Chapter 42

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Lance Martinez Povs I was raised by my parents as being a competitive person,since I was a kid.My father was really that eager to made me on top all the time. "Dapat palagi kang nasa una,not in second place but on the top! Always remember that!" Isang kataga ni daddy na hinding hindi ko makalimutan. He simply said that when you're on top,titingalain ka daw ng lahat,everyone admires you,idolized you and it is easy to gain respect from other people when you are at your best.And that's the worst reality things that I've been witnessed in this word. Kaya yun palagi kong tinatanim sa utak ko.I grew up with a very well desciplined life, especially sa daddy ko.Siya Ang mentor ko sa buhay,And i used to idolize him, for being his best. Then years passed by...I found out the real person behind my dad's identity.Hindi ko inaakala na sa kabila nang sobrang istricto niya sa akin,sa pagiging perfectionist nito ay Isa pala siyang pinuno nang mga illegal na gawain. At first..I was so very disappointed in him,halos nawala ang paghanga ko sa kanya seeing him killing people and doing those illegal sh*ts! Hindi ko lang matanggap na anak pala ako nang mamatay tao! But things changed,everything was changed unexpectedly!Maybe totoo nga talaga ang kasabihan na kung anu ang puno ay siyang bunga. Dad trained me,he teached me everything his knowledge about his dirty kind of businesses. At first I don't want to do it,but he did convinced me! He did everything just to made me foolow his leads at hanggang sa natuto ako. Ang pinagkaiba nga lang namin,I don't killed innosent people.I killed those people who interfering my life and touches my property! Unlike my dad my puso pa din naman ako.In fact kaya ko din naman magpahalaga ng tao basta nasunod lang iyon sa gusto ko. You see me as suplado and an arrogant person.But I have still my own rules that people can see me as evil as my father but I'm not that kind! I am just finding someone who can accept me for being who I am. And its true,when you finally found the one parang nagbabago ang lahat,unti unting lumalambot ang pagiging matigas nang puso ko. And that's because I started to like someone, that dad never agreed on it.He didn't want me to be with someone! But ofcourse as what I've said I have my own rules,kaya I never listened to him.I courted that woman who own my heart for how many times.but she refused my offer everytime I tried to reach her. I really love Bella,unang kita ko palang sa kanya,ibang iba na ang dating nito sa akin.She really captivated my heart.And from that day onward,i promise to myseIf that to make her mine at all risk! And being a ruthless man.I think I could considered myself to change things I used to be.Kung papayag si Bella na magiging asawa ko,kaya kong talikuran lahat! Everything! Even dad,kahit.. dumating pa ang panahong I'm going to fight him just to have what I want. But unfortunately kahit gaanu ko ka makapnagyarihan, we can't really control everything! Every woman dreaming to have me to with them,But damn! Bella is different!Shebwa sjust rejected me for several times! And I hate being neglected! because nobody did it to me! It's just her! I already show her the best side of me.But Damn!! it's no use!It's not working!And ofcourse I want to know her more kaya I already did some investigation about her at kung san siya nanggaling,and what I found out was so very surprising! She was married to John David Alonzo. Sa g*gung David na yun!So it made sense kung bakit nagpunta si David sa lugar nato.And the way he stared at her,it soaks down to her soul. Mas lalo pang nadagdagan ang galit na naramdaman ko sa mga bagay na nalalaman ko ngayon,na mas lalong nagpapalabas nang pagiging demonyo ko! Agad kong kinulumos ang papel na hawak ko ngayon.No freaking way!!!HINDI PWEDE to! Bella is mine!at kahit kanino pa siyang poncio pilatong Asawa! I don't give a damn!!I will not let them be! And I wont give the happily ever after life that they wanted to be! Hindi ako papayag na magkasama silang muli at kung aayaw talaga sa akin ni Bella ay pagbibigyan ko siya ng magandang options. Bigyan ko siya nang magandang pagpipilian,I had so much sacrifices from her at hindi ako papayag na mauuwe lang sa wala ang lahat nang yun!hell no! Agad akong kumalma nang makalabas ako sa mansyon.. And speaking of my Angel ay natatanaw ko ito habang abalang abala itong nag aayos nang mga halaman sa garden namin. No ever doubt it,she is really beautiful kaya hindi ako papayag na mapunta lang siya sa Iba,handa akong pumatay para dun! Agad ko itong nilapitan and I clearing my throat just to get her attention. " Ehemm...Alam mo,nagsiselos na ako sa mga halaman na yan,mas naalagaan mupa sila kaysa sa akin!" ang pagbibiro kong sambit sa kanya. She never cared to take a glance on me,instead sumagot lang ito nang walang kabuhay buhay. " Anung kailangan mo?" she asked at patuloy lang ito sa ginagawa niyang pagsalin nang mga halaman sa paso. Honestly,only this woman can calm myself down sa kanya lang ako nakaramdam na may natitira pa palang kabaitan sa sarili ko. At siya lang ang bukod tanging,nagbibigay ngite sa akin,corny but it's true. " Ikaw naman, kailangan agad?hindi ba pwedeng gusto lang kitang makausap." I said dahil sa totoo lang seeing her really made me feel better. " Alam mo Lance...I already told you.,Wala akong panahon sa mga nais mo.Im sorry pero madami pa akong gustong gawin- " bigla akong nainis sa sagot niya,that's why I cut her words. " Then I will help you get what do you want to fulfill!I can do whatever you want Bella.I can support you all the way,I can help you if you just let me!If you need to go to school again,then be it,I can do everything for you...But why you don't seem to care about it? bakit hindi mo ako kayang mahalin? Bakit hindi mo nakikita ang pagmamahal ko sayo?! Ang lahat nang efforts ko?This is so freaking crap but I'm f*cking serious about you!" I said at may halong lungkot iyon,dahil sa totoo lang siya lang naman ang bukod tanging nakakapagpatiklop sa akin. " I'm sorry Lance...but it's still a no!Ibaling mo nalang sa Iba yang naramdaman mo..dahil hindi ko masusuklian iyan and I don't want to used you either.....I'm so sorry." She gave me her apologies na halos nagpagising nang evil sides ko! " That's bullshit Bella!" I yelled,hindi kuna napigilan ang galit nang emosyong namumuo sa puso ko.She always neglected me.She never cared about my feelings!She never seen my efforts! And damnit napakalaking insulto yun sa akin! I am Lance Gabriel Martinez,and no one neglected me ever!No one did!it's just her!And it was so frustrating! Agad namang rumehistro sa mukha niya ang takot at gulat sa nakikita niyang reaksyon ko ng mga sandaling iyon. This is my first time,that I let her seen my evil side .And honestly,wala pa ito sa 1/4 nang kademonyohan ko. " Ive been waiting for so long para mapasa akin ka.I did my best to court you,to show you my very best of me,but how come you wouldn't see it!?You didn't know how to appreciate everything!I don't understand! Anu pabang kulang?What the hell is wrong with you?? bakit hindi mo ako kayang mahalin??why?F*cking tell me!!" I yelled again as I hold her in her arms. " L-lance...I'm so sorry...ka- kaya nga naging honest na ako sayo,kahit noon pa man I've been honest to you,because I don't want to be unfair to you,Because your too kind para paasahin.At hindi ko kayang gawin sayo ang gamitin ka!" nauutal niyang wika at halos mangiyak ngiyak na ito sa takot. I am damn mad!but seeing her now so scared ay lumalambot na naman agad ang puso ko!But not this time!Like what I said! if I need to be an evil just to do things perfectly..I will not hesitate to do it so! " Then!! you want me to say thanks to you,for being honest to me huh?you don't know how much you hurt me!You didn't know how I feel! And f*CK!!I hate being like this!! because this is not freaking me!I hate pain Bella,I really f*cking do!At alam mo kung bakit?Because it made me brings my darkest side!" I said to her,while holding her tight in her arms. " L-lance...nasasaktan ako...please!" she begged him. " Masakit ba? huh? then f*cking wala pa yan sa kalahati nang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon! you hurt me as hell Bella and I'll make you pay for this pain!" I said at idiniin ko iyon sa pagmumukha niya. Damn!! I hate doing this!I don't want to do this!! but I had enough!! At hindi ako papayag na matatalo lang ako,just because I am giving up .I will never give up without a damn fight ! " Lance...please bitiwan mo ako,hindi mo kailangan gawin ito! Please nakikiusap ako sayo.." Ang pakiusap ni Bella sa akin. " Well..you made me this Bella ..I did my best to made you impressed, but it's no use! You didn't even appreciated my efforts! Well maybe makikita mo siguro lahat nang efforts ko when I do it in a brutal way,Is that what you want me to do,huh? Then, be ready for it!" i said at base sa expression nang mukha nito..she really scared of me... Because from this f*cking moment I show her who I really am!At wala pa akong ginusto na hindi ko nakuha.Dad taught me how to be on top how to always win! And I will win her!I'll take risk!whatever it is! And if I need to kill,I will do it!
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