Rejected but still desired

Luna Anna's visit

Selena POV:

My clothes were soiled with blood, sweat, grime and dirt and also my own waste. The pain and torture I had to endure did not allow me the luxury of getting up to use a different corner of this horrifying place and nor did I want to. Things had changed, a part of me hoped that Ethan was going to storm in and save me and another part of me knew that the part that hoped was dreaming and was not being realistic. In the eighteen years that I have been here in this pack, there has always been a clear division and being Ethan's mate was not going to change that. It goes back to everything I had mentioned in the beginning. Lower ranking wolves and wolfless things like me, we don't get happy ever afters here, we live out our lives the same way we start it and the same way it always ends, in servitude. Is that really the life I wanted?

No.

I heard hard foot steps, a lot of them approaching the dungeons and very quickly. This was it. They were going to kill me. The same way they killed my family. My heart had begun to quicken but I straightened my back. I was not going to allow this to be the way it ended. If this was where I die then I would rather I died with dignity rather than begging for mercy where I know I won't get it.

The foot steps were already on me. I let out a deep breath, bracing myself for the inevitable. I heard a sharp breath and then Luna Anna covered her nose and mouth, "Oh Goddess!" She exclaimed, "she reeks!" A tad bit unnecessary if you ask me, "Get her up and cleaned!" She barked orders at the guards that accompanied her, they all scrambled to open the doors and get me up. I heard the two that stepped inside my cell inhale sharply at my smell but I wasn't going to show them any weakness. It felt good to punish them in some way atleast!

They were not gentle with ripping out the silver spikes and unfortunately I cried out in pain as my blood spluttered out of the deep holes in my wrist. "So you're awake." It was Luna Anna, I looked up at her with her arms crossed and folded against her chest, her chin held high. "It would seem that way." I stared at her defiantly, she would never own me. Never Ever.

"Clearly your punishment was not enough," she said looking at me with disgust, "what do you want?" I asked and her eyes flickered with a strange emotion, "I've come to make a deal with you." She seemed apprehensive, "what for?" I asked, curious to know where her mind currently was. "It's Ethan, he is... not well." It was the way she said the last part that had my heart racing, "what do you mean?" I asked, my brain racing will a million thoughts and flooding with a million images. Ethan on the floor after Raze tossed him and then that conversation with August Raze...

Oh Goddess! Raze wants to kill him!

"Where is he?" I choked out, "none of your concern." Her eyes narrowed and that brief emotion that was once in her eyes were now gone. "I just need you to heal him." Her words caught me off guard. Me? Heal him? How??

"I don't understand-" "You don't have to. Just do what you're told!" She snapped. She looked to the guards and nodded as they pulled me up roughly, she stepped aside, covering her face again as they dragged me away. Raze, August, Anna... Ethan...

They were bombarding me with information that I didn't know how to use. My feet was being dragged against the cold grimy dungeon floors because I couldn't move them well enough. The blood had started returning to them and they were extremely painful. The heavy dungeon door swung open and I was hit full on with the bright sun light. Everyone around had stopped to stare at me as I blinked and tried to recover from the blinding light.

When my eyes finally adjusted, the first person I saw was Alice. Staring at me with disgust and hatred. One thing I didn't understand was why it was so easy to hate. The guards seemed to remember that their purpose wasn't to display me but to get me cleaned up and pulled me roughly towards the servants quarters.

Many of the omegas cowered away and looked fearful. I wondered what I looked like to them. When Ro's eyes landed on me something seemed to shift and she instantly reached out for me. "I'll take her." The guards let me fall into her arms and without even a second look, they turned and left. It was a lot to process.

Ro held me for awhile and it was strange because I was crying again. The omegas in the quarters all stood quietly watching. They had no words of hate left. It was a reminder to them of the reality of all our lives because the Moon Goddess may have chosen a higher ranking wolf as our mate. There was nothing to gossip about or joke about. This was our reality.