eyes away from mine.

"Hello, Alisha... it's good to see you back."

The way my name rolled down his tongue... oh goddess... it did not ever sound like this when anyone else said it. It tickles my heart and I want to sink into a deep mushy pile of goo every time I hear him say it... but not today... today I will stand tall and I will pretend that he has no effect on me.