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We had a huge fight over the weekend and I admit that that was one of the worst fight that we had. Not that type of fight which includes physical pain because I know he would never do that to me. We had a huge fight over the phone which ended up him yelling at me and me, crying. He was so pissed off and that was the first time I heard his angry voice. I was stunned and all I did was cry. We still had little conversations through messages but the atmosphere between us was quite vague. One question-one answer conversation. So I decided to move my phone away and chose not to talk to him. I was very upset, not because he yelled at me, but because of something he refused to do for me. It’s quite a big deal for me because it includes my family. But then, as I narrowed down the situation, I realized, I also have to understand his reasons.
When I came home at the house the next day, he wasn’t there yet. I was all alone and I am thinking of how I’ll approach him or if I’ll continue to be angry. After an hour or two, he came home. It felt really awkward and I know he felt the same way. No “hi”. No hugs. No kisses. No “how’s your weekend babe?”. Just silence and heavy breathing. I went straight to our bedroom and he did the same way. We both pretended like nobody exists in the house but ourselves. Until I can’t take it anymore, so I decided to sat on the sofa and watch a movie. He was doing laundry and I caught him looking at me a couple of times. Then suddenly, as I was laughing my hearts out because of Michael V., he served pancit and suman latik in front of me saying... “Magmerienda po.” And went back doing his laundry.
I really don’t have any plans of eating the food but the smell of the pancit and the mouth-watering appearance of the suman betrayed me. Plus my stomach was already hurting because I haven’t took my lunch yet. So, I ate the food he served and as I expected, it was so delicious. His mom is really a good cook. Soooo, because I can’t control myself anymore, words suddenly popped out of my mouth, “Pssst! Nood tayo Wu Assassins ”.
He looked at my direction and said, “Mamaya po.” So, I readied the laptop and set the episode where we stopped. I can’t find any regret in my heart because I talked to him. Everything just vanished just like that.
So, after he hanged our clothes, he sat down in front of me, as if telling me he’s ready to watch. He looked at me with sad eyes and asked, “Upset pa?”
I moved my head side by side, “No”. He’s quite doubtful when I said no and he added, “Weh? Bakit?”
I smiled and said, “Basta hindi na.” Still he pretends he’s still sad, “Dahil ba may dala akong masarap na food?” I laughed because he’s like a kid when he do that.
“No. Because I love you.” A smile immediately appeared in his lips, grabbed my arm and whispered, “Sorry.” How could I ever not accept his apology? That kind of apology? “I love you so much.” He added. Butterflies came flushing inside my stomach and I just can’t breathe. I am so happy because at last, with just a simple conversation, we resolved the fight between us. It’s just so amazing.
We don’t have a perfect relationship. But I am proud to say that we knew how to handle this relatinship well. I love my guy so so much! And I am very lucky to have him in my life.
I know this past few weeks had been very tough for both of us. We fought almost everyday. I’ve been very sensitive, you’ve been very insensitive. You took the crybaby s**t out of me and I took out the monster out of you. But still, here we are, staying firm and strong unto each other because whatever happens, we know that we would always be here for each other.
"Babe, I’m sorry for all the nagging and irritable things I’ve done that annoyed you. Sorry for my being clingy and for my constant mood swings. I know I’m so hard to understand but I am very happy because I can see how much you try to understand me and how much you try to keep yourself from being angry at me. I understand if sometimes you can’t handle my behavior anymore and you shouted at me a few times. I really do. But all I hope is for you not to give up on me and that you won’t get tired loving and understanding me. Please stay with me babe, okay? It’s been 44 months and the feelings that I have for you never faded, and would never ever fade. People may always say that forever doesn’t exist, but I know this something between us is sure to last for a lifetime and even after life. If that’s what they call forever, then it surely exist for both of us."
He smiled and hugged me so tight and says..
"Babe, whatever happens, always remember how much I love you and how much I am willing to shed a tear for you. Always keep in mind that I am always here, willing to listen, to hug and kiss you whenever you want, and here to care and comfort you. I am here, as your partner, your bestfriend, your personal nurse and doctor, your everything. I love you very much babe."
I stepped back and grabbed my phone, look at him grinning and said.. "Selfie!"
After that, I immediately showed him the picture.
"Nice.." He smiled.
'What I like about photographs is that they capture a moment that’s gone forever, impossible to reproduce.'
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