The Bad Girl's Gentleman

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The Bad Girl's Gentleman

= Code 8 =

FUN THINGS? ANO BA IBIG SABIHIN NO'N?

Magb-Battleship ba kami dito? Uno? Monopoly? Jengga?

But oh come on, dude. As if gano'n ako kainosente. Like wtf. Para sa isang twenty-two years old ano bang masaya sa paningin niya?

Pero baka nga child at heart si Baz. Pero hindi din eh.

"Why are you just standing there?" tanong niya sa'kin habang inaayos ang mga unan sa kama. Nakapatay na ang ilaw sa apartment niya maliban sa dalawang nasa gilid ng kama. Orange pa nga ang ilaw at napaka-cozy.

"San ako matutulog?"

"Uh, do you sleep on the left? I can take any side."

"Wait, you mean I'll sleep on the bed?"

"Where else?"

"Oh, okay. I'll take the right side," sabi ko at sumampa na sa kama. "Para makita ko dimple mo."

"I don't know why you girls go crazy over it."

"Girls?" tanong ko at naupo na sa tabi niya. "Who them girls?" "Nobodies," sabi niya at nahiga na.

Napakunot ang noo. "How many girls have slept on this bed?"

"Ngayon na 'yung una," he says and pulls me down, circling an arm around my shoulders to put my head on his own.

"Una daw? As if maniwala ako."

"This apartment is new. You're really the first."

Umikot naman ang mga mata ko. "How many girls have you taken to bed?"

"I had girlfriends."

"Ilan nga?!"

"Two."

Medj napatameme ako. Expect ko mga seven or mga ten gano'n pero in fairness onti lang. "When was your last relationship?"

"About four years ago?" "What?! Gano'n na katagal?" "Yup."

"But... you took them both to bed, right?" nag-aaalangan kong tanong. Parang wala sa wisyo 'yung tanong ko pero gusto kong malaman. "Pero 'di ba... wait, uhhm, uhh, you mean to say wala kang ibang nakasama or what?"

"What do you mean nakasama?" tanong niya pa kahit alam kong alam naman niya tinutukoy ko.

"Like friends with benefits, gano'n?"

I can feel him shake his head. "Wala." "So mapag-solo ka pala?"

He squeezes on my shoulder. "Don't ask."

Napangisi ako. Sasagot lang naman ng oo o hindi eh haha. Naisipan ko pa tuloy mang-inis. "Hindi mo ba hinahanap-hanap? 'Di ba gano'n 'yun? You have probably have taken girls for one night of s*x. Tell me, I won't judge you naman eh."

I hear him take a lungful of breath. Hahaha! Akalain mo nga naman. "I don't have s*x, okay?"

"What, you fvck hard just like Christian Grey?"

In one swift movement he is on top of me. Nakatukod siya sa kamay niya at mayroon seryosong pagtingin sa mga mata niya. Para bang tatay na nahuling kumukain ng candy ang anak.

"There are too many words that shouldn't slip out of your tongue," he says and puts a finger on top of my lips. Napalunok ako. "As to answer your question, in my family we are never taught on s*x. We are taught that it is love making."

Humawak ako sa kamay niyang malapit sa'kin. "But what if I want to have s*x with you, Baz? What are you going to do?"

"Oh, baby," he says and gently slides his thumb on my lower lip. "You have no idea how hard it is to be on top of you and just doing this."

Ako na ang umiwas sa matindi niyang titig. Feeling ko namumula na 'yung leeg ko na ewan.

He kisses my cheek. "So please cooperate," sagot niya at bumalik na sa tabi ko. I put my cheek on his shoulder and hug him.

"Does that mean we're not going to do it unless we already love each other?"

"Precisely."

"I love you. Do you love me?"

He laughs. Like 'yung super lakas hindi ko maiwasan nakitawa din ako sa kaniya. "Stop joking around."

"What if I seduce you?"

"Don't even try."

Hmm, wag daw? Mas lalo ko lang gagawin. Try lang naman kapag hindi gumana edi hindi. Kapag gumana edi... bye bye V Card. Hahahaha joke. Tingin ko naman hindi bibigay si Baz.

Natahimik naman kaming dalawa. And that is the moment I become aware of his index finger doing random spirals on my shoulder.

"What are you doing?" "What?"

"On my shoulder." "I'm sorry."

"No. Ituloy mo lang."

He chuckles at this. Luh, syempre gusto ko din naman maging spoiled girlfriend.

I focus on his finger on my skin and realize it is making me feel sleepy. "You should stop that. I still want to talk to you."

"It's making you sleepy? Ano pa 'to?"

He starts to rub my back comfortingly and pulling me closer to his warmth. About thirty seconds later his hand moves upward to my head and he massages my scalp.

"Baz, stop. Inaantok na talaga ko."

"We can still talk later. It's four in the morning."

Hindi na ko sumagot dahil sa bawat paggalaw ng daliri ni Baz mas lalo lang akong hinahatak ng tulog.

"Good night, baby." "Night."

Sa sobrang himbing ng tulog ko akala ko hindi na ko magigising. Pero nang makaamoy ako ng bacon mabilis akong napadilat. I can hear it sizzling from a pan.

Bumangon ako at nakitang nagluluto si Baz sa kitchen. Mukhang matatapos na dahil may mga plato nang nakahanda sa kaniyang gilid.

Pumuslit muna ako sa banyo at naghilamos bago nagpapakita sa kaniya. "Good morning," pagngiti niya sa'kin.

Umagang-umaga buo na araw ko. "Good morning."

"Come, we're eating."

"Why were you up so early?"

"Baby, it’s eleven in the afternoon. I have to go to a lunch meeting in one o'clock."

"You're going to work?"

"Work doesn't get suspended when classes does."

Nag-pout ako sa kaniya. Oo nga pala. Sadlyf.

He smiles at me. "Come," he says and pats his thigh.

Hesitant pa ko na naupo. "Sabihin mo lang kung mabigat ako ah." "No, you weigh fine. Bacon?"

"You're going to make me fat," sabi ko sa kaniya pero kinagatan ang pagkaing binibigay niya. I throw an arm around his shoulders and somehow we feed each other. "This feels nice," I say after a while.

"Hmm?"

"A morning with you."

His teeth showed when he smiles and his dimple hints its presence. He leans and presses a soft kiss on my lips. "I know."

I take a bite of my bacon and somehow wish that it is Baz I'm biting. Ang cute niya kasi bwisit. Pwede ba pakagat sa cheeks?

"Finish your food. I have to get dressed."

Nagpunta na siya sa closet at tinapos ko ang tinapay ko. Pwede ko pa bang baguhin isip niya? Sumunod ako at niyakap siya mula sa likod. Halos tapos na siyang magbihis at nagkakabit na lamang ng relo.

I hug him from behind. Hanggang gitna lamang ng shoulder blades niya ang inabot ng ulo ko. "Can't you really just stay?"

"I can't. It's a business meeting."

"What if I strip in front of you, would you still be able to go?"

I feel him sigh before turning around and tilting my head so he can see my pouting face. "I'd close my eyes."

He rubs my shoulders. "Please don't make this any harder. Do you think I want to leave here alone? Of course, I don't."

"Then don't leave."

"If only I knew I wouldn't have scheduled this today. I'll be back by four, okay?"

He lets me go and grabs a coat from a hanger. Sumunod naman ako sa kaniya. "I left something for you in the nightstand. Keep yourself busy," he says at the door and kisses my cheek. "I'll see you later."

And then Baz is gone and I'm all alone in his apartment. Isang card ang iniwan niya para sa'kin. I've never seen a card like it before. Kulay ginto ito at may lining na itim. Nakasulat sa isang papel ang code nito.

Naligo na ko at nakahanap ng sweatpants na tatlong beses kong tinoklop at isang itim na sweatshirt na may tatlong puting linya sa gilid; nakasabit lang ito sa may banyo ni Baz. It still smells of him kaya naman f na f kong isuot.

Pumunta nga ako sa mall nang naka-school shoes. Mabuti na lang talaga at stiletto ang mga sapatos ko kaya medyo street style ang datingan.

Wala naman akong balak bilhin at naglakad-lakad lang nang mapadaan ako sa isang boutique. Napaka-classy tignan ng labas dahil sa lighting at explicit design nito. I immediately fall in love with the dress on the mannequin and much more when I try it on.

OH s**t. Pwede bang ma-in love muna ako sa kasexyhan ko? It is a tight white lace dress that cups my boobs together.

"Damn, dude," sabi ko sa repleksyon ko.

Muntikan ko na ngang hindi bilhin dahil... ewan ko ba. I know I dress up like a s**t most of the time pero s**t iba 'tong ngayon.

And isang tanong lang naman ang nasa utak ko. Will Baz like it?

Napatingin ako sa orasan at nagpunta ng grocery. Bumalik din naman ako kaagad at nagsimulang magluto. Hindi ko talaga akalain na aabot ako. But by four o'clock nakasuot na sakin ang bago kong damit at bagong ligo.

Baz comes in about four-ten at sinasalin ko na ang pagkain sa isang mahabang rectangle na plato. I cooked orange chicken wings.

"You're back," sabi ko.

"Yeah," sagot naman niya sa'kin. I hear him shuffle around before his voice grows closer. "What are you cooking?"

"I'm done!" humarap na ko sa kaniya nang may isang malaking ngiti. He is about three steps away from me and I pretend not to notice the shock on his face. Oo na, alam ko na. Ang sexy ko na.

"That's a lovely dress..." panimula niya na parang hindi pa siya sigurado. Pero deadma na 'no.

"I know, right?" pagtawa ko at kumuha ng isang pirasong chicken. "Are you going to taste my cooking or what?"

"How can I be sure there would be no poison in that?" tanong niya at humakbang papalapit sa'kin.

I roll my eyes and bite on the wing. "Should I just eat the whole chicken?" "No," he says and he plucks it out of my fingers and back on the plate.

Painosente akong tumingin sa kaniya. His stare gets harder and darker by the second.

"You need to be taught a lesson."

Baz pulls me to his bedroom and pushes me down his mattress rather forcefully. "Stay quiet."

"What?" tanong ko habang pumabaibabaw siya sa'kin. Wait, ito na ba yun? Teka lang hindi ako prepared. Whatttt wait lang.

"Shhh."

"Ha? Wha--Baz," I gasp when he suddenly leans down and kisses on my neck.

"Keep your mouth shut or you'll get more."

"I don't--Ah!"

Baz sucks on my skin. It is light at first but then it gets painful I can't help moaning in my pain. But as this pain consumes me, another feeling flows through my nerves--pleasure.

"Shh," he reminds me before continuing his work on the third spot his lips touched.

Tumahimik na ko dahil ayoko nang maramdaman ang pagsipsip niya sa balat ko. Para bang iniintay na lang niya na mapunit 'yung balat ko at lumabas 'yung dugo.

Finally, he pulls away; his lips red and plumper than ever. He smirks at me for some reason.

"What?"

"Nothing."

My phone suddenly rings from the kitchen and Baz gets off me. Nanakbo naman ako para sagutin iyon.

"Ma?"

"Where are you? Bakit hindi ka pa umuuwi? Hinahanap ka na ng daddy mo. Wala kang pasok ngayon, di ba?"

"Yeah, nasa apartment ako," pagsisinungaling ko at maglalakad na sana pabalik ng kwarto kung hindi ko lang napansin ang kung ano sa leeg ko. Did I get a rash or something? "Uuwi na ko. Bye."

Binuksan ko ang camera application ng phone ko at nakita ang malalaking shapeless na pula sa aking balat. What the f**k?! Tell me this is not what I think this is. There are two on the right side and one on the left.

"Maybe you should try being a good girl next time," sabi ni Baz mula sa likod ko. He has this annoying smirk on his lips before he bites down on one of the chickens.

Kung hindi lang siya cute baka nasapak ko na siya.

Nagpalit ako ng damit bago umuwi. I can't stop stressing about the hickies. Wala namang ginawa si Baz kundi pagtawanan ako. Wala naman kasi talagang paraan para maalis ko ang mga ito kaagad. Ayoko na nga siyang pansinin eh. Paano ako papasok sa school? Isa pa nandito ako bahay ngayon ano na lang sasabihin ko sa magulang ko kapag nakita nila?

"'Wag, dito ka na lang," sabi ko nang gumalaw siya upang pagbuksan ako ng pintuan.

"Why?"

"Well, kapag nakita ka nila baka... you know? We're not in that kind of relationship, di ba?"

Napatahimik si Baz na nag-iisip pero sumagot din. "Right."

"We can hangout again next week," sabi ko nang hawakan niya ang kamay ko.

"We'll see."

"I really have to go now," I say and lean to kiss him good bye. "Can't you stay for two more minutes?"

"They'll get suspicious," pagtawa ko. I kiss him twice. "Bye!" mabilis na kong bumaba at baka hindi ako makapagpigil at yayain ko siyang bumalik sa apartment niya. I bite my lip as I walk through our gate. I should have kissed him more. Hmph, next time na lang.

"Who was that?"

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang mapadaan ako sa kwarto ni Ate Cass. Ina- arrange niya ang makakapal niyang libro sa isang bookshelf.

"Who was what?" balik ko sa kaniya at binuksan nang kaunti ang pinto. "The guy who drove you home."

I scoff. "What makes you think it's a guy?"

"Would a girl drive a Rover?"

"Why not?"

Lumingon siya sa'kin upang pag-ikutan ako ng mga mata. "Guys your age won't be given a Rover by their parents. Even my guy friends don't have Rovers. So who is that? Must be someone rich. Is he Chinese?"

"What are you talking about?"

I hear her sigh. "Just be careful, Gwen. Older guys... or even just guys my age, they are hurricanes. Baka paglaruan ka lang kasi bored and you know... fresh and virgin. Ayokong mabalitaan na na-r**e ka at tinapon sa kung saang damuhan."

"You're so irrelevant," pagtawa ko. "Whatever, I'm leaving."

But as soon as I walk away from her door, my laughter dies. Cass is relevant. She is just a year younger than Baz. She knows more about guys that age. Pero wala ngang nangyayari sa'min ni Baz eh hahahaha!! Pwera na lang siguro dito sa mga chikinini sa leeg ko.

But that night, paghiga ko para matulog, I realize that Baz hasn't called. Hindi manlang niya ba ko sasabihan na nakauwi siyang buo at isang piraso? Pero baka umuwi sa hacienda nila #qualitytime na naman sila do'n.

He is my boyfriend, yet I have no certainty kung kailan kami ulit mag-uusap; kung kailan niya ulit ako kikitain at tatawagan.

Napahawak ako sa leeg ko. Medyo masakit ang mga iniwang marka ng mga labi ni Baz. Tsk. This is going to be a pain in my a*s at school.

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