(Katrina) How did my life get to this point? Perhaps this is my own version of hell and I am finally getting everything I deserved. This is the type of Karma that so many have spoken about.. The pain that radiated from my body was so intense, that even just the effort to breathe was exhausting. Would it have been better if I died in that fire? Why did I even live? I felt deep down that I didn't deserve it..not after everything I have done. The moment Gabriella came into our lives, I felt a deep sense of excitement. The thought that I would be getting another sister was thrilling..I wouldn't be the youngest anymore and perhaps we would get along even better than I did with Cecelia. Then when the small girl with those big blue eyes appeared, she was even more adorable than I pictured