Gone and Reborn

BURNING

Jo woke up in an unfamiliar bedroom, in an unfamiliar place... And she panicked. She found herself pinned down among two pairs of arms and she winced in regret when the memories started replaying in her mind.

It had taken her zero effort to approach the handsome man at the bar, with a name she didn´t even bother to learn. They´d spend the afternoon drinking and the night dancing before she decided it was time to take things to his room. They were waiting for the elevator when a tipsy Luca walked into the lobby and stood beside them, waiting as well.

When the doors finally dinged open the three of them stepped inside. Two seconds passed before the bar guy jumped at her and his hands were all over her body.

Jo´s eyes traveled to Luca, who stood a couple feet away with his sight fixated on them and she smiled into the stranger´s mouth while she extended her hand to him.

-Well, it looks like I´ll be having a second plate after all, pretty boy- she told him teasingly.

Luca hesitated for a second before taking the hint and approaching them. She pushed bar guy a bit away and started making out with Luca as the other one stepped behind her and began cupping her breasts and kissing her neck.

They kept that way for a few minutes, until the doors opened once again and Jo pulled them both out by their hands. The three of them walking silently through the hallway and to the man´s room.

They entered the dimly lit place and Jo let them lay her on the bed and start touching her. Luca kissing her n*****s while the other went down on her. She felt the warmth of his tongue and closed her eyes, moaning at his movements.

She pushed her hips up to his face, adjusting and searching for her spot, making him graze it with his tongue.

-Oh yeah!- she screamed when he finally started licking her in the right way- more!

Meanwhile, Luca kept playing with her breasts and kissing her mouth. She broke apart from him panting and reached for his strong chest.

-Put on a condom and stick in my mouth pretty boy- she ordered and smiled when he lost no time, standing to get undressed.

Jo sat, leaning on her elbows as she watched the other guy eating her out, his eyes fixated on her with a smile on his lips.

A moment later she saw that Luca was ready to go, so she turned towards his pole and started sucking him, imitating the movements the bar dude was making down on her and replicating them on Luca´s shaft.

She kept going as she tried to stay focused, feeling her legs shake at her impending orgasm. She made a little pause when the force of her climax made her lose her concentration and she had to put Luca out of her mouth for a bit, making him yelp. Her eyes darting to the other man´s face, still positioned between her legs.

Jo smiled and called him out with her finger, before getting on her hands and knees and c*****g her head to the guy.

-Wear a rubber and f**k me, sir- she said bouncing her ass to his face. Then she turned back to Luca and shoved him into her mouth again.

She heard the other dude opening a condom and take his time putting it on. A moment later she felt his rod entering her and a silent tear escaped from her eye.

Jo took a deep breath and composed herself enough to keep working on Luca´s length and receiving the merciless pounding the guy was giving her.

After a few minutes she heard Luca curse and finish loudly inside her mouth, so she spat him out and he collapsed back onto the bed. She closed her eyes and started grinding onto the big member she had inside and brought herself to ecstasy a moment later. Her walls squeezing the guy´s rod and making him come along with her.

Jo pushed him out of her p***y, plopping down on the bed and passing out.

And now, here she was, lying between the two of them feeling dirty as f**k. She got out of their grip and put her bikini on. Walking towards the door, leaving both men lying side by side, sleeping peacefully on the spacious bed.

She tiptoed out of there as fast as she could, bolting for her room and throwing the “Do not disturb” sing on the door´s knob, closing it behind her. Then she went into the bathroom and started the water.

Jo sat on the shower´s floor for a long time, trying to feel a single thing beyond the water cascading down her body. When the emptiness of her soul became too unbearable to take, she reached for the razor she´d just shaved her legs with the day before and took a blade out. She held it in uncertainty and without a second thought, she carved a horizontal line just below her right hip bone, all the way almost to her crotch.

She winced at the sight of blood and the slight pain, relieved tears falling down her cheeks at finally being able to feel anything at all. Fifteen minutes later she´d drawn two more lines below the first one and just remained watching the blood stream down the drain until the water got too cold to keep sitting under it.

The rest of her trip she spent it bunkered inside her room, slumped on the bed with her eyes fixated on the ceiling. Her fingers running through her fresh scars.

The day of her departure finally rolled by. Jo was even more exhausted and her mind was even more messed up than when she´d originally arrived.

She´d just jumped on the plane, feeling relieved about finally heading home, holding her suitcase and a bottle of wine someone at the duty-free shop had told her it was to die for.

When she arrived to her place, tired and battered a couple days later, she found Ally sitting on the living room´s floor while she chain-smoked with a concentrated look on her face.

Jo walked to the kitchen and grabbed two glasses before opening the bottle and pouring themselves some wine. She silently handed Ally one of them as she took a sip from the other.

-What is it kiddo? You look like someone took your candy away- she commented as she dropped her ass beside her.

That´s how she found out Ally was banging three guys and she almost cracked up laughing hysterically at the irony of it all.

-So, are you a s*x addict now?- Jo asked, before she could even register the words leaving her mouth and she mentally slapped herself.

“You should be asking that question to yourself, you i***t”

-No! I don´t know… Maybe? – Ally replied with a confused look.

“Oh Ally, I´m so, so sorry...You´re talking to the wrong person, I´m even more f****d up than you could ever imagine. s**t! What should I say now?”

-Ok, let me see if I can get this straight- she started, lighting a cigarette and taking a long drag- So, you were hurt about Marvin being an asshole and obviously horny, cause he hadn´t touched you like in… forever and the best thing you could come out with was to go and f**k three random dudes? 

She winced “Ok that was harsh Jo, what the f**k is wrong with you? Who are you to judge, you hypocrite? You just f****d two guys in one night!”

They talked for a while about this new dude Ally was screwing and she told her how she kept fantasizing about him, ruining her other lays.

Jo couldn´t help but feeling a bit jealous about it. She would like that… Having someone f*****g her so good that she couldn´t stop thinking about it. All she´d ever had by now was a bunch of forgettable encounters.

-Well, there you go. If you are thinking about him so much, then just go for it! For fuck´s sake, you even said he lives nearby, that would surely make it a lot easier than going back and forth to your hometown for hook ups every time – Jo said rolling her eyes and feeling instantly guilty about it.

“Look who´s talking” she scorned herself “Says the one who just came back from almost ten thousand miles away after having a threesome”.

-It´s not like that, Jo. I´m supposed to diversify… keep my options open to stay cool headed.

“Yeah, that doesn’t do a s**t, I´ve tried it, you´re set for failure” Jo thought in silence.

-If you say so… - she paused, frowning- So, what you mean is that you think you can still f**k that guy Harry, maybe add up another one and get back to your game?

-Well, I hope so…- Ally responded- last time with Harry was fine.

They kept the discussion for a bit, Jo trying to convince Ally that maybe that new guy was something worth exploring a little further and Ally being the blind obstinate i***t she´d always been.

-I think you are just being stubborn.

-I think you´re just being a b***h- Ally stuck her tongue out playfully.

-Whatever Ally, but if you keep going down that road... Remember you might crash and burn.

“Cause I´ve been going down it all this time… and I already am”