C H A S T I T Y
Year 2010
18 years old
His eyes were fixated on mine and I could feel my pulse and heartbeat racing irrationally in a very fast speed right now in my chest as the space filled with the tapping sound of the pouring rain. He smiled, both in a charming and irresistible way, as he asked me calmly, “Are we friends now?” in a gentler voice as I watched him finish kissing my pinky finger while his eyes were locked with mine the entire time he kissed each of my fingertips. He was still wearing the pink shorts he had been wearing prior to this and continued to be topless while he entwined his fingers in between the spaces of my fingers.
His smile right now seemed to look rather seductive and flirtatious. His handsome smile had this unique ability to captivate and draw you in, leaving you feeling butterflies in your stomach even though I should not let him affect me in this way because we absolutely did not get off to a good start. So, in the back of my head, I forced myself into thinking that whether he would give me a shy smile or a broad grin, this handsome man’s smile should not surely be memorable and should not cause me any tickles inside my body even though it could light up the whole room.
Considering the surface of his palm was still holding my hand and he was holding it up to our side, I wanted to withdraw away from him and turn away from the scorching sensation in my cheeks, but his eyes, my God, his magnificently beautiful green eyes, darted at me as I glanced at the scar on the right outside corner of his lips was causing more damage inside me than it ever should.
I felt my cheeks intensely warm and I felt embarrassed even staring at him so I looked away immediately and pulled my hand back away, “Yeah whatever.” I answered awkwardly as I wondered where my voice had gone.
He chuckled softly, “Now that is not so nice.” He held my chin and pulled my attention towards his as he started caressing my cheek with his thumb, “Why did you look away? I still had things to say to you.” He kept caressing my cheek with his thumb as his eyes locked with mine intently while my heart was just POUNDING. He kept staring at me intently, then he added, “A shade of cherry red.” He smiles at me.
I breathe heavily through my parted lips while I am trying to find the words to say to him, “Just a reflection of your red jacket.” I muttered a lie obviously, and thankfully found a good reason to lie as soon as my eyes glanced at the oversized red jacket. I spoke those words in a softer voice while the pitter patter of the heavy rain filled the small space between us making my heart beat more and more, heavier and heavier.
Finally, I thankfully snapped out of it as soon as his phone rang but he grabbed his phone from the cellphone holder and answered the voice call while he was still holding my hand securely, “Hey Myles.” He grinned as my eyes widened as soon as I knew that it was my older brother on the other side of the phone. “Yeah, you are welcome.” His deviously seductive emerald green eyes locked with mine and not looking away while I watched him smirking mischievously handsomely at me. “Still having s*x huh?” He chuckled under his throat while I stared at him silently kissing my knuckles and I let him as his eyes were glued on mine. “Yeah do not worry, your little sister is fine.”
I was having these urges inside me to just punch him on his face for how he was violating me right now against my will, but then again this was not really against my will. Because no matter how much I try to tell myself that he was doing something that I do not want him to, in the back of my head and in the deepest parts of my virgin body, I like watching his lips pressed and kissing my knuckles. For the first time in my seventeen years of life, my entire body—from head to toe—feels utterly seduced and I know how much I detest him so so so much —he was making fun of me earlier and calling me names which reminded me of the words he said, but for some totally insane reason, I feel totally tempted and..... thrilled as hell.
His phone conversation came to an end, but his eyes were still fixed on mine, and I suddenly realized that I had become entranced by his alluring gaze, dashingly attractive face, and deeply calm-sounding and soothing voice. As soon as I sensed a soft release from his palm, I jerked my hand suddenly away and pulled the hoodie over my head without saying anything else. In spite of the torrential downpour, I got out of the passenger seat, unlocked the backseat, pulled my luggage out and opened the umbrella I had taken out of my backpack. I pulled my heavy luggage out, grunting and struggling, still without his assistance, “Need a hand?” He teased with a grin.
“No, thanks. I can carry my own luggage.” I rolled my eyes at him as he was chuckling and still sitting in the driver’s seat. I placed my heavy luggage on the wet ground as soon as he put my backpack behind me, left it then walked around to the driver’s door where he stepped out, topless under this cold rain while I held the umbrella up above us to keep us dry. “You are welcome.” I mocked him as I rolled my eyes at him while he was laughing
He was now holding and carrying my luggage, so we went inside the dorm building while he was calm despite how he was only wearing his pair of pink shorts. “Are you not even cold?” I could not help but ask.
“Awwwe, are you all concerned now Skunky?” He mocked while grinning mischievously at me.
I rolled my eyes at him as he was chuckling under his breath, “In your dreams. And can you stop calling me Skunky!” I demanded, sounding more annoyed at him.
But was I annoyed?
At this point, I know I actually owe him but my pride is too much and I do not want to bruise it.
As soon as we entered the first floor, the security guard, who was on duty for the night shift, stared at the both of us in total disbelief, even more with Lachlan who was only in his boxers on this rainy night. Incredibly, the security guard immediately dipped his head down, behaving as if he had not noticed anything or anybody as his eyes slowly were moving from Lachlan to me to Lachlan to me before dipping it back down. The security did not even say, not even a single word, nothing else as he was just walking into the dorm building casually pulling my luggage.
“Let us go, Shunky.” He hollered at me as he continued moving forward while pulling my luggage with him.
I chased him as he was walking and pulled my luggage, “Can you walk slower??”
“Ah, I forgot you looked like a foot shorter than me.” He answered, smirking playfully and grinning at me.
I angrily rolled my eyes at him as he was chuckling under his throat while he was pulling my luggage, “I do not know why I am even going with you.” I muttered under my breath.
“Because if you will not, your brother will be here to kick your ass.” He sounded calmer. “And my ass.”
I chuckled, “I would like to see your ass get kicked.”
“I would like to see your ass bending over for me.” He grinned evilly.
Immediately I reacted with a disgusted look on my face, “You are actually the most disgusting human being.” I know he was saying that to get a reaction from me and to annoy me even more because I think he was designed to be this kind of person towards me.
He chuckled lightly under his throat.
“You are horrendously disgusting.” I added while rolling my eyes at him.
“Keep denying that to yourself.” He mocked right away with a comeback. “Also, I promised Myles that you would have a place to sleep in.”
“I can not sleep in that dorm.” I told him immediately because he already knows my problem.
There were only the two of us in the first floor’s lobby area at this point, and he immediately responded, “I know.”
However, my body was still trembling when I remembered the way he had kissed my hand and each of my fingertips and how his eyes were looking at me intently the entire time, so I made an effort to keep a safe distance between us considering what he had done to me inside his car, I really wanted to still have that amount of privacy.
“I guess I can sleep in one of the dormitory’s study rooms.” I muttered softly before adding, “Well, I guess this is where we part. I will wash your hoodie and give it to you when it is clean and dry.”
I began to walk away from him and headed to the right wing which was where my dorm room was until I felt a tug on the hood of my jacket which was kind of choking me. “Where do you think you are going, dwarf?” Lachlan hollered as he pulled me back and allowed me to face him.
I coughed as I smacked his hand away causing him to release the hood from his hand, “Why did you do that?”
“Because you are just going to leave like that, huh?”
“Well what do you still want me to do?” I mocked, not even wanting to say thank you but then I knew I eventually had to because he looked like the kind of guy who would annoy me for a thank you. “Okay fine, thanks! Now can I go? Okay? Okay. Bye.” I turned away from him and he pulled the sleeve of the hoodie and dragged me towards the elevator, “What the! I live on the first floor. Now can you release me?”
“Can you stop raising your voice?” He asked and pointed at the sign which said ‘NO SCREAMING OR YELLING AFTER 10 PM’ that was written in bold and all capital letters.
The elevator opened into two and he dragged me inside with him as if I was a lost girl going to be scolded by her father while at the same time I was dragging my luggage with me. As soon as the elevator door closed, he scanned his gold keycard which made me widen my eyes as he scanned his thumb on the scanner next to the keycard swiper.
Okay so he is rich enough to afford a dorm on the fifth floor but how and when did Myles ever know this ridiculously rich guy? I thought to myself.
“Anything you want to say to me, Skunky?” He grinned handsomely as the elevator started moving.
I rolled my eyes at him as I tried to look away, wanting to avoid his gaze as much as possible.
“Come on now, I thought we were friends?” I felt a nudge on my arm and as I looked at him, he was still teasingly grinning at me while nudging his elbow yet again on my arm.
“You thought we were.” I grumbled and looked away.
“Oh lighten up, sourface. Starting today we are friends.”
“We are not friends.” I snapped at him before I pointed out, “You and your mouth calling me endless ridiculously humiliating pet names.”
He chuckled softly under his throat, “Me and my mouth could make you wet. Very wet.”
I scrunched up my face to react as soon as he looked at me like he was the epitome of a man that I needed to stay away from, “I hear a bucket of water could be more efficient.” I answered with a witty comeback with a grin.
“Oh yeah? You think I have nothing else to offer other than my mouth?” He smirked a bit more playfully devious this time. “You think a bucket of water could be more effective at make someone wet rather than my
“I hate to break it to you, but yeah.” I pat his back, acting as if I was comforting him. “And trust me, nobody wants to get wet with a mouth like yours.” I responded equally sarcastically, indicating that his god damned mouth was disgusting and repulsive, rather than desirable and seductive.
He chuckled a bit loudly, “At least someone’s mouth can make you wet.”
I scoffed and just shook my head in disbelief at how crude his remarks were. I can not believe that he just insinuated that no one was there to make me wet with their mouth and that I was undesirable and unable to find a partner to do so. “Oh you think you are oh so smart huh?”
“Honey, I am.” He winked.