Who Knows I’ll Be Keeping You

Chapter 19: Villain

Bianca Ysabelle Velasquez’s Point of View

“Mr. President?” I called out.

He seems to be perturb and faze. It’s been days since he’s like that and I can’t just ask him because I know my place. Bianca Ysabelle Velasquez, the vice president of the student council and the second hand of Josh Adrian Jimenez, of course, the president.

We are in between our monday meeting but the president looks like he is not in a good condition. We also have our brief meeting yesterday for the upcoming activities of the school but I was the one who talked the whole time. And I knew something’s wrong. Josh is not the kind of person who will just listen and approve. He talks more than anyone of us in the council and he knew he have to ask a lot of questions. I, being the vice president, ended the meeting yesterday without, us, gaining something.

“Yes? Pardon?” he asked and sat straight.

I looked at his eyes and he is really bothered by something. I know it. I mean, hello? We knew each other for years now and we’ve been allies for almost all of the school’s activities.

“We did not even say a thing.” I said and stood up. I am tired of this nonsense meeting.

“Saan ka pupunta Bianca? Hindi pa natatapos ang meeting natin.” saad ni Sam, ang secretary namin.

I smiled in disbelief and looked at Josh. He is staring at me and he is confident that I will be intimidated with that look. I am different from others and I am not afraid of him!

“Look at him!” I pointed at Josh and he looked down while touching his forehead. Will he stop acting like he is sick?! Because it only made me more itchy to slap him right now. “What is the point of this f*cking meeting if the very mighty Mr. President did not f*cking listen to even a single word.” I said and kicked the swivel chair before going out of the meeting room.

Josh followed me until the hallway and he pull me towards his office. This will be the first time that we have misunderstood each other in front of the council. We always fought, yes, but that is natural for a vice president like me and a president like him. We share ideas and sometimes, one can’t just accept the other person’s ideas. For years, that is the only thing that we fought about. This time will be different and I hate the fact that we are fighting over something that I don’t know. And why did I get angry? Is it because he is not attentively listening to the speaker or because I am just tired?

I hate this feeling of discomfort and not knowing anything. Agh! I hate everything that he do without me knowing.

When we got inside his office, he locked the door and slightly pushed me on the wall. He is still looking down and he is breathing heavily. What kind of sh*t is his problem? He always tell me about all of his problems but I don’t think he already told me about this one.

“Byang. . .” he said while panting.

“What kind of sh*t are you into right now Josh? Look at you! You are out of your mind!” I shouted and pushed his face up so that I can see it.

I was shocked seeing his tears flowing continuously. Ano ba talaga ang problema niya? Hindi ko pa siya nakitang umiiyak at kailanman ay hindi ako unaasang makikita ko siyang umiiyak sa harapan ko. For me, he is the toughest guy that I have ever met and how ironic would it be if he will f*cking cry in front of me? How the f*ck would I f*cking react to that?

*pak pak*

Yes, I slapped him. I slapped him so hard that I wanted to add more. I wanted to slap him more until he can’t walk and until his face will bleed. Because I am f*cking angry right now!

“Why are you f*cking crying?!” I shouted at him.

He sat down on the floor and cried. Even though I did not hear something from him, patuloy pa rin sa pagtulo ang luha niya. Depsite knowing that the tears are slowly dripping from his eyes, he let out a bitter laugh. Is this guy a psycho?

“You know what?” he started the conversation. Tumalikod ako sa kanya dahil mas lalo kong gusto na sampalin siya kapag nakikita ko ang mukha niya. “I got dumped. I was dumped by the girl that I like for years.”

“Then f*cking move on you idiot!” sigaw ko at hinarap siya. Kinuha ko ang libro na nasa mesa niya at tinapon sa kanya. “Idiot!” I shouted.

“I can’t. I don’t know the reason why but I just can’t forget about her. I just can’t.”

“You cannot forget that girl named Asher because you are in love with her, deeply. And then she dumped you. Why don’t you kill yourself?” I said in a monotone voice.

I am tired of hearing all of his dramas and sh*ts. I would be happy if he will kiss his self. That way, my life would be peaceful as well.

“Is killing myself a good thing?” inosenteng tanong niya na parang hindi niya talaga alam ang sagot sa tanong niya. Ilang taon na ba si Josh? Apat na taon?

“Are you insane? Don’t you know anything?”

“But she told me that I can be her friend.” he said and then smiled at me. I almost laugh but I tried to remain furious as long as I could.

“You punk!” I threw the other notebook that I have in my hand towards his direction. “Martyr ka ba? Bakit hindi mo kayang tingnan ang sitwasyon kung nasaan ka ngayon?! You are a looser!”

“Why did you say that? And how can you say that I am a looser?”

“Because you do not know anything and you have no idea what you are into.”

“What am I into?” he asked innocently.

I sighed and tried to make myself calm. His face looks so innocent and hurt. What else can I do except from explaining everything to him?

“You are being dumped Josh. Which means that she don’t want you to be with her. She don’t need you in her life. How can you say that you can be her friend? You love her yet you only want to be just a friend? Idiot!”

“Wala naman na akong magagawa Byang. Sabi na niya sa akin ay hindi niya tinatanggap ang panliligaw ko. Hindi naman siguro ibig sabihin na ayaw niya sa akin. What should I do then?”

“Make her fall in love with you.”

“She already told me that she doesn’t want me to court her. What else can I do? Or what should I do next?”

“Think of a solution like you are a real man. F*ck you!”

“I really don’t know what to do.”

“Because you are an idiot!” I shouted and sat down on his swivel chair.

“Ano ba ang nakita mo sa kanya na ganyan ka kung umasta dahil lang sa ayaw niya sa’yo? Ang daming babae diyan Josh. And most of them want you. Doon ka sa taong mahal ka because you can make that person fall in love easily.” I explained.

I wanted him to know that Asher isn’t the only girl in the word. Ang daming babae na gusto siya dito sa campus and he can look for the one. It’s not hard to make someone fall in love with you. You just need time.

“You already know. Kilala ko pa siya simula grade school pa lang kami.” he stood up and sat on his table. He look devastated because he really is devastated. Ganito pa ang epekto ng babaeng iyon sa kanya?

Oh right. They were classmates since grade school until middle school but I don’t think that girl even know him. Kapag nagkakasalubong kasi kami minsan sa hallway, hindi siya tinitingnan o binabati nito. Paano siya nagkagusto sa taong hindi naman siya kilala?

“Are you sure that she’s the girl you know since grade school?” I asked. I wanted to confirm if that girl is the exact person. Because how come she did not even know Josh?

“Yes.” he said and looked down.

“Bakit hindi ka niya kilala?” I directly asked. I know this will hurt him but I wanted to know the truth. How can I help him if I did not know everything? Besides, I will not tell other people about his secrets. He already know that.

“Kasi hindi naman talaga kami nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na makilala ang isa’t-isa.” malungkot na sabi niya.

“So you are just a nobody back then?”

“Yes.” he said in a low tone.

“Glad that you are not like that anymore.” I said. He did not answer me and he just sighed. Tumahimik din ako dahil ramdam ko na kahit anong oras ay iiyak na naman ang lalaking ito.

“How did you manage to move on Byang?” he asked. I was stunned for a moment and I realized that, yeah, I was heartbroken but I did my best to be happy, even without him.

“I talked to myself that I can’t have him anymore. That I can’t have everything that I want. But, if I can have him at any cost, then I will surely get him back.”

“What if someone already took his heart?”

“That is impossible.” I said because it’s actually true. I don’t think someone can get his interest. I have known him for years and he also know me more than anyone. I was the one who broke up with him because I choose not to be interrupted with my responsibility as her girlfriend. I choose to serve the students and have my way to the top. I choose to prove to my dad that I can also be a leader and not just a housewife in the future. That’s why I broke up with him and look at me now, I am the vice president of the student council.

“It is not impossible Ysabelle. I know what kind of man he is and you know him really well. Don’t deny it.” he said.

I stood up and faced him.

“He told me that he will wait for me and I will always be the girl in her heart.” I said in a monotone voice.

“He can’t wait for you for long. It’s been years Byang. Learn how to let go of him!” he shouted.

I smiled and the slowly clapped my hands.

“Take care of your own business first Josh.” I said.

I started walking towards the door of his office and held the door knob. I was about to open the door when Josh spoke, again.

“What will you do if that impossible thing for you will happen? What if he already has someone in his heart right now that is not you? What will you do?” he asked. I looked back at him and a devilish smile was formed on my lips.

“I will be the villain then.”