Dearest, You Said

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Cody’s P.O.V

“I swear Nova is not good for anything, man. I wish she would finally be tired of me using her as a punching bag and leave me already.”

“Dude, that is kinda messed up. She loves you… How could you do that to her?”

“Look Steven, you just do not understand. I should have never gotten with her to begin with. She is a damn pain in my ass.”

Just even thinking about her makes me want to hit her. I never really loved her or care about her. After getting pregnant with our oldest, I thought I could end up loving her, then we had our other two. That was when I realized I have never and would never love her. I hate having to come home to her every day.

“All I am saying, man, even though you do not see it, or think so, you are very lucky. I mean s**t, she cooks, cleans and takes care of your daughters while you stay out all day and all night. As well as abuse her. I wish I could find someone who truly loved me.”

“Ha, you want her? Take her please, you can have her. Well, I gotta get back to the house now, see ya. Seriously though, if you ever want to take her off my hands, just let me know.”

I get home and I hear her singing the same song she has been singing for a while now, oh what is it called…. Ahh, it, it is right; the song punching bag by some group called Palaye Royale. Sounds so stupid. Let’s see just how much my punching bag can take from me tonight.

“Why are you listening to that song again? I thought I had told you to stop listening to it.”

“Well, umm, well, you weren’t here, and it just makes me feel better.”

“You want to listen to dumb stuff about being a punching bag? I will show you what it truly means to be a punching bag.”

Before she could even get a word out, I slapped her across the face. Then I grabbed the back of her hair and smashed her head against the countertop she was just cleaning previously. There was now blood on the countertop.

“You better clean this up and then get my dinner on the table.”

“Mommy, why are you bleeding? Are you alright?”

“Yes, baby girl, I am just fine. It was just one of mommy’s common nosebleeds that I get. There is nothing to worry about, sweetheart. Now go wash up and go sit at your spot. Dinner will be on the table in just a few minutes.”

“Okay mommy. I love you and I hope your nosebleeds stop for good.” I lean down and kiss her forehead and just reply, “me to baby, me to.”

I can not believe the look she just gave me. We sat down at the table and ate. I really can not stand to put up with this hit anymore.

“Tomorrow you will go get your license, then you do everything else from now on by yourself. I do not want you asking me for a single thing ever again, not even if it is something for the girls.”

“Then if you do, ha well you already know how that will end up going don’t well darling.”

I spit as I called her darling, completely disgusted with her.

I will keep the girls. You no longer live. Here, that is what I want to say, but, sadly, I can not find those words to come out of my mouth at all. It is not like I love her, so I do not understand why I can not.

Whatever, I do not know what to think about this anymore. I shove my plate that is in front of me. “I am tired. I am going to bed. Good night girl’s daddy loves you.” I just look her up and down, then go to our room.