BELOVED ⚔Assassin Series9 ⚔

Final Chapter

"I am sorry for not being there when you needed me. I am sorry for making you feel worthless when you were my whole world. I am sorry for not cheering you up when you needed it. I am sorry for not loving you when you craved for it. I’m sorry. There’s so many things I would say if I could go back in time."

Madamdaming sabi ni Prince kay Mia na ni hindi man lang sya sinulyapan kahit isang saglit lang.

"Would ‘sorry’ have made any difference? Does it ever? It’s just a word. One word against a thousand actions."

Hindi makatinging sabi ni Mia kay Prince. Simula ng magkatagpo ang landas nila at magkita ulit sa binyag ng anak nila Mark at Sm bilang ninong at ninang ni Sabina, hindi na sya tinigilan at pinatahimik ni Prince. Kaya para matapos ng kakasunod at pangungulit nito sa kanya pinaunlakan na rin nyang imbitasyon nito na mag dinner sila.

"I wish I could've told you, I wish I could've told you, I love you. Those days in class I felt so safe like we were the only two in the world we clicked and we talked, laughed, and argued you drove me crazy yet, everything else made my heart skip a beat your eyes were like a fire that burned into mine as I looked at you, I made many wrong choices I regret but I'm not sure what I regret about you. Letting myself fall for you? Or letting you go? I never told you how much our talks meant to me all the giggles we shared while we both got in trouble for being disruptive. That day where you leaned on me and rested your head on my shoulder I didn't want that to end I imagined us together like we could've had something, yet you didn't feel anything but tired. I felt a future and again you didn't. You hurt me but you didn't know, that I was burning and screaming hoping to get out of those fiery eyes. I was being burned alive,my heart melted I couldn't feel the heartbeat anymore and you never saw me, you never saw the pain. I miss you, only if you just knew."

Hindi sumagot si Mia nanatili lang itong nakatingin sa entablado kung saan may kumakantang banda. Natigilan sya ng maramdaman ang kamay ni Prince sa ibabaw ng kamay nyang nakapatong sa mesa. Napabaling tuloy ang tingin nya sa binata na tila ang lungkot lungkot ng mga mata nito.

"You may not know it, but you're with me like a shadow. You're something that just lingers. I am not talking about the times when I am doing something unimportant like laundry or making my bed. I am talking even when I am working, or talking with my friends, or searching for some important document for the application that is due next week. Damn. I am thinking of you even when I am not thinking of you. Does that make sense? The fact that you can exist at the back of my mind even when I have something else in the spotlight."

Pinagsiklop nyang kamay nilang dalawa ni Prince saka ngumiti dito. Hindi sya isang ipokrita na itatangging na miss nyang binata at masaya sya dahil nanatili ito sa tabi nya kahit na ilang beses na nya itong pinagtabuyan. Mahal nya pa rin ito mula noon hanggang ngayon, kaya bakit pa sya mag iinarte kung matagal na nyang inaasam na maging sila ng binata.

"There's no polite way of saying this but I want you to f**k the loneliness out of me. I want to f**k you till I am happy again. m**********n has to be the loneliest thing on earth and I am tired of asking for love. I am tired of asking for love to love me the way I don't love myself. I want you to tell me how I shouldn't punish myself everytime I am sad. I want you to take out my remorse and fill me with so many beautiful things that the angels start crying. I want to be happy. I want to be happy with you."

Napatawa ng malakas si Mia ng marinig ang mga unang sinabi ni Prince, napapailing na tinapik nyang kamay nitong nakahawak pa rin sa kanya. Kahit kelan brutal pa rin ito kung makapag salita, walang hiya hiya sa mga binibitawang salita kahit na censored dapat yun.

"I miss your puffy face in the morning. The aroma of your coffee to your hoodie that is occupying in your favorite spot in the living room. I miss the random notifs on my social media; your daily sharing of memes and rants. The way you defend me from my bashers and haters. I miss how you find my hands on a busy street, how you make sure I’m not lost or being pushed from behind. The way you make things easy for me and all the little things. I miss you in every way."

Nangingiting inilapit ni Prince sa kanyang bibig ang magkadaop nilang kamay saka hinalikan ang kamay nya. Habang titig na titig ito sa kanya. Nakikita nyang kasiyahan at kaligayahan sa mukha ng binata.

"Sometimes, I just want to express how much you mean to me through tight hugs. Hug from the side, back hugs or even the front ones, any form of it. I just want to remove the distance and space that separates us. I want to feel you next to me and fill up this vacuous room with deafening silence. I want to enfold my arms around your soul case. I want to be with you as closest as I could. I want to hear the symphony of our heartbeat. I don’t want to hear anything else. No words, just it. I want to squeeze you tight and feel the friction of our skin. I want to feel your warmth that melts my worrying. I want to feel how your arms will caress me and how your breathe will touch my soul. I want to escape from these difficulties we’ve been experiencing. I want to hug you intimately and speak no more. Let this eliminate everything. Let this drive us away from this reality. Let me hold you tight and let your heart feel my affection hmmm."

Habang magkayakap silang dalawa narinig nilang may mahinang music na tumutogtog. Sinabayan ito ni Prince ng pagkanta. Hindi man lang ito nahihiyang kumanta habang mahina syang isinasayaw. Nangingiti na lang ang ibang customer na kumakain sa exclusive restaurant na yun.

'I don’t know if we’re the same, but it’s really calming when someone sing a song for you. You will not notice that you’ll be singing or humming the song after that.

Wala ng pakialam pa si Mia basta't kasama nya si Prince buo ng buhay nya, buo ng kaligayahan nya, buo na sya..

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- Prince & Mia ❤ Story -

"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.”

- THE END -

"Sometimes you just have to leave people even when you think that they are special. if they are important and meant to be in your life then they will find their way back to you."

?MahikaNiAyana