The King's Return

20. IT'S ALEX'S BIRTHDAY

AMIRA'S POV

"What do you mean you gave him a chance? Sebastían doesn't deserve a second chance and you know that. If it was up to me, he would still be in prison, where he belongs.

"And I don't care how long you keep him there because he means absolutely nothing to me now. I don't do well with traitors." I don't know what Logan was thinking when he released him.

Now that I think about it, I don't even know why I defended him from Logan in the first place. I should've let him do whatever he wanted to do with him.

"Amor, I know you're angry and I don't blame you but you have to trust me on this one. It's just for a few days and after that, he will go back to Spain and we will never see him again. I promise."

I don't know why but I feel like something is wrong and whatever it is that is going to happen, it's big and I don't even know if we'll be able to stop it from happening.

"I trust you, Logan. I really do, but I hate that he is still here with us. Something is going to happen, something big and I think it has already begun."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm not sure but I can feel it. It's not going to happen today but it will surely happen and I don't think we will be able to stop it from happening.

"I've never felt like this before and I hate this feeling. I don't want to lose you and I fear whatever it is that is about to happen will take you away from me and me away from you. I'm very scared Logan."

I don't know what will become of me if I lose him. Whatever it is, I think it has something to do with Sebastían.

"Don't worry your gorgeous self, nothing is taking me away from you. I'm yours and you're mine and it will remain like that for as long as we live.

"Whatever it is that you feel is about to happen is not stronger than our love for each other and I know even if it does separate us, we will always find a way back to each other because we belong together."

I guess he is right but that doesn't stop me from worrying.

"It is Alex's birthday and it supposed to be a day of joy. Let's talk about something exciting at least. What do you think?"

That's absolutely fine by me.

"I had time to think yesterday. I know my life changed the moment I met you and that there's no going back now."

"Amor..."

"My life has never been normal and I used to that. I've been running away from my own father for years now if you count the years I was with him and mom back home because I was constantly running from him even at home.

"That's not normal and no matter how you want to put it, it never will. My mother is not exactly the type of mother anyone would wish for.

"My brother decided to run from home as soon as he was able to. My relatives don't give a damn about me and nothing is normal about that.

"Nothing is normal about my life and yet when I'm with you, somehow I feel like everything is normal and I also feel normal.

"When I decided to stay here and become your mate, I knew who you are and I knew I couldn't change anything about you, not that I wanted to change something about it.

"You're a king, Logan Morningstar and as your mate, I will become your queen eventually. It is inevitable.

"I am ready for that. I know I wasn't raised to be a leader, let alone a queen but I also know that you will be with me every step of the way.

"I will learn and I will get used to it eventually, just like you did. It may take me years, but I will never give up.

"I love you so much Logan and for you, I can be anything. I can only hope that I don't mess things up along the way."

"You will be my queen?"

"Over and over again. I want to be fully yours. I want to be yours in every possible way. There's nothing else I want in this life except for that. I want to be your everything."

"You're already my everything and more, queen or not. I know you're going against everything you have ever known by agreeing to this and I'm grateful.

"I swear on the love that you and I share that I will never let you be alone in this journey, we will be together for as long as we live.

"I love you Amira Rodriguez and I will love you for eternity."

"Where have you been all my life?" I didn't even realise I said that out loud, I thought I was just asking myself, internally.

"That is what I've been meaning to ask you." He smiled. "Where have you been all my life? You know, even as a child, I always knew there was something missing in my life.

"I never knew what that was until I saw you for the first time and when I did, I felt complete. Without you I would be nothing, I know that."

That makes the two of us, I'm nothing without him. "I love you Logan and I will also love you for eternity. I know I will never be able to stop myself from loving you and I don't want to.

"I want to be by your side for as long as I live and when I die, I pray that I don't get separated from you even then."

Being in his arms always make me happy, it keeps me calm and I can feel that he feels the same. I wonder how these feelings will be like once we're fully mated.

I don't even know if I'll be able to handle them all. I can feel most of the things Logan feels and we're not even fully mated yet, we haven't even started the mating yet and already we can share emotions.

Logan really is powerful, some mates can't even share all their emotions even after fully mating. He is different from everyone I've known in my life.

"You know, I was thinking..." With the way his voice sounded, whatever is in his mind can never be good.

"Thinking?"

"Yeah. I've been a perfect gentleman for a very long time now..."

"I see... And?"

"I think it is about time I forgot everything I've ever learned about being a gentleman. I don't want to be one anymore."

"I seem to remember that nobody asked you to be a gentleman, my love, you chose to. I wasn't going to ask you to change, even if it was just for me."

"So... You want to tell me that you never wanted me to be a gentleman?"

"Who doesn't want a gentleman as her man? I'm not a fool Mr Morningstar, I was just saying. If it were up to me, I wouldn't be still a virgin."

"You know my reasons, Amor. I wasn't enjoying the torture if you must know. Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to restrain myself from touching you?

"I am a walking disaster as it is and I swear, I was going to die if you didn't make the decision sooner."

I know he had his reasons and they are reasonable reasons. He was taking everything slowly, just for me because he knew I had to adjust and make a lifelong decision.

I don't think I've ever met someone who is so loving and patient in my life. I don't deserve him nor do I deserve his love.

"I didn't want you to do something you were going to regret for the rest of your life and maybe even end up resenting me for it."

"What? Logan, I would never resent you, no matter the reason. I want you to always know that."

There is no way I would hate him in this life or the other, he is my world. I know that there is a possibility that I would have regretted choosing to be his queen one day but that was going to happen only if I didn't think before making that decision.

Not now though, I know what I'm doing and even though I'm not sure I'm ready for everything like I said, I know that with Logan by my side, I can overcome anything and I can be anything.

"I just... I don't even know what to think anymore. I'm afraid to even think of our future together because I keep thinking that maybe something will go wrong and we would lose each other.

"If there's one thing I can't live without in this life, it is you." I don't know if I was thinking or not but I know I just wanted to kiss him and I did.

I wanted to feel his lips against mine and when they touched, it was like it has been too long since we last kissed.

He fought for dominance, his tongue asking for entry and when I denied him, he bit my bottom lip, causing me to part my lips.

Before the kiss could get more intense, Logan's body stilled and his wolf's displeasure filled the whole room.

"Apologies, Your Majesty." Sebastían! What in devil's name is he doing here?

"Since you're already here, you might as well say what you wanted to say. Next time though, don't just budge into this castle without being invited." Logan told Sebastían when he was about to head back to wherever he was coming from.

"I allowed you to live in my territory but not in my castle and I don't want you to mistake the two."

"I'm sorry Your Majesty, I didn't mean to be disrespectful or to disturb you. I had no idea you were busy."

"Say whatever you came to say and get the hell out of my castle." I don't know why but I kind of liked the way Sebastían cowered at Logan's tone.

"My brother is on his way here and I tried to tell him that he shouldn't just come here but he wouldn't listen." What is Julían coming to do here?

"Your brother? Why would your brother come here? You told me that you didn't tell him you're my prisoner because you promised him you wouldn't get into trouble."

"I didn't tell him that Your Majesty."

"Then why is he coming here?"

"I have no idea, he wouldn't say. Maybe he wants to bring me back home with him, I don't know." That would be very wonderful.

Logan looked at me, the look on his face told me he was thinking the same thing.

"Well... You tell your brother that he is welcome. He should see me first though when he arrives here, I would like to meet him." I couldn't help but smile at that.

Julían doesn't like trouble, in fact, that is just an understatement, he hates trouble and I know when he learns what Sebastían did, only God knows what he will do to him.

Julían Martinez. Julían was every girl's crush when I was growing up, maybe he still is, I'll never know. I remember he used to pick me up at school with Sebastían and Maya.

Maya! How did I forget her? If Julían is coming here then I need to inform her, she has to know. She was heartbroken when he rejected her and I don't know how she is going to take the news.

I don't even know why Julían is coming here, surely his brother told him we're also here. Is he insane? I know he doesn't want my friend but why is he trying so hard to torture her?

He knows how Maya was when he rejected her, he was there all the time. His brother told him everything too, he also knows that Maya would never be able to get over him.

That bastard! I will not spare him this time. He may be older than me but this is my best friend we're talking about, I can do anything for her.