Chapter Ten
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Chapter Ten:
It is honestly surprising how free I feel right after escaping that situation with Ryan. Why do I do what I do?
Avoidance....I am a master at it, and it always bites ne hard in the ass every single time, and yet I keep going back to it over and over.
I am not going to keep thinking that the same will apply for tonight though.. It won't!
And besides, I do want to end my birthday with a bang after such a ridiculous night!
Do I?.
I do not go out or drink much, I always imagine myself getting expelled from school for something that stupid and that is enough to make me change my mind about it most days. Tracey has brought alcohol to the dorm before and the last time she did, it finally set me off. We were both not legal and I know what it took for me to earn my spot in this school, I am not comfortable with throwing that away very easily.
I finally have the room to myself and I open my closet to find an outfit. I usually have a hard time deciding on what to wear when I actually want to try, which is why I do not try most times, I would otherwise always miss my morning classes!
My eyes Land on the pink dress that I wore to my first date with my ex and I try hard not to gag because it is the best option at the momen. It is the one thing that I know the girls will not pester me to change and it was my favourite dress for a long time until it wasn't... Until it got ruined by a stupid memory of a stupid me sashaying to go lose my virginity to an i***t.
I was such an idiot.. I probably still can be if presented with the correct situations like it was the case. Which is why I need to finish my last months without getting my heart broken again!
I decide it is finally time to stop being ridiculous about the dress when other options prove to be failures, as expected... I cross my fingers as I throw it over my body and struggle to zip it up. I am almost convinced that I have gotten way too big for the dress to ever fit on ne but at the very last few seconds before Jax walks in, I manage to zip it up and it fits just perfectly over my tiny frame.
"Please do not tell me that you are still not ready. We actually gave you ten minutes extra you know?" Jax folds her arms over her chest before her eyes move up and down my body.
I pretend I am completely unaware of how she is looking at me and continue to search for heels to match the dress. Thankfully, that usually isn't a struggle and I know which shoes to wear after less than ten seconds of searching through my closet.
"Uhmm...you know I am going to ask right? Are you going to answer?" I turn around to meet her face that has such an interrogative look to it. If a question mark had a face, I am pretty convinced that the one that I am looking at right now is the most perfect match!
"I would rather not, but I am eighteen now so I am going to try to be an adult about it." I finally respond and she looks genuinely surprised by my response. And I do not blame her because I was always one heck of a b***h when it came to questions about.. That situation.. I do not even want to let his name ring in my mind!
"You know what... That is the answer I was looking for! Let's just get out of here and celebrate your birthday honey!" she decides to let it go and I am glad.
Amber and Amelia get to the room and give me that same exact look. It is honestly too weird that they have a memory good enough to remember that this is the dress when I have not worn it since that day!
Jax immediately warns them against asking about it and I am thankful for her yet again!
"so where are we going? I need to go home tomorrow, I cannot get drunk!" I let them know and they scrunch their noses in confusion.
"oh right! She still doesn't know where we are going.." Jax laughs before walking over to me and hooking my arm with hers.
What in the world? What could she possibly be talking about?
"Where are we going? You never even told me! Are you telling me I could be overdressed? Why do I look overdressed right now?" I question and all she can do is just place her finger over her lips. So she is definitely not going to let me know...
Great!
"We are taking you out for something that is more you.. Okay ? That is all we are going to tell you." She at least gives me that to work with although it might as well be nothing becausey head is still completely blank!
"and about your mother, you already spoke to her and she knows that you will not be able to make it there this weekend. She knows that you will be having fun though so she is totally fine with it, trust us. You might think something else but do not worry!" Amelia says and now I am completely confused about what this actually is...
I know my mother and how she does not want to break little traditions that we established for ourselves within the household so I am not completely sure that she would agree. But with a phone that is currently turned off and has to remain that way l, cannot put up an argument or contact my mum to reschedule the visit again because I am suds about one thing. They are willing to do anything so that I loosen up and then they can start feeding me shots that will give me a killer of a headache in the morning.
I lift my pillow and pack my phone into my purse and prepare for whatever they have in store for me!
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