Chapter 11: New Habits
This is the second year I've celebrated Lacey's birthday without her being here. It gave me a bittersweet feeling because my sister was still missing and I barely talked to my parents anymore. They blamed me for her disappearance and honestly, I don't blame them. I learned that I ruined a lot of things in my life too.
The only way I cope now is by drinking. It gave me that sense of numbness that prevented me from letting my emotions consume me. I still remembered that panic attack I had when I ran away from that police station a couple of years back. Drinking made those anxious moments all but disappear.
The only thing I hated about drinking was that I forgot things a lot and I always felt sick. It was much easier to drink back then, but now, it seemed to have d
