Why do I need to feel the pain when I have no reason to feel it? It's like wishing a rain on a sunny day. Impossible. Walang pag-asa. You're expecting something na alam mo namang kahit kailan ay hindi mo makukuha. Maghihintay ka ng isang bagay na alam mo namang hindi darating. Tulad ng pagmamahal na kahit kailan ay imposibleng masuklian. When it's not for you, it will never be yours Alex. You will never be love dahil sirang sira pa ang pagkatao mo. You're not the Alex na professional, mataas ang pinag-aralan at entitled sa bawat mabuting nagagawa mo para sa community. You're a worthless person now. Are you that dumb para umasa sa isang taong alam mong naaawa lang sa'yo? He's just kind to every woman at kabilang ka na doon. I can feel the thickness of the air habang naglalakad ako. Gab