I stepped out of the hotel and I died many deaths, everytime I looked at a person ,I felt like they knew what had happened. The hotel was only two kilometres from home. So most of the people I saw I knew them. Ofcourse they were aware that am the bride getting married in two weeks.
I started having crazy thoughts. what if the wedding is cancelled completely,as in there is no Josh and me? what will happen? will my parents believe in me?
" Has mother called you much ?, I could not pick calls," I asked Tamiya who was walking with me. we didn't have money to take a cab or call a Uber.
I lived in this town nestled among rolling hills. I was vibrant and full of life, and my infectious laughter echoed through the streets like music. My days were filled with dreams of love and adventure, and I often found myself lost in the pages of my favorite novels, where heroes and heroines danced through enchanting landscapes.Now my live was coming up like the ones I read in novels.
When we got home , I was met with an unexpected sight. My mother was pacing back and forth in the living room, my brow furrowed and my lips pressed into a thin line. Sensing the tension in the air, my heart quickened as I approached the source of the commotion.
"My dear mother, what has happened? Why are you upset?" I asked, concerned about the tingling in my voice as I gently touched my mother's arm.
"Oh, Sarah, it's Tamiya," My mother began, her voice trembling with frustration. "She mentioned something about Josh postponing the wedding. I can't fathom why he would do such a thing. Do you know anything about this?"
The mention of Josh's name made My heart flutter and my cheeks flush with warmth. Josh was my fiancee friend, and over the years of love , our bond had blossomed into something deeper. We had shared secrets, dreams, and laughter, and I often found myself lost in the depths of his soulful gaze. We had planned to marry, and the mere thought of him sent a rush of joy and anticipation through my veins.But then ,why would Tamiya tell my mother about the wedding. We only postponed it.
Tamiya, seemed to sense my discomfort and edged closer, her gaze a curious blend of concern and apprehension. She had always been impulsive and full of mischief, with an infectious energy that matched my own.But there was a reason to start doubting her.
"Mother it's true we might not be having a wedding just yet," Tamiya said, her voice trailing off as she glanced at me with a mixture of guilt and trepidation.
Our mother's eyes widened in disbelief. "Why would he do that? Does he have money issues?" she asked, her tone tinged with worry.
My mind raced with questions, and Mother clutched Tamiya's hand, her eyes searching for answers. "Tamiya, what's going on? Why would Josh postpone the wedding?" she whispered, her thoughts in anguish.
"Sarah, I... I can't talk about it," Tamiya stammered, her gaze flitting from me to our mother. "I'm sorry, I really am."
The tension in the room thickened, and I felt a knot of unease settle in the pit of my stomach. It was as if the very fabric of my future dreams was unravelling before my eyes, and I struggled to make sense of the turmoil that had descended upon my once peaceful home.
"Aha, my daughter Sarah , what is it? Why have you been crying? Mother demanded, her gaze hard and filled with a mix of concern and frustration," Your vibrant face is full of tear streaks.
"I messed up," I confessed, tears streaming down her cheeks. "I'm yet to understand how, but I did."
Her mother's expression softened, and she enveloped Sarah in a warm embrace. "Oh, my dear girl, tell me what's troubling you. We can work through this together."
As I tried to form the words to explain, a wave of helplessness washed over me. I felt as though the precious moments were slipping through my fingers, and I stumbled over my own thoughts and emotions, unable to find the right words to ease the ache in my heart.
"Sarah, that man is rich. He was to build us a better house," Mother said, her voice filled with a blend of anger and disappointment.She was not interested on what happened,she was thinking about a house.
"If only you could understand, I would tell you. But you are going to scold me," I cried, my voice quivering with raw emotion.
"I knew you were not opportunistic. You had to mess things up,There is no one day you will make us proud ,not in school and now in relationships," Mother blurted out, She was angry with me.God is this how all mother's behave.
"True, I messed up big time. It was not my fault. I do not know who he is," I replied, my voice cracking with the weight of my sorrow.Whats the need of hiding it and soon or later my actions of darkness will come to light. With a heavy heart, I fled to the sanctuary of my room, my mind awash with tumultuous thoughts and unanswered questions.
When I reached my room, I collapsed onto my bed, the sobs wracking my body. I felt as though the world had caved in on me, and I was lost in a sea of despair. My dreams of a joyful future with Josh had shattered, leaving me adrift in a tempest of confusion and heartache.I really wanted to escape this household I called home.
I sought for solace in the darkness of my room, Tamiya slipped through the door, her eyes filled with remorse. My heart ached at the sight of my sister, knowing that Tamiya had unwittingly played a part in unraveling the delicate threads of her happiness.
"Why did you have to mention anything about Josh postponing the wedding?" I asked, my voice tinged with sorrow and frustration. "Was this the moment to broadcast it to the whole household?"
Tamiya hung her head, her shoulders slumped with the weight of guilt. "I didn't mean to cause trouble, Sarah. I didn't realize it would cause such an uproar," she murmured, her voice heavy with regret.
" Are you saying you do not understand what will happen if this wedding stops have you heard what my mother has said that Josh was to build them a house imagine if this wedding stops and Josh won't fulfill his promises, Do you think it will be safe for me to stay in this house anymore?" I asked her,my eyes blaring.
" I know your mother is fierce but these are things that we share with our mothers", Tamiya says shrugging her shoulders.
" Why do I feel like you are happy about this ,but I will not blame you ,I have sacrificed a lot for you, to make you comfortable and make my father happy, and any chance you get you are rutting on me , first it was Josh now it's Mother," I spoke my mind the earlier the better.
" Now you are blaming me for your actions, why would you do such a thing , am only trying to be supportive because you are my sister and I love you,stop overthinking," Tamiya said ,curling up her lips like they were being punished for speaking out
" Those words are giving me goosebumps .I can also not endure being called the lady that was left by a man days before her wedding ," I said ,deep down , my heart was constricting into painful knots.
I understand your fear!" .
I found myself caught in a whirlwind of emotions. " This is a betrayal and I do not know ,who in my few friends circle is so bitter with me!" I whispered
" What are you talking about? Nobody hates you, we got drunk and you made bad choices, how can that be called betrayal!" Tamiya interfered.
" Just leave ,go Tamiya, just let me be for now," I said.
As I sat in the quiet solitude of my room, I found myself drawn to the old chest that held the remnants of my cherished memories. Amid the trinkets and keepsakes, I unearthed an old journal, its weathered pages filled with my musings and longings from years past. With trembling hands, I traced the faded ink of my own words, lost in the bittersweet nostalgia that enveloped me.Tamiya had already left the room .
The wounds in my heart were too raw to heal.The whole day I kept checking on the phone hoping to get another message either from Josh or my secret admirer . As the sun dipped below the horizon that evening, a gentle knock on my door drew my attention.It was Josh.
"Sarah I believe you are not that kind of a girl , I know you do not drink much too to get yourself so drunk that you cannot remember what happened so I want you to tell me and please I only want to hear the truth!" Josh said in a very cool and humble manner.
" Why? you called off the wedding, " I said ,as he sat on the couch.
" So we can find ourselves and make a better decision, the wedding will still happen!" Josh replied.
" Okay , am also trying to understand what happened because all I can remember I was in the dancing Hall and then I approached the table where my friends were seated, From there I remember Waking up and seeing Tamiya and You standing at the door entrance of that hotel," I explained to the best of my knowledge.
" That is not what I want to hear!did you meet that guy deliberately? what was the meaning of that? what were you trying to prove? all of the ladies present in that hotel ,how come it's only you who got stuck and went with a stranger into a room and now you cannot tell what happened?" Josh roared,he was not buying anything I said.
" Whatever I am telling you at the moment is what I know, I do not understand whether I was drugged or not , I cannot remember going to that room to meet anyone , I cannot remember beyond what I have told you?" I said ,I had no other story to narrate,that is where my mind was stuck.
" Where is your sister?" Josh asked.
" Why,?".
" I am yet to hear about her end of story when I called you last night and this morning and you could not pick, I called Tamiya that's when she told me that she is still in the hotel and that she had not slept the whole night searching for you, that's how I found myself there that morning!" Josh explained.
" Who called the other first is it her or you, and I found a lot of missed calls on my phone and I was so surprised that my phone was in silent mode, I do not put my phone in such mode!" I replied ,wondering where this was going.
"Maybe that man sleeping next to you put it on flight mode, now tell me did you choose him because he's handsome do you think just because I am darker I am not handsome?" Josh asked arching his brows.
" you know I respect you and I thought you were probably going to listen to me and understand me but I can see now you want to become Petty. We should probably post phone this meeting to another day I want to sleep!" I said ,I could see his anger resurfacing and I cannot deal with an angry Josh.