RUBY
"Could this be the end for me...?" I mumbled to myself.
Is this what people believe about what happens after death...?
I had no doubt that it was over. I am nothing more than a soul. It is painful to acknowledge that this is the end of my life. It's too bad that I could never give my mother and brothers proper farewells.
I wish I had more things going on in my life.
I still want to become a famous painter.
Even now, I can't help but wonder how the Glowing River pack will come together.
I'm still holding out hope that Gareth will develop his character.
In my life, I still have a lot of things I need to accomplish. However, I am unable to do so because I have passed away recently.
Both Mariah and Stacey Anderson are responsible for my death.
It is my sincere hope that one day my family will discover that the women in question were responsible for my death. And I really hope that they will have to deal with the repercussions of what they did to me. I demand justice.
I am not perfect, nor am I clean. I do sin, but I'm not a devil.
It is my hope that Gareth is aware that his ex-girlfriend and her mother were responsible for my death.
But I'm not entirely convinced. Even if he found out about it in the future, he wouldn't do anything.
Gareth had a lot of love for his mother. He is devoted to his mother despite the fact that he is the Alpha King of the Glowing River pack. He's mama's boy.
Then there's Stacey... Even if Gareth were aware that Stacey was the one who killed me, he would not hold it against her. I know my husband Gareth is head over heels in love with her.
My life has been filled with so much sadness. This was not the future I had pictured for myself at all.
I just wanted to get married to the man who loved me back and whom I loved deeply. My ideal family is a simple but full of joy home.
But unfortunately, my romantic life was a mess, and I ended up with the wrong guy. Even if I repent, it still doesn't make sense.
I'm already dead.
It appears as though my body is floating in the air. All I can see is pitch blackness.
"I'm not a terrible person, but why does it look like hell is going to be my final destination?" I gave a sarcastic chuckle.
My eyes can see nothing but pitch black.
I made sure to shut both of my eyes tight.
"Mama... big brother Edward... Paul... I love you so much. I am truly sorry to say that this is the end of me. I'm sorry if I'm too weak... Ana, you are undoubtedly the most amazing person I've ever met... I hope that life treats you well..." The tears began to well up in my eyes.
It's hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I'm no longer alive.
Because I've never experienced genuine joy in my life, coming to terms with this reality is a challenge for me. Because of the abuse I received from both my husband and the rest of the pack, I endured a great deal of pain.
I can accept that I am no longer alive. I am not immortal to avoid death. But I don't want to die in this manner.
I didn't even try to save my life. I couldn't even defend myself against judgment. I didn't reach my dreams and ambitions in life.
And I don't want to die this way.
I want to die happy. Before I die, I want to see my family. Before I die, I want to be a painter. And I want to be with the man I love and who loves me until the end of my life.
But I suppose I'm a very unlucky person.
I was in this situation when I heard a voice.
"You're not unfortunate, Ruby,"
That voice is stunning. It sounds like the voice of a beautiful woman.
I blinked my eyes open. The light that greeted me surprised me.
"Wait, where am I?" I questioned myself.
"Obviously, you've arrived at the gates of paradise,"
Confirmed. I'm already dead.
I inhaled deeply. I became aware of my surroundings. If there was darkness earlier, there is now light, and I appear to be in paradise.
Is this what they mean by "heaven"?
"What is your name?"
"I can see you. But you are not permitted to see me,"
"Huh, why?' I'm dead. It makes no sense to hide yourself from me."
“Maybe. However, I need to confirm something,"
I'm pretty sure she's a Goddess.
Wait. I realized before I died that I was not a pure-blooded human. I discovered I was a werewolf. I'm not sure how that happened either.
Because I was no longer alive, I couldn't answer the questions in my head.
If I think it's a Goddess, is it the Moon Goddess, as Gareth said?
"You're correct, Ruby. I'm glad you acknowledge me as your Moon Goddess. You are my child. And before I spoke to you, I reviewed everything that had happened in your life." Oh, so she's the Moon Goddess. Her voice appears to be in her twenties. But I know she's divine, and she has no age.
I chuckled bitterly. "It's quite painful, isn't it?"
"You are my beloved child with a pure heart. I'm sorry for all of your life's difficulties,"
I inhaled deeply. “Thanks. But I'm not here to recall my traumatic past. I'm here because I'm going to rest for good, right?"
"You are correct. Your spirit is with me. And your body is already dead."
What a heartbreaking truth.
"Can you point me in the right direction? I just... want to rest," I said exhaustedly.
We are surrounded by silence.
"Are you still there?" I asked.
"Do you truly want to rest forever, my beloved child?"
I attempted to laugh. "Of course not. My childhood and life have not been happy. It's a shame I don't feel satisfied with the way I died," I admitted.
"I think you have a golden heart, Ruby. And I apologize on behalf of others. They have absolutely no idea what they're doing. I am confident that you will bring peace to the Alexandria Woods. To your pack, the Glowing River pack,"
"But here I am... dead. A soul."
"I'm not yet approving to let you in," the Moon Goddess said.
I exclaimed. "Wait, what do you mean? Am I not welcome here? Are you planning to send me to hell? No way, no, please. My life is already a living hell. I don't want to be in hell forever,"
"You're mistaken, Ruby. You haven't arrived at your final destination in the other realm yet. I'll decide where you go."
"Ah..." Is all I can say.
"What are the things you wish you had done in your life?" The Moon Goddess asked.
"I have a lot of regrets. And one of them is that I'm not a strong woman. I allowed others to take me for granted. I allowed others to abuse me. I never attempted to pull myself out of my misery. I'm always afraid and a coward. I regret not making my family proud of me. It's too bad I can't even say my goodbye to them."
"I sense your sincerity, Ruby. I also hate how you died. You didn't deserve it. Nobody deserves to die in such away. Because I believe you have the ability to change the future and a golden heart... I grant you the opportunity to be reborn."
I burst out laughing. I can't believe what I've just heard.
Silence.
“W-What? Are you serious, Moon Goddess?"
"I'm not making this up, Ruby. I've never done anything like this before. Some people are pure evil, while others accept their fate and live a happy life. But after reviewing your story, I believe you're the only one who can change the Glowing River Pack. And I put my trust in you for the future... "
I'm nervous, but the prospect of being reborn excites me.
"I will give you the opportunity to be reborn and have a second life. But keep in mind that there will be no more chances. You must complete the necessary tasks. This time, you must make things right. And you're not allowed to tell anyone that we had a heart-to-heart. You'll be dead in no time if you break this. You can't tell anyone that you died..."
"Wait, what do you mean...? How could I possibly hide that? They must have known I was already dead!"
"Don't be concerned, my beloved child. You will be reborn at some point after your death. You still have time to change everything—the way you want. And I'm hoping for the best this time. You are more smarter. Learn from your errors."
I could feel the dryness in my throat. "W-What are you doing?"
"Let's say you deserve a second chance. A better way of life,"
I could feel tears on my cheek. I can't believe it's happening right now.
The Moon Goddess bestowed upon me another life!
"Remember what I said, Ruby. You can't tell anyone you died... I hope you can get everything right this time..."
I felt like there's a warm hand had touched my soul. "Thank you so much, Moon Goddess..."
"Save your gratitude for the next time we meet. But for the time being, this is not your destination."
I gathered air in my lungs. I will not squander the opportunity that the Moon Goddess has given me.
“Yes. Until our next meeting... the Moon Goddess,"
Peculiar energy encircled my body. Earlier, I couldn't see my body. I'm invisible. But right now, I've had the sensation that I'm having back in my body. I had no doubt that I would be reborn.
It's hard to say how I'll feel about it. Happy, terrified, and nervous all at the same time. A range of emotions.
"Give it everything you've got, Ruby,"
"I'll tell you everything in our next meeting..."
I am compelled to pay attention to the energy that is all around my body.
I made sure to shut both of my eyes tight. I felt as though I were flying through the air. I could sense it.
Several seconds later, I felt myself falling to the ground.
I blinked my eyes and inhaled deeply before opening them.
My pupils widened in surprise as I became aware that I was currently slumbering in the bedroom on the bed.
I stood up and looked in the mirror before continuing.
I stroked my cheek. I was aware that I had been reborn. I was curious about the day, so I looked at the calendar on my phone. I knew the Moon Goddess had revived me because the date had returned a few months before my death.
I inhaled deeply before taking a good long look at myself in the mirror. Undoubtedly, this is me. I couldn't believe that the Moon Goddess blessed me with another life. And I will never going to waste this chance.
"I'm back. And each of you should prepare from my wrath," I vowed to myself this time.
Ruby Anderson is back.
[TO BE CONTINUE...]