Lucifer's Broken Bride

Chapter #7: "Why Can't I Die?"

LILLITH P.O.V.

We go inside the club. The other guys are there for sound testing for the concert. Aaron is pissed at me.

"I'm sorry we're late." Aaron says to Church and Sky.

"What happened this time?" Sky asks. I just roll my eyes.

"Someone needed a fix." Aaron says as I begin to get my guitar set up.

"Dude, I said I was sorry alright! We are only what, an hour late for rehearsal! It's not like we're f*****g three or five, alright! Get the f**k off my ass already!" I snap.

I am already tired of being harassed by these fuckers. I needed my methadone at the clinic. My body is starting to hurt and they are just f*****g making it worse.

"Alright before a fight starts, I think we need to all sit down and have a talk!" Church calmly jumps in, trying to disarm the situation.

"No Church! This s**t has to stop!" Aaron snaps. "Look Lil, it's this! You either get the f**k off the drugs or get the f**k out of the band! It's that simple! We'll do the gig tomorrow night and then after that you are going to make a choice that night! Got it?!"

"Dude go f**k yourself!" I storm the f**k out of the building.

I'm not going to be talked to like that! No one talks to me like that! I don't give a f**k who you think you are!

I go outside and light a cigarette, trying to calm my nerves and seeing where I want to start walking. Suddenly, arms wrap around my waist pulling me to a chest.

"Sky let me go please!" I growl out in frustration.

"Why though? Don't you like it when I hold you like this?" He leans his head into my neck and begins kissing. "Just stay out here for a few minutes with me and chill. You know Aaron. He does love you like a little sister and he's scared for you. We all are. It hurts when you don't call me on this s**t. You know that."

"Please don't Sky. I don't know what you want from me. I can't give you a relationship. If you want a blowjob here and there, fine. Sure, it's fun fooling around with you. I just can't have s*x. I can't function as a normal person, let alone be a girlfriend to someone. I'll turn you into a monster like me." He just holds me as I break down crying. "You don't think I don't want s*x. I'm so f****d in the head that I can't even get through a day without a breakdown."

"I'm not going anywhere, Lillith. It just takes time. I love you so much and I can wait. You make me happy with what we are now. You are my girlfriend whether you see it or not." He softly whispers in my ear, making me feel even worse.

"I'm the world's shittest girlfriend ever." He spins me around and kisses me. I toss my cigarette and run my fingers through his hair, leaning into his rock-hard body.

"Come on." A wicked smile comes over his lips.

He pulls me into one of the small green rooms with a simple couch, TV, mini fridge, and makeup vanity. He locks the door and pulls me back into his kisses. He sits on the couch and pulls me on top of him, making me straddle across him. His kisses leave hot searing wet invisible marks all around my neck.

I take my shirt off as well as him. I go to unbutton his pants but he grabs my hands. I look at him puzzled by this. I'm not going to lie, I'm a little confused here.

"I thought we were going to try this?" I ask.

"No babe. This is how much I love you and to prove to you that even if we never have s*x, I will still be with you. You put all this pressure on yourself when it comes to this. You need to relax. Lets just have fun. My pants are staying on. Now say if yours wants to come off, I won't object to anything." I laugh and slap his arm. Tears fall down my face.

"I'm really trying Sky. They have me on so many pills now, but it's all in my head still." He wipes my tears away and calms me down.

"No more babe. We're not talking about it. We're having fun. Now smile or I'm going to tickle the s**t out of you." I chuckle as a smile falls over my face. I lean forward, kissing his lips, desperately wanting him.

"I do want you though. I want sex." I say as he lifts me up off him and has me sit on the couch.

This man does puzzle me a lot. He takes off my shoes and pants. I'm sitting on the couch in nothing but my bra and panties. He flips me over on my back.

"Well, we might not have it like your werewolf and vampire books you read about, but if I remember reading part of a chapter, let me see if I have this down. Either way, practice makes perfect." My face instantly turns red.

"Oh my f*****g Gods above, what book were you reading?" He crosses his arms across my legs and leans his head on them.

"The first time I glanced through, the author goes by Marii Solaria and the book was Untouchable and Unhinged. Gotta admit them wolves sure do know a thing or two about dominance." Slowly he pulls my panties off. I start to shake.

"Sky what are you doing?" He tosses them off to the side and leans forward, kissing my lips.

"Calm down, Lillilth. My d**k isn't going anywhere near your sweet p***y here. Now my mouth and fingers, they're a whole other story." He pulls me down so my knees are over his shoulders.

"Sky, you really don't have to do this!" My voice trembles.

"Please Lil, I want to do this. I want to taste you for a change. Just take a deep breath, close your eyes, and relax. Let your legs fall open to me, love. I promise, you will love this." I do as he orders, still trembling.

His lips begin their torturous trail of searing wetness to my core. I can feel his finger circling my clit. I arch myself towards his hand, moaning. His lips are nibbling on my thighs and now his other hand his finger inside my wetness.

I grab his hair as his mouth begins to suckle on my clit. He even used his teeth to ever so gently tease me with them.

I am losing my mind. I feel another finger go inside me and his hand began to go faster. Oh, the warmth and pressure growing inside, and all I wanted to do was release it.

"Babe, don't you dare c*m yet. I want to play more. You taste so divine." His dominant words make my legs quake.

He sinks back down lapping up my juices that are flowing out of me. I release his hair to grab ahold of the couch.

Suddenly, his free hand finds his way to my breast, squeezing my n****e hard. The moans, I guarantee you, everyone hears.

"Squeeze the other one. We don't want her being left out." I do as he request.

"Oh please Sky! Please!" I scream. He laughs.

"c*m for me babe."

Instantly my walls clamp around his fingers. He drinks it all up. Tears silently fall from my face as the world fades away. The only thing that was there was him. Nothing else existed. My entire body goes limp. I moan as he pulls his fingers out of me.

"Lets try." I said, trying to catch my breath.

"You sure? Trust me, Lil, I can wait."

He does talk too much.

I sit straight up, pulling him up to me and wrap my legs around his hips.

I reach in between us, undoing his pants. My brain is all jumbled from his incredible torture. He rolls on a condom and pushes me back on the couch.

His lips voraciously take mine. His tongue invades my mouth, making me moan. He begins to push himself inside me, and then it happens like clockwork.

 My curse!

Every time I try to have vaginal intercourse, my vaginal walls will close up. It will close up so tight that a finger cannot penetrate it. I have had hundreds of tests done. Blood work, ultrasounds, MRIs, and no doctor can figure out why this happens. The only answer they can give me is that it has something to do with the mental trauma I've been through. The bottom line is that it makes for a hellish dating life.

"OUCH! STOP! PLEASE!" He pulls out a bottle of lube. Putting a bunch on me.

"Babe, I need you to trust me. Once we get through the first time, you'll be able to do it all the time. I love you." He keeps trying to push in me. I watch as rage begins to take in him. "f*****g Christ!" I start to cry and try to push him up.

"Please Sky! You're really hurting me!" His hand goes between trying to rub my clit.

"Babe, you have to relax! You're making this more difficult than it has to be! Just hold still!" Fear begins to course through me. "FINE! GET ON YOUR KNEES!" He screams out in absolute anger and frustration.

I do as he says. He stops trying to push himself in me. Instead, he enters my ass and goes deep inside me. I bit my lip, holding back the pain and tears. His lips began leaving their marks.

"Babe, I love you! Come on relax! We're still having fun!" He's so frustrated.

I nod my head, moaning loudly, just to play along. He reaches around and hastily begins rubbing my clit. He keeps rubbing me faster and faster as he pounds into me harder.

"That's my girl. Moan baby girl." I go to lean up but he pushes me back down, keeping my ass in the air. "I said moan not move." As I moan, he grabs my hips with both hands thrusting harder.

"Sky I'm going to cum." I fake it.

I just want to get the f**k out of this room and the hell away from him.

"Hold on babe. We'll do this together. I'll tell you when." He just keeps going and now begins slapping my ass hard and pulling my hair back. "Now babe! Now!" I feel him slow and begin to go limp in me. He wraps his arms around me, holding on tight. His lips trail my spine, kissing it.

"Sky, we have to get back out there." I say trying to get away from him.

"Not yet, babe. I already told them that we were f*****g. They are smoking a blunt and are going to wait for us." Tears silently fall down my face as I can feel the sweat fall from him on my skin. I want nothing more than to burn my flesh off right at this moment.

"I love you but I'm really sore. Can we at least get up from here? We can lay here. It's just I'm hurt really bad down there." He chuckles and slowly pulls out of me.

"I beat you are my love." He pulls me on his lap, holding me. I lean my head to his, as my survival mode kicks in right now.

Just pretend. Go numb. You'll live.

"How about tonight we try again?" I nod my head, yes as tears silently fall from me.

Why can't I die?