The King's Return

39| WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?

AMIRA'S POV

This has been a busy week and I've been nervous because I'm still not sure if Logan will be the one to conduct the evaluation or not. I am not ready to face him.

Even though I ran away from the castle, I couldn't run away from my feelings for him. I love him so much and I'm scared that I won't be able to hide it from him.

Besides being a king, Logan is very smart. He will be able to see right through me and I won't be able to lie if he asks me about it. I never thought I would love a man so much.

I haven't thought much about him these days because I've been with my brother, my sister-in-law and my niece and nephew. They always take up most of my free time.

The apartment my brother rented is big and as a result, I have got my own room. Living with them is the best thing I've ever experienced in my life.

I've never had family time before and spending time with my brother and his family makes me really happy.

My sister-in-law is an angel and I think Maya would be jealous if I told her that I now have a new best friend. It's easy to talk to her and if you don't know, you might think that we've known each other for years, which is not true.

I only spoke to her on the phone previously and even though I always thought she was a nice person, I didn't know if that was true or not until I met her.

I've learned a lot about her in the past few days and I know she loves my brother so much. She also told me how they met and even though I didn't like that my brother left me home alone with my parents, I am glad that leaving home led to him finding his mate.

I don't want to lie, I am also happy that I left home too because if I hadn't left, I wouldn't have met Logan even though things between us didn't work out.

I am just grateful that I was able to love someone, which is something I never wanted to experience as a child due to the abuse I saw at home.

I never wanted to love someone and end up getting abused like my mother. I couldn't understand why she never left or even thought of leaving because she knows what kind of a man my father is.

What makes the situation even worse is that they are mated to each other, they are true mates. They are supposed to love and cherish each other.

They are supposed to be each other's pillar of strength and most importantly, they are supposed to protect each other, not bring harm to either of them.

I decided that thinking about my parents was going to bring me nothing but pain and also make me be late for work. With this evaluation coming, I can't afford that and I needed to make sure I did my work properly before I got fired.

With my brother here, I know I would never lack anything but I want to be independent. I have always wanted to be independent because you know I don't trust men.

The only way to survive in this world is to depend on yourself, not someone else. After taking a shower, I got ready and left. I took a taxi and I got there early.

Trey was already there. He smiled and came to me when he saw me.

"Hey. How are you doing?"

"I'm good. I am early for a change." He laughed and hugged me. I will never get used to it. Like I said before, I have never been close to boys except, Sebastian, Julian and my father, who didn't exactly give me hugs, even as a child.

"I can see that. It's a good thing that you are here. I heard that Mr Morningstar will arrive anytime and he wouldn't say when exactly."

I almost stopped breathing when I heard that.

"You don't have to be scared. You are doing your job pretty well and if you can arrive early like today from now on, you will be fine."

I wanted to tell him that that wasn't the reason why I was so scared. I was scared of seeing Logan again. To be honest, I don't know what to do.

The job pays really well but it's not the only reason why I want to stay here. I guess something is wrong with me because I also want to see him.

I want to be in his presence once again, I want to feel what it's like to be around him and to be in his strong and perfect arms. I want to kiss him.

I want him to mark me even though I know he won't do it because he wants me to be committed to him. I also want him to bear my mark on his neck so that every girl who sees him will know he is taken, that he belongs to me and me alone.

What is wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? I shouldn't be thinking about all that. I should be running as far as possible from him. I shouldn't be thinking about him at all.

"Amira?" I didn't even hear my brother calling my name until Trey tapped me on my shoulder. "What?" He didn't say anything, he just pointed at my brother.

"What are you thinking?" The concern in his eyes and in his words was evident.

"Nothing." I hated to lie to him but I wasn't exactly going to tell my brother that I was thinking of f*****g someone and that someone is my mate who happens to be a king.

"What are you doing here? I thought you had something important to do."

"We are done with that, we wanted to see you before going back home."

"Home? You're leaving?"

"No, by home I mean back to the apartment. I promised you that I wasn't going anywhere, right?" I was about to say something when I heard his voice. I didn't even need to look at him to confirm.

"Sister-in-law? What are you doing here?"

"Alex. I didn't expect to see you here." He was with a bunch of kids I didn't know. Their faces were too familiar though.

"I don't know if I should call you sister-in-law too." Connor? Why is he here? Does that mean that he is also here?

"He's not here." I could see the amusement in Connor's face. Why did I look around? Even I don't know that. I guess I was expecting to see him.

"What are you guys doing here?" When Connor looked at me with amusement in his face, I finally remembered that this company belongs to Logan. Of course they can come here anytime if they want to.

"Right. I'm being silly."

"I'm here to see my father." It was Alex who spoke. I was about to ask if his father is here too when I saw him coming from the private elevator. He was already here!

"Dad!" Alex practically jumped to his arms.

"Hello, little man. You are early."

"I missed you." I think everyone could see that.

"Figures." He brushed his head to which Alex didn't seem to appreciate.

"You and my brother love to mess up my hair." I have never seen Alex pouting or behaving like a child.

His fathet just laughed at him. He then looked at us.

"Amira." I have only met him once when I was in Manchester. I didn't think he still remembered my name.

"Your Highness." Trey was surprised when I said that. He wasn't the only one though, my brother was too.

"What are you doing here? I thought you were in Manchester with my son." I wanted the ground to swallow me whole.

I haven't told my brother that I found my mate and that my mate is a freaking Alpha King!

"I work here, Your Highness. I started a few days ago." I didn't want to elaborate and I hoped he would understand.

"Oh, that's okay. It was nice to see you."

"Thank you, Your Highness, it was nice to see you too."

He looked at the other kids and smiled.

"Grandpa." They all went to him except for one. He stayed by Connor's side. I have never met Amar but it wasn't hard to figure out that the boy was his son.

I know that Amar is Indian and that his wife is an American which makes their son, mixed.

I was busy looking at them until my brother pulled me outside.

"Is there something you want to tell me?" Boy, he's angry.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't want to bring it up." I thought he was going to understand but the way he looked at me told me that he wanted me to explain further.

"I met the king when Maya and I went to live in the castle. Her sister, Charlotte, told her that the castle is safe and so we decided to go there.

"I swear to the Moon Goddess, I didn't know I would meet him there. I didn't want to tell you because I don't want you to be angry at me for running away from my mate.

"You and I are different, you cherish the mate bond between true mates and I don't. I saw how our father abused our mother even though they are mated.

"I don't want that to happen to me. I don't want my kids to go through the same experience that I went through. I don't want to be trapped in a relationship that will end up hurting me."

My brother looked at me as if I had insulted him.

"Are you crazy? Amira, you are my baby sister. I will always support you no matter what you do and I don't want you to ever doubt that.

"It is true that I cherish the mate bond and that will never change but do you know the implications of what you just said? You just insinuated that the king is abusive towards you.

"Tell me, what did he do to you that made you think he might turn out like our father? I want to know because I want to understand your reason for leaving him. I want to know what he did to you and believe me if he hurt you, I don't care if he is a king or not.

"As your brother, I will make sure that he pays for it."

I didn't know what to say to him. Logan didn't do anything to me except not loving me enough. How do I tell my brother that even though I am his mate, his heart doesn't belong to me?

We may be mates but there's nothing that draws him to me except for the mate bond that I am sure he despises.

"Amira, can I talk to you for a moment?" I didn't see Connor approaching us. My brother didn't like it that he was disturbing us and I could tell.

The air was thick and I could feel their wolves. My brother's wolf has always been powerful and even though I was still a child when he shifted, I remember that everyone used to say that his wolf is powerful like that of an Alpha.

Even though his wolf is powerful, I know he will never defeat Connor. Connor has Alpha blood running in his veins and he is also an Alpha of a very powerful and big pack.

"It's okay, I will just talk to him." I told my brother when he started approaching Connor. He didn't say anything but he calmed down, both of them did.

"What is it? I hope you are not going to ask me why I left." Even though I like Connor, I don't want him to interfere in my problems with Logan.

"No, I'm not going to ask you that because I already know the answer to that. I just want to tell you that a lack of communication always breaks even the strongest bond.

"I know that you don't want anything to do with Logan but you need to speak to him. You both have to sit down and address every issue that you have.

"It is the only way you can stop torturing yourselves. You love each other and you don't need other people to tell you that but you are letting your egos destroy everything.

"I have something to do, so I will have to leave. See you soon." I wanted to ask him what he meant but he left before I could even open my mouth.

Why is he so sure that Logan loves me? Yes, he did say that but what about Kiera? They are childhood sweethearts after all. I am not a fool, first love is always the hardest to move on from.