The Billionaire's Ex Wife

Life As I Know It

Abbigail's POV

love... a four letter word that carries more weight than a brick of Gold. People have lived and died all in the name of love, I should know... I was once in love and in that moment, I felt like a goddess, I felt like a queen. I thought that I had found my knight in shining armour, turns out I was wrong about that as well. Right now I am very convinced that love is not for me, I mean how unlucky in love can one person be? I even think that I might be cursed or something. I suppose I am in a way.

I was in college when I had my boy, I didn't plan on having a kid so soon but it happened, before I gave birth to my son, I didn't know unconditional love really felt like and then I held him in my arms for the first time, I swear the whole world stoped rotating for a minute, looking into his sweet beautiful eyes made me realise that I have never loved anyone that much before. It didn't matter that I had to raise him on my own, I just couldn't imagine a world without him.

That's what motherhood will do to you. I have never had a more fulfilling job than being a mother. I remember thinking and wondering if I would even fall in love again, wether I would find a man who was going to take me as I am and love me like there was no other woman in the world. It seemed impossible but I finally thought that I could be worthy of love one day.

So I fell in love again and God it was so good, it was like a fairytale. A man who knew what I wanted even before I did, a man who worshipped the ground I walk on, a man who would do anything for me, even kill for me, as sweet as that may sound, believe me when I tell you that it's not easy to have to be faced with that reality. I really thought I had hit the Jackpot with Theodore, not because he had money but because he was everything I could ever want in a man. He was everything a perfect man should be, I should have known that not all that glitters is gold.

"Abby we need to go... the kids are ready." My friend said to me.

"I'll be down in a minute, I'm almost done. " I said.

Today I get to see my son in his school play, I was so excited I could cry. The last two years have been hard on everyone, after years of not knowing who his father was, my son finally got a chance to meet him, Greyson couldn't believe that I had kept his son away from him for so long, he even wanted to take Martin from me but I wouldn't let him. They got along very well and for the first time, my son was genuinely happy, which is all I ever wanted for my son.

I was also happy, I was in love and I was married, even with their issues, my husband and baby daddy always put my son's needs first, the both of them wanted to be the best father that they could be and for a moment I was happy, I finally had everything I had been dreaming of, I finally had a real family. My wedding was beautiful, I loved every minute of it, I guess I should have known that it was all too good to be true.

I agreed to marry Theodore because he was a good man, or at least I thought so, I was really looking forward to making my marriage work, I wanted nothing more than to start a family with him but he broke my heart, he was not the only one who did that, both my husband and my baby daddy broke my heart and put my life in danger. I remember waking up in hospital with a bullet hole in my shoulder, I knew then that I could not be with either of these men.

I had to go, I had to leave because I had to protect my children. I basically ran away from hospital, I left my husband and didn't tell him that I was leaving him. I knew how dangerous he was and that he would do everything in his power to find me, I had to seek help from the last person either of them would think of. I had to lie in order to protect my own, I had no choice in the matter. I have had to adjust to a lot of things these last two years.

When I had my son, I vowed that the next time I got pregnant, I would have my husband with me through out my entire pregnancy, it's funny how history likes to repeat itself on my account, I found myself going through another pregnancy alone. I had no choice in the matter. When I found out I was pregnant with twins, I also found out that my husband was not who he said he was. He has been lying to me from the moment we met and when the truth came out, I had to leave.

New York was never the place that I wanted to raise my children in, neither is Louisiana State but I had no choice in the matter. I had to get away from my husband, I had to start a new life somewhere where he would not be able to find me. I know that he has been looking for me and I have been very careful to make sure that he doesn't find me.

That means that I had no social media accounts, not only that but I had to change my name, I also had to change my son's name. He didn't understand why we had to leave his dad's behind, He asked for them for three months straight when we moved here. I know that he misses Greyson and Theo but there was no other way. I had to do what I had to do, especially since I had two more kids on the way.

The hardest thing about all of this is that I have had to live like a fugitive, I can't let Theo find me, he cannot know where I am hiding because I don't know what he might do to me. I saw how attached he was with Martin, if he knew about the twins he would come after me, the last thing I need is another custody battle. I don't think that I can handle all of that.

I put on lipstick and combed my hair, I realised that the roots were beginning to grow out, this means that it was time for me to see my hair dresser. It's hard living your life as someone else. I have had to die my hair blonde, I had to change my appearance. I also had to avoid every public camera I came across. I know my husband and he will do anything to find out where I am.I fixed my dress and I went downstairs, Linda was carrying one of the twins in a car seat.

"Get her, Martin is in the car... we are going to be so late." she said pointing at my daughter.

"I know... " I said and took my daughter in her car seat. We went to the car and we safely secured them in the car and made our way to my son's school. The place was already filling up with proud parents and grandparents waiting to see their kids.

"Mom hurry up... I am going to be late." my son said as I fixed his costume, I can't believe that my boy is now nine, he has grown so much in the last couple of years, he even helps me with the twins sometimes.

I never planned on being a house wife or a single mother but my life has completely taken a huge turn. When I left my husband, I knew that I could not keep in contact with my mother so I reached out to my grandparents. They were so happy to hear from me. They came for a visit when we first moved her and even though I didn't ask them, they insisted on buying me a house and not only that, they gave me a lot of money.

My grandfather told me that he had always set up a trust fund for me hoping that my mother would come someday come home with me. He said that they made a lot of mistakes with my mother, especially when she was kicked out because she fell pregnant with me. It was not easy for me to accept their money but I didn't have much of a choice.

The money has helped me a lot, I have since even opened myself a small business, I only have two employees but we seem to be doing good. I have always wanted to have a law firm of my own, I am happy that I finally did it, even if it's a small one. I suppose that we all have to start somewhere right? Linda has been on my case about my marriage to Theodore.

I want to divorce him, I really do but I am afraid of exposing myself to him, what if he finds me and find out about the twins? I don't think I can handle them being taken away from me. My grandparents gave me money but my husband is a billionaire, besides that he has a lot of skills.

"You look so good baby..." I said and kissed Martin.

"Eeww mom... don't do that." He said as he kneeled down and kissed the twins. " I will see you guys later." he said to them and ran to join the rest of his group.

"We should take our seats." Linda said.

"Yeah... let's go." I said and we made our way to the hall where we got front row seats.

"Look at what I have???" Linda said with a smile as she took out a camera from her purse.

"Mama will be so happy to see this." I said with a smile.

"So have you thought about what I told you?" Linda asked me. Her father just opened another firm in New Jersey and he wants me to run it. It sounds like a nice job, especially since it comes with a lot of perks but I can't do it. I have my kids to think about.

"Yes and I don't know friend... What about my babies? " I said.

"We can always get them a Nanny, dad knows that you are a mother and that your kids come first, Abby you can finally have a big firm like you have always wanted to, think about it, not even Theodore will be able to touch you then." Linda said.

I told her a little bit about why I ran away from my husband but I didn't tell her the whole truth. I just don't know what other shady business my husband was or is involved in, giving her information might actually put her in danger, I think it's better that she doesn't know more than she needs to.

"Ha... you think hiding behind a law firm and a judge will stop him? you don't know Theodore." I said to her.

"You know I still don't understand why you left him, you two were so good together, that man loved you." she said.

"Speaking of Theo? are you done with the divorce papers?" I asked her.

"Yes but I haven't sent them out yet, are you sure that you want to go ahead with this? I mean I think that you should at least talk to him and tell him that you want a divorce..." she said.

"There is nothing to talk about, I don't want anything from him." I said.

"That's another we need to talk about, you do realise that you don't have a prenup right? legally you are entitled to half of everything he owns, Abby you could get millions or even billions in this settlement." Linda said.

I chose her to represent me, not only because she is my best friend but because she is the best there is. She is great at what she does and I know that she can do this while keeping it on the low and not reveal my true location. She wanted me to take half or atleast want alimony or child support, I suppose many people would do that but I don't want blood money. This is what it is. He was a hired gun, he killed people for a living and I don't think that I can live with that.

Yes I don't go to church like I used to when I was a little girl but I still have my faith in the Lord and wrong is wrong, murder is the biggest sin in the book of sins, how can I hope for salvation when I am with someone who has such a tainted past. I can't do it, I just can't. I can't help feeling like his sins will be passed down to my children and I don't think that I can live with that.

"No, I don't even want a red cent from that man, I just want a divorce, that's all I want." I said.

"Fine, I'll get the papers faxed tonight, he will be served tomorrow." she said.

"Thank you... this means a lot to me." I said.

"I know... this is why I think you should take daddy up on his offer. " she said.

"I'll think about it, if he can find me a good home and a good nanny, I might just consider it." I said.

"Abby the man is already offering you a partnership..." she said dramatically.

"It's not like he can't afford it." I said.

"That's true..." She said and we both laughed.

"Shhh the show is about to start..." A little girl said to us.

"Did she just shoosh us?" Linda asked me.

"I believe she did..." I said and we both laughed. She looked so cute in her pigtais.

"Did you remember to put in earplugs for the twins? " I asked Linda.

"Yes, I am sure that we don't want to hear them waking up and screaming in the middle of a play, Martin would never forgive us." she said.

"Thanks for coming down for this. " I said to her.

"Well I wouldn't miss it for the world, Martin is my God child I hate that I had to take a two hour train, and a two hours boat ride to get here." she said.

"I know and I am sorry but I had to make sure that you were not being followed." I said.

"Well I was not, your mother wants to know if you are going to get the twins a christening, you should have already done it by now." She said.

"I'll think about it... I haven't even thought that far... You know what I hate them most? the fact that I have to live like a criminal, like I did something wrong, I hate this." I said.

"I know but look on the bright side, at least now you have a relationship with your grandparents." Linda said.

"Yeah, even if I haven't fully forgiven them, I am glad that they helped me out." I said.

The last two years might have not been the most perfect but I have learned a lot, I don't even think that I can be able to trust another man after what happened to me and besides what man would want a woman with three kids? I am living my life for my kids right now, their needs come first. I am glad that they are so young and that they don't know how bad the world really is, if they are lucky, they will know how cruel and trustworthy people are. I still can't believe that my husband hid so much from me. I have spent the last two years wondering if I should divorce him and now I think it's time I did it, I need closure and this is the only way to do it. I have to forget about Theo, forget that he ever existed and move on with my life.

I am at a point in my life where I feel like I don need a man to complete me, even if the nights in bed are cold, my heart is warm with the love I have for my children. I think the hardest part about this whole thing is that I am still in love with Theodore, my heart still longs for me. I don't know how many times I have had to stop myself from picking up the phone and calling him. Every time I do that, I have to remind myself of the scar on my shoulder, that I got hurt because he lied to me. I must be very honest in saying that the past doesn't really mean much, as long as it stayed in the past but that was not the case with Theo, his kept on coming back to haunt us. I am afraid of all the shady people in his past.

Tracey used me to get to Theodore, she pretended to be a friend just so that she can get close to Theo and steal from him. That's another thing I am worried about, what happens the next time Theo decided on creating something like that again? What is to stop another person from using me to get to him again? I can't be in the firing line again, I just can't.