MAFIA'S

LOOK AT ME

***TATIA'S P.O.V***

night I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, ‘The night is shattered

and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms

I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.

How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Anothers. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before.

Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms

my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

look that me and then cases my checks and then told me that he will start I am not the old Arya but he was that the old are they came back because the old are you has love and she knows how to make everyone love and nose how to make everyone feel she was the best thing that could have even to everyone he is happy that I am getting married to and you better the same time he is not happy that I am doing this out of Avenger because this is not correct for events I should not be doing something like this then I held Asind told him that I don't have any in the option because I would have any other option then I would have choose and it but I actually don't have any drop and that is that I don't have any option how I supposed to have any option when they are the one who did it all

I don't know what the hell is it but the truth is that I can feel it

Every single time I can feel I just could not believe or asked for anything else, "Go at right now." I am use to this pain or that pain

after all this pain make me have the pleasure too

I that I didn't want did anyone to spoil the relationship that I had the mad life in which I was I didn't want anything want to spoil and that was it I wanted it to be the best my life I am having and that is it I can have that I can have the love I can have the desired to have that now I was happy with all around the world with all around the happen is that I was getting because this is what I have decide because this is what I have wanted I have just wanted just I wanted to be with him I wanted to be in his all and I wanted to spend my rest of my life like this only this is it I will never demand anything more than this or less than this that is this is the thing that I will I will demand or asked for

. I was writing at all in my diary because I know that this is a one my life is not going to be the day I does sighted that I want to be with Archana I want to marry him this is going to be the end of my life and end of my happiness and this is only thing that I know that I will be able to do and I will make sure that I will not screw and another I just want to make sure that this is how it is going to be I know one thing very close it is not going to be easy but that is the only way through which I am going to make it work out I know everything was taking the list of his life and how it was so hard for him to survive but instered that you so it all but you choose that you want to keep quiet and I am not going to make it all complicated for both of us I am going to make sure that he will also know about it how it will it to be in a releases and still get the book it by it with the one you love the most and I know one thing very well that if my father would have been alert actually been very very insult and very very sad I am somehow happy that he is gone now and the only reason that happened was the space I am not going to spare him but I am the chance and that is just only thing that I know

" what you are doing I hope that I don't disturb you actually I was just thinking that when you are planning to tell to mom because I have just actually worried about it so if you are ready to tell her immediately then I am also okay with it and then I will also forget out something so that we can make things good for you and so that we can make something so that she will just understand because your brother is not home so it will be very very easy for both of us to do that otherwise when he will come back it will be it up to do that as you know that how is he is not going to like any of this tablet you are going to tell her and he is not going to like that thing that you are going to tell and that is actually going to be a very hard for everything of us but I am with you and I am going to I am giving you the Swati that you both are going to be taken okay so just don't worry about anything because I know one thing that you are actually going to be able to handle it by on your owner is I know that you are just an adult and you going to make sure that I have and good will happen but at the same time and your sister in law and I just got a little bit of life experience so I just wanted you don't screw it up so I just wanted thanks all this happen like that."

I just say that all my sister-in-law see that all to me and I know that she is that I just my daddy and then hide and inside my pillow and then I know that what am I doing I am just going to do this I love dumb my father's frame with of before coming out of my room because I know that I am not doing anything wrong if I will able to meet take revenge for whatever every think single person I done then the only thing that I know is that I will be able to do everything and that is it I just no one thing very clearly that this is what I want to do and that is how I want to do and this is it the only thing that I know I want is just only that I don't want to screw any of the stuff and that is I just don't want to make anything bad and that is it I have no everything will think and everything that they is no another way how things are going to happen or things are going to be the only thing that I know how things are going to be your hot things are going to happen if just that only that I have to convince everyone that I love him and that is it is going to be the but I will be able to do it because this is what I am going to I am going to make sure that I will get every single thing and I will do and I will get the wisdom to do what I want to do and no one is going to be stop me for whatever I am doing

" Nair here to talk to you about something and I just forget you understand mom because you both just need your help mom it is about that is life and I know that whatever you might be thinking that I have got an insane or if I am supporting her that I have wrong mom but at the same time I just think about one thing that it is her life and if she wants it like this and she and her lab p***s lies in this them of then we should just do this and I know that you are going to be very very angry for me and not just you do is also going to be very angry from me but I know that you are going to understand it because that is your daughter whatever it is but there is still his brother and it will take time for him to understand that sometimes it is not it is OK to be do what you want to do for the happiness of your own and that is atmos and that is only reason why we both are standing here."

look that are the confusion in the Rise and I know that whatever she is thinking is that whatever I feel going to do but I know one thing very clear task when I she will hear it she is not going to like it because this is the only thing that everyone and meet here that we both are not going to be together and I want to see don't want to be with him but don't let them that I want is that I want to make things was for their family and that is only reason why I want to go there and that is the only then that I want to do and for that my mom has to be with me and that is it this is the only thing that I want and I will make it happen I have to just convince your mom will just think about it that I love him and that is only thing that she just she should just think

" what is it I will just tell it by yourself I know that you have brought your sister in law here so that she can support you but I want to know that truth from your mouth that what is it and out what you want to tell me because I know one thing play very clear this definitely something that you are going to tell that I am not going to like so just say it from your own mouth and stop using summer for everything what that you want because I know one thing that this is how use to do or you when you were smoke you use to use archive for what you want and all you are using summer which is not correct some at my dear just the only thing I want to tell you that don't tell matter if it is whatever it will be if I will feel that it is good then I am definitely going to support it in whatever the thing it is going to be."

" no I want to marry I just love and but I want to spend the rest of everything I hope that you understand that what I am saying and I am saying oh my have beat it for so long and I actually told you to talk but don't you think and only confusion to which I came is that I want to be with her I want this painted my life with them and that is the only thing that I know I am get you understand that is not in that I am like I am saying lying about it mom and this is the only thing that I want to tell you and I hope that you understand that I want to be with him and you understand that love always friends mom and that is the only thing I want to tell you."

TO BE CONTINUED....