The King's Return

25. YOU ARE PERFECT

HI GUYS, I DECIDED TO EDIT THE PREVIOUS EPISODE BEFORE WRITING THIS ONE SO IF YOU HAVEN'T READ MAYA'S POV FROM THE PREVIOUS CHAPTER PLEASE DO BEFORE STARTING THIS ONE. XOXOXO

JULÍAN'S POV

I have never in my life thought that Amaya would accept my rejection, I never expected that from her. I know I hurt her when I rejected her but I never thought she would do this.

"Why is not working? I should have felt the bond breaking by now but nothing is happening." She looked at me, tears streaming down her face.

They were there from the beginning but she managed to keep her voice as normal as she could, which is something I will always admire about her, being brave and standing up for herself.

"It not gonna work because I took it back. I couldn't just do nothing while you were in pain for what I caused. I knew I had to do something, so I took the rejection back."

When I left her that day, I couldn't erase that memory of her being in pain because I decided to be an i***t. I knew I had to take it back.

I don't even know what I was thinking when I rejected her, all I knew was that she deserved better than me and I wanted to give her that.

I wanted her to have a chance without someone who was just as perfect as she is, someone who will always make her happy.

I couldn't give that to her and I knew it, rejecting her was the only option but I also ruined everything when I took back my words.

"Why? Why would you take back your words? Do you have any idea how that has affected me? For the past two years, I've been trying to move on like you told me but every time I see someone who seems interested in me, all I can think of is you and how I would be betraying you if I ever tried something with them. Do you have any idea what you have done?"

I know that and I will never forgive myself for it.

"I know and I'm sorry. When I rejected you, I thought it was going to be easy. I thought you would be able to move on and that you would find someone better than me.

"I was wrong to take it back and I know it was selfish but I just couldn't let you go. I know one of the reasons why I took it back was that you were in pain but it was also because I just couldn't picture you with someone else.

"I also know that I don't deserve you, I didn't tell you the truth about us for years. I wanted you to find out for yourself which was stupid because it hurt you.

"I never meant for that to happen. I never want to see you upset and I don't want to be the cause of it no matter what.

"I shouldn't have rejected you and I won't blame you if you don't forgive me for that. I shouldn't have hidden anything from you either. I'm so sorry."

"You know the painful part wasn't the fact that you rejected me but the fact that you didn't even tell me why you were doing so. I deserved to know but you said nothing, you just left me there."

How was I going to tell her the real reason why I was rejecting her?

"I thought it was obvious. Amaya, you are perfect, everything about you is perfect and I know that compared to you, I'm not even half perfect as you are."

"Perfect? What is so perfect about me that you had to reject me?" Does she have to ask that?

"You are pure, never been touched and you've never even dated or kissed anyone. Me on the other side? I've lost count of women I've been with."

"Are you kidding me right now? Julían, you're thirty-five. Do you think I was expecting you to be a virgin when I found out that you're my mate?"

"That's different from what I'm saying. I agree with you, I'm thirty-five. I wasn't thirty-five when you were born, I was sixteen and a virgin.

"I was supposed to wait for you like I knew you would wait but I didn't. I couldn't even let you date because I told every guy who talked to you to stay away if they still valued their lives.

"I didn't want anyone near you. I should have at least allowed you to date and do whatever you wanted." At least in that way, I would know she wasn't untouched.

"Being a virgin was my choice, not because you chased away every guy who talked to me. If I wanted to have s*x with just anyone I would have done just that.

"The only man I've ever wanted in my life is you and my virginity has always been yours to take, not by anyone.

"And it's not like you're the first guy who didn't wait for their mates. I don't understand why I had to suffer for this.

"You should've told me and allowed me to decide for myself. I'm tired of you making decisions for me, every decision that you've ever made that concerns me always hurt me and it has to stop.

"I may not be thirty-five but I am old enough to make my own decisions and you have to understand that. If you want me to have s*x with someone so that I don't have to be pure-"

"Don't you dare!" I would kill that person before he even thinks about having s*x with her. I could even feel my wolf on the surface. He's been ignoring me ever since I rejected Amaya, he wouldn't even allow me to shift, it was like he left. He was there but at the same time, it felt like he wasn't.

"I thought so."

LOGAN'S POV

'My apologies Your Majesty. I know it was short notice but I had sent you an email saying that they will be coming today. I had no idea that you didn't see the email.'

"No problem, everything is ready now even though I had to stay all night to arrange everything and making sure every room is ready in the pack house.

"It was my brother's birthday yesterday and I didn't have time to check the emails and Jake was busy too."

When Jake called me yesterday and told me about the email the Russian Alpha, Dmitri sent, I spent all night making all the arrangements for his pack members.

I haven't had the time to explain to Amira and I know she still has questions about my whereabouts yesterday.

I hate that I kept her waiting yesterday, even though I was doing my duties as a king of this kingdom.

She is my mate and she doesn't have to come second.

'Thank you so much, Your Majesty, I appreciate what you're doing for me and my pack. My Luna and I will visit someday to thank you in person if that's okay with you.'

"It's okay, I would really love to have you here and I'm sure even your members would be happy to see you. I have a lot to do so if you'll excuse me."

'Of course Your Majesty. Thank you for making time for me. Have a lovely day.'

"You too Dmitri." I need to find my mate.

I made my way to my room- our room since we've been sleeping in that same room for a while now and some of her things have already been moved there.

When I got there though she wasn't inside and it looked like she went out. She didn't tell me that she was going somewhere today and I don't remember her saying anything about going out.

I know she avoided me during breakfast and I wanted to give her space before talking to her but I guess that was a terrible idea.

I know I should've spoken to her and explained what happened yesterday so that she wouldn't be angry at me for keeping her waiting all night.

She likes overthinking things and I hate to say it but maybe she thought I was somewhere else, which is why she didn't want to talk to me.

If she went out, there's only one person she can go out with and that is Maya. I have to call her and ask if my mate is okay or not.

Problem is, I don't have Maya's number and that's because I never thought I would ever need it.

I made my way to the pack house, I know her sister has her number and she will help me. I don't want to go to Julían, I know I gave him a room in my castle but that doesn't mean I like the guy.

He rejected his mate and to me, that is a serious crime. I still don't understand why he rejected her or how he even got the courage to do it.

I got to the elevator and pressed a button to Charlotte's floor and as soon as I got there, I went straight to her and her family's room. I knocked and the door was opened immediately as if they knew someone was coming.

"Your Majesty?" Charlotte seemed surprised to see me there and when her eyes moved past me, I realised she was actually waiting for someone but that someone wasn't me.

"You're waiting for someone?" I decided to ask her when I saw that she was worried.

"Yes Your Majesty, my sister." She checked again before she focused on me again.

"Did something happen?"

"I asked her to take charge of her life and end things with Julían on a clean note but she isn't back yet and she's been gone for more than an hour now."

If Maya went to meet Julían then maybe she went to see Amira after that.

"Can I have her number? I think she might have gone with Amira and I want to know if they're okay. I think Amira is angry with me, so she didn't tell me where they went to."

"I don't think Maya would've gone out if she met Julían. She wasn't okay when she left and I know talking with Julían wouldn't have been easy for her."

If she didn't go out with Maya then where's she? I know she is angry at me but she didn't have to leave the castle without telling me and that too all alone.

"I wouldn't know though, Amira and Maya are very close and they've been together through the toughest times. I think Amira is the only person that can help Maya get through what she is going through.

"Those two know how to be there for each other and I'm glad they are friends. If Amira went out with Maya then I assure you that they are going to come back.

"I can also carry on with my plans for the day. I have a lot to do and with the construction of the house, I don't even know if I'll be able to do everything today."

I guess the only choice I have right now is to believe that my mate went out with her friend otherwise I will have to worry until I see her and make sure that she is okay.

Charlotte gave me Maya's number and I called her as soon as I left the pack house but it went through to voicemail instead.

I decided to call Amira even though I didn't want to speak with her on the phone. I wanted to explain what happened last night face to face.

Her phone put me on voicemail too just like Maya's own. Even if they went out, their phones shouldn't be off. Something is definitely wrong. I decided to mind link Jake.

'Find out where my mate and her friend are and make sure they are okay, ASAP.'

'Yes, Your Majesty.'

'Make sure you report to me as soon as you find out and don't tell anyone that I think something is wrong. I have to make sure they are okay and Maya's sister is also worried.'

'Yes, Your Majesty. I will do everything I can.'

Good!