The King's Return

40| I WAS GOING TO ASK YOU TO MARRY ME

LOGAN'S POV

I've been trying to hide the fact that I miss Amira but it gets harder by the day. It feels like we've been apart for years when in truth it has been a few days.

I want to be with her and I know it's not gonna get easier. Before I met her, it was enough to know that she was out there and that I will find her one day but this is different.

I have met her and I have fallen in love with her. I have started making plans for us and even though I was ready to give her to Sebastian if she loved him, it still doesn't change the fact that I don't want a future without her in it.

I don't know what that future would be like and I don't want to know which is why I am going to do anything to get her back. She is mine just as I am hers. We belong together and there is nothing in this world that can change that.

The only thing that I can do right now is to hope that she forgives me for ever doubting her. All of this wouldn't have happened if I had just trusted her. It could've been avoided.

The worst part of this all is that my wolf has been agitated lately and I know why that is happening. I don't need to be told why it is like that.

When I met Amira, the need to mate with her and make her fully mine was always there. God knows I wanted to make love to her every single day but I was not going to force her into anything.

She was willing to give herself to me but I wanted every part of her. I wanted her to be my wife, my Luna and my queen. I know she wasn't ready for any of that.

I wasn't going to just accept anything less than what I wanted and I know it was selfish of me but I was also doing it for her sake. I didn't want her to think that she was stuck with me for the rest of her life if she didn't want that.

Another thing is that she has always been wary of mate bonds and I knew that if it didn't come from her mouth that she was ready to be my everything, she would always feel like she was trapped and I didn't want that for her.

Even though I want her to be fully mine, I also want her to be happy. I want her to be the happiest woman on earth and I will give her that.

I will fix this between us and she will come back to me willingly. I don't want to find out what it would be like to spend the rest of my life without her because these few days have taught me that I just can't be without her.

"I have never seen you like this before. What happened?" I didn't even hear Kiera open the door to my office. I have been trying my best to avoid her because I don't want her to ask me questions I know fully well that I won't be able to answer.

"I am just thinking, nothing serious." I tried to keep a straight face before opening my mouth again. "What brings you to my office? I thought you'd be with Jake."

I didn't miss the way her face turned red at the mention of Jake's name. I wanted to tease her about it but I just couldn't do it. She looked so happy and I found myself smiling along with her.

"He is busy with something so I told him that I will come and see you. I haven't seen you in a while and if I didn't know any better, I'd think that you were avoiding me." She looked at me and since I've known Kiera all my life, she was trying to read my reaction to what she just said.

I don't know if it's because she spent a lot of time with my sister but she has always been able to read me and because of that, it is difficult to hide things from her.

"By the way, I haven't seen Amira yet and I was hoping that you'd introduce me to her. I want to see the girl who has finally captured your heart.

"I heard Samantha say that she is the most beautiful girl she has ever laid her on and even though I trust your sister's judgment, I wanna see her. After all, she's gonna be my sister-in-law." She winked at me.

I have never told her that I treated her as my sister but for her to call Amira her sister-in-law means that she treats me like her brother too.

I wanted to lie to her about everything but I knew better. I wasn't going to hide the truth for long and knowing Kiera, she would hate me for the rest of her life if I hid it from her or lied about it.

"Before I say something, please know that I am aware that I made a mistake and that I will fix it." She didn't say anything for a while. When I thought she wasn't going to say anything, she nodded her head.

I told her everything and she listened very well without interrupting until I started telling her about the rumors.

"You allowed your maids to say all those things when you knew she was going to hear everything eventually? What was wrong with you?"

"I knew she wasn't going to stay here and wait for you to arrive. She never believed in mate bonds, so I knew she would be intimidated by your presence. Lots of people get intimidated at the mention of childhood sweethearts."

She didn't say anything but I could see her disapproval.

"What were you planning to do after she left? Were you going to choose another woman as your mate? I know Sam told me that since you guys have royal blood, you can also choose your own mates if you want to. Were you going to do that?"

"I was going to ask you to marry me." She laughed at me until she saw that I wasn't laughing along.

"You're serious, aren't you?" She waited for an answer and when I didn't provide one, she rose from her seat. "Are you crazy? Logan, you know the two of us wouldn't work. You are my best friend's little brother and that practically makes you my little brother.

"I know we flirted a lot when we were in high school but it was just that, flirting. You know I wouldn't have agreed to marry you and you know that. Apart from the fact that I have a career, being your wife comes with a lot of responsibilities."

I went to her side to calm her down. Even though she didn't want to show it, she was angry and I didn't blame her.

"I know all of that. Just like you take me as your little brother, you are like an elder sister to me. I have always seen you as my elder sister and nothing will ever change that.

"I also know that you have a career and it is very demanding. Being a queen will just add to that, but I was willing to give it a try.

"You asked me what I was going to do if my plan succeeded and I really was going to ask you to marry me but not because I wanted another mate.

"I wanted to marry you because I knew you'd never expect more than a ring from me. Even though I am a king, I still have to answer to my people and getting married would be the right thing to do.

"It wouldn't be the first time that a man married another woman while in love with another. My father did it and I could do it too.

"I knew getting married to you will give me peace. You understand me as much as I understand you.

"You wouldn't expect me to give you love or kids. You wouldn't ask me to give my all to you and that was going to be enough. I love Amira and I am not planning to replace her with another woman in my heart.

"To me, no one will ever take her place and at that time I thought she wanted to be with Sebastian and I was willing to let her go so that she will be happy but now it is different.

"You are now mated to someone I consider my best friend, my beta and even though she left me, I know she doesn't love Sebastian and I will try my best to revive that love she had for me in her heart.

"I will find her, wherever she is and I will bring her back and make her my wife." I wanted to say something again to convince her that I meant every word when I caught Jake's scent. He was also growling even though it was low.

I didn't need to be told that he heard our conversation. When Kiera looked at the door, I knew that she heard him too.

'Come in, you don't need to stand outside.'

He didn't say anything. Seconds later, the door opened and his eyes immediately went to his mate. He didn't say anything even when he approached her.

When he was in front of her, he cupped her face with his both hands and put his forehead on top of hers. I knew he was trying to calm himself down but I also didn't like the way my office smelled when they started kissing.

I knew if I didn't say anything, they might end up going down and dirty in my very own office, with me still inside it.

"I know we spoke about this but I am not a fool. You might be mad at me because when I told you the plan, we both didn't know that Kiera is your mate.

"The reason why I told her the truth is because I don't want to lie to her. I don't want her to find out from people that I was planning to marry her even though I knew she didn't love me and I didn't love her.

"She is your mate now and even though I hate it, I will have to start calling you brother-in-law. I guess the only thing I like about this whole situation is that you both are happy.

"Most importantly, you can start calling me by my first name with ease since now we are basically family." They both looked at me and smiled.

"I don't know why you guys are smiling. I am not done yet." They looked at each other. "Even though I love you guys, I love my office more so please do me a favour and go do it in your room."

Their smiles only grew bigger as they joined their hands and made their way to the door.

"Jake, before I forget, if you ever hurt her, as her brother, I will kill you with my bare hands." And I meant that. It's just that I trusted him enough to know that he wouldn't do it.

"You have my word." And with that, they both left. I couldn't help but think it could've gone worse. I guess I should thank Jake because I don't know what I would've done if Kiera got angry.

I have never seen an angry Kiera but since she is my sister's best friend, I know better than to get her angry. They have fought before and even though it doesn't last, it sometimes got really bad.

My sister has a habit of annoying her friend.

I wanted to call my little brother when I remembered that I should be going to San Francisco too for the employee evaluation. I personally organized that evaluation and I should be the one to conduct it.