Ellen
My heart is broken, and my head is a mess. The only way to make the pain feel less sharp and severe is to convince my brain that I wasn’t that in love with Oscar, to begin with. Sure, we had been dating forever, but...I was thinking about Christian, so...
No.
That doesn’t matter.
I still had feelings for Oscar, or at least I had a lot of them in the beginning. He was cute and sweet, but then he suddenly changed his personality. He became mean to me because of his own insecurities. Oscar seriously thought there was something between me and every guy I ever spoke to, first Blaine, a friend in my math class, then Cedric, and at the end, he thought there was something between me and Christian.
And he is right: I’ve been thinking about my stepbrother, but in my defense, I never thoug
