Brutal History, Great Mystery

17. I'm the Princess Alexandra.

Alexa-

Things are still messed up. I'm still here in this era where no one can see me and I wonder what it would have been like to have Brett and Rhett here? Haha... They probably might have done everything in their power to get the attention of any woman here.

I still don't know how I came here, I still don't know how I can go out of here. But Alexandra is... I don't know. And the most messed up part is that as I'm seeing things happening around me. I'm actually remembering every single one of them like I have lived it all myself. I have experienced what Alexandra did and I don't know how!?

After the wedding, as Alexandra along Diego moved into the room, I followed them like the shameless person I am.

"Today is the happiest day of my life! I get to call you my wife!" Diego says lifting Alexandra in his arms.

She giggles in his arms before he settles her down on the bed.

"Everyone seemed so happy. Only one person was missing." Alexandra says.

"I know. He'll be back soon. He can't contain himself that I married without even waiting for him." Diego says.

"I'm sorry for the hurry..." Alexandra starts but Diego stops her mid-sentence.

"It is nothing too much. We'll have a celebration afterward too. He can join that. But even reading his letter, I could tell he is very happy. Almost like he wants to disclose something big with me." Diego says.

"And you have that locket safe with yourself, right?" Alexandra asks.

"Yes, my Queen." He answers making her blush.

Her hands reach his collar and pull out a beautiful circular platinum locket. I move closer to them to see what is inside it as Alexandra opens it when suddenly my body starts trembling. The same thing as before starts happening and I hold my head again. I scream in agony this time because I am aware no one can hear me. 

All of a sudden I start getting these beautiful flashbacks of Alexandra and Diego from them being in the garden, in their bedroom, in the administration area. Everywhere. I see them holding hands, I see them kissing each other. I see their souls connecting and forming a bond unbreakable. And then suddenly the voice...

"You are Alexandra. Alexandra is you."

"You are Alexandra. Alexandra is you."

With each repetition, my head starts bursting. 

The voice continues with the same statement and I know my body is shaking. I fall back on the bed as I hold myself and try to control my cries. My body is burning up again when out of nowhere a cool mint tastes on my lips and my whole body soothes from that. 

My heart rate becomes normal, my temperature becomes normal, so I know I can open my eyes. I make a sound through my mouth which is sealed with another pair of lips. I can tell that by how they are moving against mine. I slowly open my eyes, without moving my lips or my body. I find my best friend, Desmond hovering over me.

I push him away, gasping for breath.

"How aggressive are you!?" I ask him.

"Alexa! You are alright? Are you alright? What the f**k do you even think you were doing here?" He booms pulling me in for a hug.

"No. I'm not fine! I've gone crazy! No! I've not gone crazy! But crazy things are happening to me. I know it was already hard enough to agree with what I told you about that voice. But this is not just a game where I am hearing voices. This is far more serious than we thought. And today what happened is unbelievable! I can't still believe that I went into that era!" I keep ranting.

"Which era? What are you talking about? At least make some sense." Desmond says.

"Des listen. And I swear upon you I'm not gonna lie. Look, I came here when I said I had to go for the exploration. I got here, to this room and you won't believe what happened? When I came here and got into this box. I read this note and something just happened that made me go back in that time!" I say and he gives that boring look.

"You think I'm gonna buy that?" He asks me.

"I'm not lying.." 

"What you say doesn't make any sense." He says lifting me up bridal style from inside the box and lays me down. 

"Look, I don't know what it is, but I always told you that there is something very unusual that attracts me to this castle. And today when I saw everything like I was there itself, I couldn't believe it. And you know, Diego, he married Alexandra and... and the craziest part of it all is that I felt that I have already experienced it all! I... I even remembered everything about Alexandra! I don't know how but I seem to know her childhood, her family, her kingdom, her everything! And then she married Diego! And that voice I told you about, it... it said "You are Alexandra. Alexandra is you." I know it's crazy! Me time-traveling, hearing that I... I'm Alexandra. Our names are similar but that doesn't mean I am her, right? Then... Then why did the voice say it's me? Why did I get to go back in time? Why me? Why am I hearing that voice? What is the purpose of it all?" I rant until I'm sobbing in his chest. This is all just so exhausting. I'm feeling mentally tired. I don't understand anything but I can't run away from it as well.

"Alexa... Shh... You are not Alexandra! You are just imagining things." As soon as he finishes saying the sentence, the glass of the windows all break into tiny pieces making me scream and I clutch on his t-shirt harder. 

I look down where all the glass pieces are put down crying harder when I feel the movement in them. 

"Shh... That is just the cause of wind." He says but I watch the small pieces of glass of the broken window forming some kind of patterns on the floor. They are moving on their own. They are changing their position on the floor. I slowly pull away from Desmond who is muttering sweet nothings in my ear. I slowly make my way towards the pattern formed by the glass pieces. I take slow cautious steps towards the location with my heart beating frantically again. My breaths coming out as pants. 

I reach there and read the formed sentence.

'She is Alexandra!' It says and I stumble back on the ground.

"Alexa!" Desmond soon wraps his arms around me and I cry even harder in his chest.  I knew it! I knew I wasn't hallucinating anything!

"Alexa! Hey! What happened? It's nothing..." He tries to soothe me by giving false remarks every time but I push him away.

"DON'T GIVE ME FALSE STATEMENTS! IT IS NOT GOING TO BE OKAY! CRAZY s**t HAS BEEN HAPPENING WITH ME SINCE I HAVE COME HERE! FIRST THE BIRDS CRASHING DOWN, THEN THE VOICE, THE WARNINGS, THIS ROOM, AND THEN THE NOTE WHICH SENT ME TO THAT TIME AND MADE ME SEE THINGS! MY OWN PAST LIFE! MY OWN VERY LIFE YEARS AGO AS ALEXANDRA! PRINCESS ALEXANDRA! I WAS SO CLOSE TO KNOW ABOUT THE LOCKET THAT DIEGO HAD, BUT THEN, YOU... YOU WOKE ME UP! I COULD HAVE KNOWN THE PURPOSE OF ALL THIS BUT YOU WOKE ME! AND NOW YOU SAY IT IS ALL FALSE! WELL, LOOK WHAT THOSE BROKEN PIECES OF GLASS SAY!" I finish yelling at him while he silently hears me out. Following my instructions, he looks behind himself and reads the very sentence that sent a chill down my spine.

I am Alexandra, Princess Alexandra who married Diego. Is that why Diego from the very start wanted to spend more time with me? Because he knows who I am? Is that why he has appeared all of the sudden here with the excuse to get the castle all cleaned? Like, who would after so many years come here with a reason to clean their ancestors' castle? He said he was a big businessman. Then why is he here for past so many days? Doesn't he have his business to take care of?

But how come he is the same as that time? Why didn't he age? And how did he even recognize me? I don't look like my past self at all. Then how? 

So many questions but no answers at all!

I need the answers! I need to know the purpose behind all this! Now I know why was I attracted to this place from the start. Because I belonged here. Now I understand why I felt like I knew every corner of this castle. Because I belonged here. Now I know why I was so keen to explore it. Because this was once my home. 

And this room, it is mine. It is mine and Diego's. Is that why it is unlocked? Does he come here often? Does he come here to remember our past days? Does it hurt seeing me not recognizing him? Or is he like me too? 

I need to find the answers. And I'll do it right away. 

I lift my head and look at Desmond who is looking at me intently. 

"You believe me now?" I ask him.

"You said Diego married Alexandra." He says, more like of asks.

"Yes. And that is me. So basically we were married together in my past life and... he is here now, probably waiting for me to remember everything. Just think about this, the day we came, he came after that. And he has always tried to be close to me. You admitted it yourself that he seems to be more interested in me. Because he knows who I am. He knows me. And he wants me."