Dirty Confessions

Episode 4: Seduced

I leaned in but before our lips could be touched, he stopped me. I glance at him confused and all I can see is regret and pain in his eyes. He quickly grabbed his towel at binalot ito sa katawan niya at kinuha niya ng robe ko and he covered my body with it. I felt rejected but also guilty. I can tell that he is attracted to me because his body says otherwise, I also felt guilty because he is trying hard not to get tempted but here I am.

He glanced at me still processing what just happened at hindi ko talaga siya masisisi.

"Did my father put you up to this?" He asked and I bit my lip and shook my head. Ano na ang gagawin ko? Nalaman na niya ang totoo, paano ko ito sasabihin sa ama niya? I can't look at him right now because I am embarrassed. How am I going to handle this? Siguro nagpanggap pa ako.

"May ama ka? What are you talking about?" I tried to remain calm but it was like he could read my mind. He rubbed his forehead and I can see the anger in his eyes. Ngayon ko lang siya nakita na galit at hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nasasaktan. Bakit ayaw ko na magalit siya sa akin?

"P-please, just leave." Sabi niya at lumabas ako at sinara ang pinto. I breathed heavily while sadness took over my body. I just got rejected and now parang alam na niya ang totoo. I release a shaky breath at pumunta sa kwarto ko at kinuha ang cellphone. I dialed his father's number and he picked up after a few seconds.

"S-sir, alam na ni Augustus ang plano natin," I said nervously at narinig ko na napabuntong hininga siya sa kabilang linya.

"Just continue, huwag kang umalis sa kumbento, he can't kick you out." Sabi niya and I bit my lip. Paano kapag ipatawag ako ni Augustus sa pulis? Baka ako ang maiipit rito.

"Sir paano kung tatawag siya ng pulis?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

"He won't, I know my son kaya just continue to seduce him." Sabi niya at binaba ang tawag. I sigh at napaupo sa kama. I covered my face with my hands. Augustus is mad at me and he already knows our plans kaya hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Kailangan kong kumalma, I have to act cool in front of him.

Kumuha ako ng damit para isusuot ko Ngayon at lumabas ako. I saw him sitting in the living room while deep in his thoughts. Naramdaman niya ang presensya ko kaya napalingon siya sa akin. I tried to act calm even though my knees were shaking right now. Should I apologize? I think no, if I apologize to him right now, it means that I can't seduce him anymore.

I saw him stand up and walk towards me. He eyed my body but averted his gaze away quickly, he was still affected dahil sa nangyari.

"Listen Stef, kung ano man ang balak ng ama ko, huwag mo nang ituloy. Habang maaga ka, please umalis kana." He said which made my heart break. I bit my lip at napayuko. I then glanced up at him.

"Hindi ako aalis," Sabi ko, and I heard him sigh. "Your Dad said na hindi ako aalis rito," Sabi ko, and I walked slowly towards him. I put my finger in his chest and he sucked in his breath.

"I know you are aroused, Augustus," I whispered and leaned in on his ear. I can feel him breathing heavily. "I also know that you are a virgin. You can taste me and f**k me if you want, you will feel the pleasure for the first time. You inside me, wouldn't you want to experience that, Father?" I said with lust in my voice. I smirked as I glanced down and saw a bulge in his pants. I chuckled and left him in the living room.

Nang makapasok na ako sa kwarto, I sigh a relief. Thank God, nagawa ko yun ng maayos. I was confident when I did that. Why is he so freaking stubborn? He is already sinning because of his boner, dahil ibig sabihin, he was having dirty thoughts about me. He should give up para matapos na ang lahat ng ito at makalimutan ko na siya. Pero deep inside, ayaw ko siyang makalimutan. I want him to remember me.

I laid in the bed habang nakatingin sa kisame. I closed my eyes as I imagined his naked body, and how I would want him inside me. How I would want him to ride me. I shook the thoughts away. I suddenly thought about his kind smile, his love for the children at kung paano nagniningning ang kanyang mga mata kapag charity na ang pinag usapan. I touched my heart and it was beating so fast. I bit my lip, may gusto na ata ako kay Augustus.

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Nagluto ako para sa umagahan namin ni Augustus. I will act like walang nangyari sa aming dalawa para parang normal pa rin ang sitwasyon namin. Nang matapos na akong magluto, I saw him walking towards the kitchen at hinanda ko na ang mga pagkain. Ngumiti ako sa kanya na para bang walang nangyari.

"Good morning! Kumain kana," Sabi ko sa kanya. He glanced at me and narrowed his eyes.

"Stef, I thought we talked about this. I am being nice to you, I am not joking here. Hindi biro ang lahat ng ito." He said seriously. I nodded my head at umupo at nagsimulang kumain.

"At hindi rin ako nagbibiro," Sabi ko. My heart is beating fast but my face is calm kaya mabuti na rin. "Kumain kana," Sabi ko, and I heard him sigh at umupo. Kumuha ako ng tubig at nilagay sa baso. I put it on the side of his plate. Napatingin siya sa akin and muttered a small thank you. I smiled at nagpatuloy sa pagkain.

"So anong feeling mahawakan ang boobs ko?" I asked randomly and I saw him spit the water that he was drinking. He coughed at kumuha ako ng towel at binigay sa kanya. "Dahan dahan ka kasi," Sabi ko sa kanya habang pinupunasan niya ang kanyang bibig.

"Please don't ask that kind of question," He said at nagpatuloy sa pagkain. Nang matapos na kaming kumain, tinulungan niya akong maghugas ng Plato.

"What's your favorite color?" I asked him, he was currently at his desk habang nag aasikaso ng mga papel. He glances at me through his glasses.

"Green", he said in a bored tone and I smiled, green rin kasi paborito kong kulay. What a coincidence. I grabbed a remote at binuksan ang TV, I turned on the volume and my eyes widened when there was a s*x scene in the movie. Umungol ang babae at lalaki habang nagsisiping sila.

"Please turn it off," He pleaded and I chuckled and turned off the TV. "Forgive me, Father." I heard him mutter.

"Bakit ka nag pari?" Tanong ko sa kanya and I heard him sigh. Alam ko na unti unti na siyang naiinis pero gusto ko siyang inisin ngayon. Lumalabas ang tunay na ugali ko kapag kasama ko siya.

"It's personal," matipid na sabi niya at nagpatuloy sa kanyang ginagawa. I made my next move to him and I crawled inside his table and I grabbed his leg. He jumped in shocked while staring at me.

"What are you doing?" He asked nervously. My hands went to the buttons of his pants at dahan dahan ko itong tinanggal. He stopped my hands at hinila ako para makatayo, my head accidentally bumped into the table and I groaned in pain. I fell into his thigh and I am straddling his waist right now habang nakahawak sa noo ko na masakit.

"Are you okay?" Nag alala na tanong niya at hinawakan ang noo ko. I shook my head and I can feel a small blood on it. "Jesus, you're bleeding." Nag alala na sabi niya. He carried me and put me gently on the chair. He came back dala ng Isang kit and he sat on the table in front of me at ginamot ako. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang ginamot niya ang noo ko. He looked worried and my heart fluttered because of it. I think I am starting to fall for him.