Finding Her True Self

Chapter8

ELSA'S POV

It was just a split second, but I definitely felt Elijah's pain. “What was going on? Where is he? Are you sure he is okay?” I threw the question at Mia.

“I don't know; I am trying to mindlink him, but it's blocked. Wait, let me mindlink Mark.”

While she tried to connect with them, I felt helpless. I couldn't mindlink them because I wasn't part of the pack officially, and even if I were part of the pack officially and something bad were to happen to him right now, I wouldn't be able to do anything to save him. I don't have a wolf, and I have never trained, so I am weaker than everyone.

The realisation that I was incapable of protecting my mate broke my heart, and I burst out crying.

“He is fine, he is fine!” Mia kept chanting, trying to get me to calm down and stop crying.

She led me to a bench under a shade and sat me down. When I finally calmed down, she asked

“Are you okay?” She was truly worried. “What happened back there? I don't think it's only not knowing where your mate is that made you cry this much. Talk to me, please.”

I looked at her with teary eyes. Hesitating on saying it. It's been on my mind and bothering me since I got here. I feel even worse because they have been nice to me. But the fear of what happened in my former pack after they found out was etched in my bones. Giving out my trust again was hard.

Looking into her eyes, I saw the sincerity in them. She held my hands in hers and patted them, encouraging me to open up to her.

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. “I don't have a wolf.” I exhaled and kept my eyes closed, waiting for her response.

When she didn't say anything, I opened my eyes and saw her trying to hold back her laughter. “Sorry, sorry about the laugh. But seriously, is that why you are worried? Baby girl, I don't care about that, and I know the Alpha wouldn't care either. Your former pack members are all stupid for making you feel like it was your fault for not having a wolf or that you are less than them for that.”

Her eyes glazed over, showing someone was mind-linking her.

“The Alpha is worried about you; I think he can sense your sadness. I told him you were fine, but he insisted on seeing you. She smiled at me. “Come on, let's take you to your mate.”

“Do you think I should talk to him about it? I am worried he will reject me.” I asked her as we walked back to the house.

“He won't, and if he does, then he is stupid, and that's his loss.” She told me firmly.

I nodded, and we kept walking.

“I brought her back safe and sound. See!” She mocked him for worrying. “I am off, Elsa; see you later.” She waved and left.

He rushed to my side, and I involuntarily took a step back. He halted immediately when he saw that. “I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable, my wolf and I are worried. Seeing that you are okay will really help us to calm down.

I felt bad for what just happened. It has become an unconscious act after what I went through at my former pack. But I could feel that he would never hurt me. But I still needed time.

“I understand what you mean, but I need time. I am sorry.” I said in a low tone.

“You don't need to be sorry; it's not your fault, and I understand. Just promise me that you will at least give me a chance, so I can show you that I am different.” He sighed, running his hand through his beautiful hair.

I felt the urge to run my hand through his hair. I wanted to rush into his arms, but I needed to heal and trust him first. I suppressed the silly thought and went on to more important things. I needed to know how he felt about my wolfless nature.

I inhaled deeply, finding the courage within me to tell him about it.

“There is something we need to talk about, and I will understand if you do not want me after you hear it. I won't hold it against you. But before we talk about that, are you hurt? I asked him.

“No, I am fine. Why do you ask?”

I could somehow tell that he wasn't being truthful, but he was ready to talk about it. I could sense his discomfort about the topic. I wanted to push it, but I didn't.

“I felt a sharp burning pain earlier and thought you might be hurt. But it's okay if you say you are fine.” I relented.

He smiled smugly. “Were you worried about me? It feels good to know that.” He winked at me, and I blushed. “But really, I am fine. So, what did you want to talk about?

“Let's sit down.” We did, but I couldn't bring myself to say it.

“Elsa,” my name, rolled off his tongue in the most pleasant way, drawing me back from my painful memories. “We don't have to talk about it if it's hard for you to talk about. Nothing I hear about you will make me love you any less. He gave me a reassuring smile.

Without thinking about it so much, I blurted it out: “I don't have a wolf. That was why they bullied me in my former pack. I don't know how it happened, but it's always been like this for me. I was weaker than them, and they preyed on me. That was also why my friend rejected me. He didn't want a wolfless and weak mate.” I breathed out.

“I am sorry I hid it from you. But this felt like a fresh start, and I wanted everyone to like me and not bully me. I am sorry it took this long to tell you about it.” I bent my head in shame.

He breathed out heavily. “For a minute there, I thought you were about to reject me because of what happened this morning.” He laughed a little. “But why would you think I would reject you because of that? You are my mate, and I will love and cherish you no matter what.”

“I was so scared; I thought you would reject me, especially after I saw the beautiful girl that was throwing herself at you this morning. You are a more powerful alpha than my former mate, and even he rejected me. I know alpha's don't like to have any weaknesses, especially reputable alphas, and I am a weakness to you.” Tears ran down my face.

He stood up and came close to me, stopping a few feet away from me. “Your former mate and your former pack members are all fools for treating you any less for something that isn't your fault. Not having a wolf doesn't make you useless. You can train in your human form and get stronger. You are kind, loving, and compassionate—the perfect fit for a Luna. Don't allow anyone to tell you otherwise.”

I cried even more after hearing him say all that.

“Can I hold you?” He asked me.

I could see in his eyes that he was in pain too because of being unable to hold his crying mate.

"Yes,” I said. And he rushed to my side and held me in his arms. I held back the urge to recoil, remembering that he is Elijah, not Damian, and this is the blood moon pack and not my former pack.

I cried my eyes out, and he held me in his arms, whispering consoling words to me.

After some minutes, when I had finally calmed down, he carried me to the room and drew a bath for me.

“Take your time and relax. I will be downstairs making dinner.” He smiled at me and left the room.

I entered the bathtub and relaxed. I couldn't have been happier; it seemed like I was finally getting my happy ending.

After a while, I heard his footsteps in the room. “It's me,” he alerted me. “I came to drop off the clothes Mia brought for you.”

“Okay, thanks”. I relaxed back into the tub and thought of everything that happened today.

“Hey little one, the familiar voice called out to me. I turned around and saw the familiar face.

“It's you! You saved me from those rogues. But who are you?” I asked my beautiful saviour.

“You will find out when the time is right. She said, “You are finally getting closer to your destiny. It will be rocky, but with your mate by your side, you will do great.”

“My destiny? What is this destiny you speak of? I am just a werewolf; without a wolf, how can I possibly have a great destiny? I can barely protect my mate and new pack.”

“You are a child of destiny, and you will find out when the time is right. Now that you are in your rightful pack, train and get stronger with your mate. I will visit you again when it's time. Take care, little one.” She turned and left.

“Wait! Wait!” I called out to her, but she was gone.