Who Knows I’ll Be Keeping You

Chapter 20: Former

Bianca Ysabelle Velasquez’s Point of View

I walk out from his office and leave the quarter in silence. Hindi na ako bumalik pa sa meeting room dahil siguradong tatanungin ako ng kung ano-ano ng mga kasama namin sa council. They know that I am close with Josh and that I know everything about him so they will surely question me.

Naglakad-lakad ako sa hallway para naman mawala ang galit ko kay Josh. I wanted to have some fresh air to bring back my mood. I can’t function properly if my mind is not at ease and if I am not comfortable to the person that is with me.

Today si Saturday but there are still students here in the campus. Most of the student that are here are athletes and they need to have their weekend training. Some are also here to have their club meetings and weekly activities. For you to enter the campus, you need to present your school ID and another ID for your club or the for the sports that you are into. And yes, the school is really strict when it comes to students who will be coming here on weekends. They don’t want to see students coming here for nothing.

Even me, as the vp of the council doesn’t like to see students here in the campus doing nothing.

“Good morning Ms. Velasquez.” bati sa akin ng babaeng nakasalubong ko. I smiled at her and slightly bow down my head.

“Good morning. Are you here for something?” I asked as I looked at the ID on her body.

“Yes. We are having our seminar.” she said and she isn’t intimidated at me at all.

“What club did you belong?”

“Arts Club.”

“Oh. Your name?” I got my phone from my pocket and open an app. I saw her sighed and then looked at me with impatience.

“Mira Lea Diaz.”

I searched up her name on the studen’s list and found that she really is a member of the Arts Club. I smiled and then walked pass her. I did not even bother to say goodbye since it has no point. I got what I want so I don’t need to talk with her anymore. What was her name again? I totally forgot since she is not that important and I don’t hear anything from her before. I think she is not that famous as well. I mean, I know all of the people who are well known here in the campus because I am also one of them. I also know the girl that Josh is crazy about.

Asher Keren Cy. She is a really well known law student here in the campus for being smart, she is also good at sports and all of the students calls her the perfect one. Everybody adore her much more because she always ace everything. It seems like she can even do the impossible. That’s why I don’t like her. She is too perfect and I am not like that.

And yes, I don’t like her because she’s not like me. Ayoko sa mga taong alam kong may lamang sa akin and I also don’t like people who are below me. They are just pushovers who tried to prove theirselves too hard even though they knew they can’t go up.

I decided to go to the school’s library to check if there are students there. I also went pass the cafeteria and there are no students which means that they may be still on their meetings or gatherings right now. At least they really know and followed the school rules. Ayoko pa naman sa taong akala mo kung sino para labagin ang school rules.

“Good morning Ms. Velasquez.” the librarian greeted me.

I don’t know her name because I am not also interested in knowing who she is. All I know is that she is fat, her hair is very curly and she has this mole on her chin. She is the first person that I met with a mole on their chin because honestly, that look is really unusual.

“Are there students who checked in today?” I asked as I look around the library. There are no students in here right now but I have to know if there are a few who came here.

“Isang tao lang po ang nag check in at nandito pa po siya. Sa tingin ko ay sa huling aisle siya kadalasang tumatambay.” sabi niya at tinuro ang mga bahagi ng libro. Umalis ako ng walang paalam o pasasalamat sa librarian at tinahak ang last aisle ng library.

When I reached the last aisle, I did not spot someone sitting on the floor or someone looking for a book.

“Where could this person be?” I said to myself. I walk pass the last aisle and when I reached the next one, I saw someone sitting on the floor leaning his back on the wall. He is reading a book and he is listening music through his headphones. Upon seeing his face, I smiled and went near him. Hinablot ko ang libro na nasa kamay niya at tiningnan kung ano ang binabasa niya.

Oh.

“I thought you don’t like history?” I asked and I throw the book on the floor.

Finally, I got his attention and he stared at me.

“What?” I asked innocently. He can’t just get angry at me for throwng the book that he is reading right? Hindi naman talaga siya nagalit sa akin ni minsan. “I know you don’t like it so I am helping you.” I said in a sweet voice. I went near him and as I was about to touch his hand, he stood up and fixed all of his things. “Where are you going?” I asked as I stood up as well.

“F*cking away from you.”

“What?!” I shouted. How could he say something like that towards me?!

“I said f*ck off.” he calmly stated and started to walk away from me.

“Connor!” sigaw ko sa kanya at napahinto naman siya sa paglalakad. He did not look back but at least he stopped after hearing my voice.

I know he still loves me. He told me that he will wait for me and he will not love any other person except from me.

“Do you want to grab lunch with me?” I asked.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because students who don’t have business here in the school during weekends shouldn’t be here.”

“But I am the school’s vice president.”

“The more reason for me to go home.” naglakad na siya paalis at lumabas ng library. But what the hell happened? That was the first time Connor rejected my offer and the first time he acted cold towards me. Did something happen to him?

I need to know!

I ran towards the door and looked for Connor after I went out. Where could he possibly be after walking out? Did he really meant the thing that he said? That he wanted to go home after seeing me? Because I don’t think that’s what he wanted.

I ran as fast as I could towards the parking area. As I reached the place, I saw Connor walking walking towards his car. Bago na naman ba ang sasakyan niya?

“Connor!” sigaw ko pero hindi pa rin siya humihinto sa paglalakad. “Connor, wait!” I grabbed his arm when I reached him but he immediately shove my hand away from his arm. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya kaya napatingin ako sa kamay kong hawak pa kanina ang braso niya. Is something wrong? Did I upset him that’s why he is acting strange towards me?

“What’s wrong with you Connor?” I asked in a slow voice. I wanted him to answer me and I can’t let it happen if I am angry because I really can’t control myself.

“Why are you always following me?” he asked and he look at me with annoyance. What the hell is happening?

“What are you talking about? Of course I will follow you. I missed you so much.” I went near him and I was about to hug him but he moved backwards. I felt rejected and heartbroken. Did I do something for him to do all of these things to me?

“Did I upset you Connor?” I asked.

“What are you saying? Are you even listening to yourself?”

“I am. And I am asking you why are you acting like this?”

“Acting like what?” he asked and I can sense that he is more annoyed at me right now.

“Like you are not my boyfriend!” I shouted.

He smiled because of what I said. Did he remember now? I am his girlfriend. Why isn’t he acting like one?

“We broke up Bianca. It’s been years. I thought you already moved on?”

“What? You’re the one who told me that nothing will change between the two of us. You told me that you will always be there for me and you will accept me always!” sigaw ko. Wala akong pakialam kung may makarinig man sa away naming dalawa kasi naguguluhan talaga ako kay Connor.

“When was the last time that we talked? A month? Two months ago? Or maybe three? And I don’t remember you anymore. You always come to me when you only needed me! You broke up with me years ago but you are always using me for your own pleasure!” he pointed at me and I looked down after hearing everything that he said. Is this the end? I thought he really loves me.

“You don’t love me, do you?” I asked.

“I don’t. I don’t want you anymore Bianca.”

“Do you have someone in your heart right now?”

“I do.”

“Do I know her?”

“You don’t. And you don’t need to know because we are over. I don’t want to be use by someone like you anymore. Someone who us selfish and greedy.” tumalikod na siya sa akin at pumasok sa kotse niya. Malakas niya itong pinaandar at mabilis na nawala sa paningin ko ang sasakyan niya.

What did just happen? What did Connor do?

I have always imagined a scene where both of us could have a family in the future and we will be happy. I have imagined that when the time comes and I will stop this leadership that I have within, we can be together again as a couple. I never thought about anything like this to happen. Hindi ko inaasahan na mangyayari ang ganito ngayon. Did he just said that he has someone in his heart right now and that someone isn’t me.

Should I be furious? He promised me! He promised me that he will not replace me because I will always own him and I will be the one that suits him. But what did he just do? He let go of me. He got tired. He is now not mine.

“What did I just told you a while ago? He will find someone better than you Byang because you are selfish. And that is actually true.” I looked back and I saw Josh walking towards me. What is he doing in here? “Do you, by any chance, still want to be a villain?”