Under Five

Part 1: The Discovery Chapter 1 This was the first time anyone asked for the lights to be completely out. I mean, there are some guys who like the dark, but they always want some sort of light coming in. It could be a candle, night light, or just a crack from the closet, just something to keep things from being completely black. But not this time. Carlo wanted the lights completely off. I wasn’t sure whether to be offended, or to just go with the flow. But it did kind of bother me, even while we were kissing and rubbing each other all over the place. I tried to forget about the fact that we messed around the last time with all the lights on, but it was still nagging me a bit. “Everything okay, Mike?” Carlo asked. While I couldn’t see them, I knew his emerald green eyes were pointed directly at me. They were fake, but man, did they complement him so much. “Nah, I’m good, just come over here,” I cooed, pulling him up closer to me. We still had our clothes on, so it was easy to grab his shirt and bring him in closer. I wanted to feel his hot breath against my neck, followed by his gentle kisses. The two times we hooked up before, we only kissed, and both times we only had our shirts off. But this time around, I wanted more. I wanted him to take me, to ravage me. To fill me up and not stop until we were both on the verge of exploding. I could tell that Carlo was a bit surprised, even though I still hadn’t completely adjusted to the dark, but he seemed into it and let me drag his mouth closer to mine. He took his hands and gently placed them on the back of my head, pulling a little on my hair but not enough to cause me pain. “Don’t stop, keep going,” I moaned. Carlo intensified his kisses and started moving down towards my neck, then pulled back a little and began to pull my shirt off. I started on his before my shirt even hit the floor, and now for the first time tonight, we were both finally showing some skin. After a bit of kissing and exploring, I forgot about the light situation. Thanks to the moon beaming through my curtains and right toward my bed I was able to make out where I wanted my hands to go. Carlo had the body type I loved: bearish, with broad shoulders and big, strong arms. But what got me was his chest. In the moonlight and without a shirt, Carlo was simply beautiful. Even though I wasn’t a bear myself, I could appreciate the slight hairy trail he had going from his chest down to his stomach. I could see that the trail went even further, and I wanted him to reveal more. Carlo continued to kiss down my body, but I stopped him right before he got to my stomach. “Let me take off your pants,” I ordered. I was hoping he would be turned on by the dominance in my voice and simply obey. “No, you first. I want to show you everything I have to offer you,” Carlo responded, his hands rubbing the top of my shorts, fingers slightly pushing under the elastic. He let it snap a few times before slightly licking his lips. I arched up a bit to help him out, and he obliged by grabbing my shorts at both ends and pulled them off along with my underwear. He placed his hand on my now erect c**k, then stopped for an awkward minute. “Something wrong?” I asked. “No, um, just thought of something,” he replied, giggling a bit before continuing. “Now get ready to have the best s*x that you…” He didn’t finish. How could he now that he was giggling like crazy? I wanted to jump out of the bed right then and there, but he still had my d**k in his hand, and even though it was getting flaccid, I didn’t want to make any sudden moves and damage myself. “Would you mind letting go? I would like to get dressed.” He did, even though he was still laughing like a lunatic. I picked up my clothes and put my underwear on, then went for the lamp by my bed. Carlo was sprawled out across my bed. While his laughter had stifled a bit, his red face showed that something had amused him to no end. I slipped my shorts back on and began to gather up his things. “Oh, come on, don’t be that way. I’m sorry. We can still mess around. I just need a minute.” The moment he finished his sentence, Carlo began laughing again. He put his hand over his mouth so it wouldn’t be so loud, but it was no use. “What the hell is so funny? I was good enough for you before. What changed?” I stared him down hard; so hard that I was able to break his laughing fit up once and for all. “I don’t want to offend you. You’re a nice guy. I was just taken by surprise. You know how it is with these things,” Carlo stated as he got up from the bed and walked over towards me. “No, I don’t know. I don’t have a clue about what is going on.” Carlo took my hand and looked me straight in the eyes with his emerald greens. For a second, I almost melted. But then the laughing started going on in my head again, and my fury came back full force. Looking at Carlo’s face, I could tell he had something he wanted to say, but just couldn’t. He kept biting his lip, and you could tell he was thinking very carefully before he spoke again. The anticipation wasn’t helping my tolerance, so I knew that I had to speed things up a bit. “Just spit it out.” Carlo looked at the floor one more time, then right back at me. “It’s just…well…I…I didn’t expect it to be so small.” I really don’t remember what happened after that, but I do recall that I was rushing him out in just his underwear, not giving him anytime to put his other clothes back on. He pleaded with me a bit, asking to stay and make it up to me. And I almost did—until he mentioned that he was just used to bigger. * * * * After Carlo left I went back to my bed and tried to force myself to go to sleep. But it was no use. All I could think about were those words I’m just used to bigger. I mean, I always knew that I didn’t have the biggest hammer in the tool box; I have seen porn and other naked men, but this was the first time that anyone had ever brought it up to me. After a few tossing and turning sessions, I decided to get up and see for myself. Even though I have looked at myself I the mirror thousands of times, maybe I somehow tricked myself into thinking that it wasn’t that small. Maybe now that Carlo pointed it out, I would finally be able to see the truth. I got out of bed, turned on my lamp and walked slowly to my mirror. I still had my sheet covering my body. I thought about just dropping it and getting the full view head on, but since I was still flaccid I figured it would be a waste. I tried to get hard, but it was no use; every time I tried to think of something that turned me on, all I could picture was Carlo laughing at me. I didn’t expect it to be so small. The words still rang in my ears, eating away at me. I’m ashamed to admit it, but I scoured my apartment for a ruler. I knew I had one in a junk drawer or somewhere like that, but I just couldn’t find it. Five open drawers later, I shook my head. This is crazy, I thought, and forced myself back to bed.