Isn’t Rejection What You Wanted?

Three nights

CAMILLA'S POV

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For three night's we have watched Derek show up at the most common places, and for three nights we have laughed and joked around like the old friends we were. It was like we were children again, laughing and ranting, but this time we have been ranting about more serious things instead of the stupid little things from the past. It was more comfortable being in his home, but I also knew that I coulnd't stay. It was time to find my own place, my own home, but for tonight, I am enjoying the snack board in front of us as we lay on his bed, watching the tv and laughing like it's a comedy show.

"How stupid can he be?" Jared snorts, taunting the man I loved, and I find myself laying in the dark in the middle of the night, sobbing whole heartedly for him. I've never felt so lonely in bed, nor have I spent nights so alone...and I could sit with Jared and laugh, but the lonely feeling creeping up on me out of the middle of nowhere is what makes me crumble. I want nothing more to just go back in time and stop whatever Alison has done...

"Look," Jared nudges his elbow into my arm, his eyes fixed in front of him and he smiles with pure joy. I watch as Derek throws bottle after bottle, turning as the security grabs him, "Do not touch me, do you know who I am?" he yells, and Jared just sits at the bar, staring at him. "You pay, or you go to jail," the scruffy large man literred with more tattoos than Jared. We watch as Derek pulls out a wad of cash, and tosses it onto the bar before escourted out.

"Do you think he will ever learn?" I murmur, shaking my head in disbelief. "I guess not," Jared shrugs, and my phone suddenly rings, loudly. I jump as I catch a fright, and I quickly grab my phone and see Derek's name. I grin, showing Jared as I press my finger to my lips, indicating that he should keep quiet while I answer the phone.

"I thought we were done talking," I snap, "Where are you?", "Excuse me?" I ask baffled, "I know you're at this f****d up place, are you hiding from me? Where are you?" he sneers, and I could hear the despise in his voice. "Oh Derek," I sigh, have you not realized that I've sent you on a goose chase?" I scoff. I've grown tired of watching him prounce around trying to find me when he has no reason to look for me. "A goose chase? What are you talking about?" he sneers, sounding defensive. After all this time, Derek can't admit what he's done. He wouldn't admit that he had put a tracker in my phone and stalked me all these years. He has some trust issues, and yet I have never gave him a reason to undermine me. I have never broken his trust, but he shattered mine in his.

"I'm talking about how you knew where I have always been," I deadpan, and the silence before Derek speaks is what confirms that it was he, not that I didn't doubt it, but I expected an excuse instead of an accusation.

"You w***e around all day, and you barely speak to me, so how could I not have you tracked? How could I not have followed you around after Alison gave me proof that you were sleeping around?" he seethes, and every calm nerve in my body catches on fire.

"Is that how long you've been seeing her behind my back?" I yell, and Jared suddenly sits up, staring at me with wide eyes. "No, I...", "No, your mother knew. And she was the one who told me about your affair!" I snap. I loved his mother like my own, sometimes more and now I don't think that I will ever have a mother, because even the one who swore to love me like a daughter on the night of our engagement party has betrayed me.

"How dare you accuse my mother of lying?", "I have proof, Derek." That shuts him right up.

"It was only after I found out you were cheating on me," he retorts, "I didn't, I'm not a low life bastard who thinks the world revolves around him!" I snarl, and Jared suddenly grabs the phone.

"If you call this number again, you will have consequences." he deadpans before ending the call, and I glare at him, "What are you doing?" I snap, "No, what are you doing?" he yells. "You work yourself up, and there is no reason for it." he snarls at me. "I want to know!" I yell, "Want to know what?" he yells back at me. "I want to know why he cheated on me! I want to know how he could do that, I want to know when did he start seeing her, and fighting with him is the only way!" I yell, but Jared remains calm, his voice loud as he speaks with authority, "For what? Closure? You don't need it, you are Camilla f*****g Diaz, and you have everything,", "No," tears swell in my eyes, "Alison has everything.", "She has nothing except a lonely life, one filled with the wants and needs that you have. She is nothing but sad, and you can make your sadness go away,", "How?" I refrain from blinking, because if I do, I know the tears will roll down my cheeks, and my eyes feel so dried out because of all the crying, "Come here," he slowly holds out his hand while marching around the bed to my side. His fingers curl and open twice as he waves at me to get closer to him. I scoot off the bed curiously and take his hand. His icy fingers is electric to the touch of my warm palm, and he leads me to the mirror, and he stands behind me.

He reaches forward, pushing his fingers under my chin and he forces my head up, "Look at you, you have beauty and the brains. You can have anyone in the world, and you're crying over a man who doesn't deserve you.", "I thought he was worthy of my love,", "And do you still think that?" I meet his gaze through the reflection of the mirror, "No," my shoulders sink as I sigh, and his hand gently drags down my arm. I pull out of his light grasp on me, and I turn to face him when I'm a few feet away, "Jared," I sigh his name as if he disappoints me, but it's the furthest of it.

He's the only one I trust, he's the only one who saved me from the day that was supposed to be the happiest, which turned into my biggest nightmare. "What?" he takes a step towards me. "I can't let anything happen between us, you know that, right?" his eyes widen in surprise, "Neither can I." I want to think that he's just saying it because I did, but he's serious, so all I do is nod.

"Good, so we have an agreement,", "We're friends, nothing will ever happen between us." he slightly frowns, and I smile at him, "Yes, we are friends."

Facts are, he is my only friend.