Pysche's Devotion

JUNHO'S POV: WHAT IS YOUR NAME?

"Ahh!"

I held my head as I got up from lying down. Another nightmare? I opened my eyes and trying to familiarize my surroundings. White walls and the smell of medicines. I am at the hospital. I looked at what I was wearing, and I was not wearing a hospital gown. I am just wearing a white tee shirt and jeans with my sneakers on. Why am I here? Who am I? What happened to me?

I decided to go out of this place. I am so relieved to see that no one notices me. I walked outside the building and I am familiar with this place. I walked for almost twenty minutes and I reached the university I saw in my nightmare. I saw a shed opposite the university and I waited for her. The lady I always see in my dreams.

I sat for almost two hours waiting for her to come out at the gate. Suddenly my head hurts again, not because I remembered something but because I am trying to remember who I am.

"Uhm, hi?"

I stopped what I was doing and looked up to see who is it. I don't know her but it feels like I have seen her before.

"Hi."

I greeted back and smiled at her.

"Are you okay? Looks like you are having a problem."

I stood up and I looked at her. Her eyes widened and she covered her mouth. I refrained from smiling. Maybe she's shocked to know my height. She is just at my chest level. So cute. She steps backward to see how tall I am.

"I---I don't know too."

Her eyebrows met as she heard my answer.

"My name is Elena. You? What is your name?"

I was taken aback by her question. I did not expect her to ask my name. And because I don't know who I am, I tried to look for an answer. I looked from left to right, and then I saw a wall vandalized by someone, and I saw a good name I could use in the meantime.

"Jun---ho. Junho is my name.

"Oh, Junho. Nice name."

*honk*

She turned around to see her father waving at her. She is cute. She looked at me for just a second and I smiled.

"I need to go Junho. Nice knowing you."

She smiled at me and went straight to her Dad. Elena? She had a nice name too. I looked at the gate once again but it seemed that I missed her because of Elena's presence. I walked in the same direction where Elena's car was heading. I remember this place. I know for sure.

After a long walk, I stopped at the house that seemed familiar to me. I looked at it and I am sure this is mine.

I went inside, and I turned on the lights. And I am right, this is mine. I saw pictures placed above the fireplace but I am not sure if this is me because I don't know what I looked like. I am wearing a tux and in the other picture I am wearing a turtle neck long sleeve with my hair brushed up, but unluckily I did not see any clues as to who I am. No names, no signatures or papers that will lead me to my memories. I only have magazines and some newspapers about J. Park Company. All about J. Park Company? I sighed, nothing seemed important.

I went upstairs to my bedroom. This place looks normal to me. And the feeling is so calm and I can relax a bit. I lay down on my comfortable bed. Why did I wake up that I was at the hospital this morning? And I don't remember anything that happened before that day. I closed my eyes.

"I love you, Klio."

"Stop this nonsense! We're done!"

"Klio!"

"Klio!"

I got up and tried to catch my breath. I hold my head, trying to remember my dream. I wiped the big drops of my sweat. What was that? Another dream? I hold my chest because it beats so fast. I was afraid, but why?

"Klio...She's someone important to me?"

'We're done!'

I lay down again. I looked up at the ceiling. Who am I?

I woke up because I heard someone talking. I looked at my watch and it was already ten o'clock in the morning. I heard his footsteps coming towards the door so I ended up jumping from the bed and ran inside the bathroom. I left it open a little so that I could see the burglar's face before reporting him to the police.

I heard he opened the door of my room and went inside.

"Yes...I am here at his vacation house. No Mom, of course you can come over, I'll go to my office..... He is my brother why would I hate him?.... Mom listen to me, stop crying okay?.... Forget all of it, Mom. Come over and bring Dad and my two lovely sisters because tomorrow I'll be back to America to settle things down...... No Mom, every Friday I will let you and Dad visit this place. Okay?"

I can't see his face properly. He is my brother? I saw him pick up one brown coat and go out of my room. I heard his car and drove away. I lay down again. I need to see Klio today. I prepared myself. I wore my polo jeans and pants tucked in. I did not dare to look in the mirror because I already knew what I looked like. I smiled at my thought.

I walked again to reach the university. I am not hungry or thirsty so I did not stop when I saw a convenient store maybe because I was excited to see Klio.

I waited for a couple of hours. When I saw some students heading to the gate, I did not look away because I didn't want to lose Klio again. Suddenly I saw a familiar face coming out of the gate.

"Elena?"

She looked at me so I smiled at her. She smiled back and looked at her friends. Suddenly she walks towards me. I like her company, she is always acting cute whenever I try to look at her.

"Hi."

I stopped myself from thinking something.

"Hey.Elena, right?"

I know and I remember her name. I just want to start the conversation without this awkward atmosphere.

She nodded at me and smiled.

"Come sit with me."

She sat beside me and she pulled out her phone dialing someone.

"Dad, don't bother to pick me up. I am with a friend. Yes Dad, okay."

She ended the call and faced me.

"So why are you here again?"

I smiled at her, she is always curious.

"I am waiting for someone."

She stops for a while and I look at the gate. I am sure she is here.

"Who? Someone special?"

I did not bother to answer her question because I saw Klio go out of the gate.

"Klio...."

I stood up and I saw in my peripheral vision that Elena stood up too. I saw Klio standing outside the gate. I don't know what to do. I can't utter a single word to begin with. Klio in my dreams is the same Klio I am looking at today. She smiles so sweet and I can feel that I waited for so long to see those smiles, and to hear her voice.

"Klio! Here---"

I was shocked when I heard Elena shouted her name. So I suddenly grabbed her before she said something. I felt her flinch, did she feel something too? A small voltage ran in my veins when I touched her. I look at her but she is not looking at me but at Klio's direction. I pulled her closer to me to shift her gaze at me and to get her attention. I looked at her wearing my question as if she felt something too.

She looked at my hand I followed her too, I forgot that I was still holding her so I let off of her arm and massaged my palm because something was weird.

"You don't have to do that Elena."

"But you waited since yesterday Junho."

I sighed and started walking. She followed me, I smiled secretly and made a big step. She walked and ran trying to catch me. We have the same direction. Maybe she is living somewhere near here. She catches me but she stares blankly in her arm. Is she hurt?

"Are you okay?"

She nodded at me.

"How about you? Klio, it seems she did not see you. Are you okay?"

She looked at me and then I smiled.

"I am fine. Maybe she is not in the mood to talk to me."

She seemed like she did not see me. Did she hate me that much?

"Is she---"

"She is my ex-girlfriend. That's all I know."

I felt that she stopped walking. I stopped walking and turned around to call her.

"Elena..."

"What exactly happened Junho? Did you lose your memories like what's happening in dramas?"

I just looked straight to her eyes and smiled again. I raised my hand and made a hand gesture telling her to go to me. She did not hesitate and went towards where I am standing. We started walking again.

"Yes, I lost my memories. I don't know why but I just woke up and I can't remember anything. One night I have a dream about Klio. Maybe a memory of mine with her but it's not that clear. All I can remember was her face and her name."

She kept quiet until we reached my place. I was surprised to know that she is also living here in front of my house. She invited me to eat dinner with them but I declined it because my parents would be here in a minute.

We parted ways and I went straight to my house and I opened it. No one is here but I saw some of the new things in here. Maybe they're here already and went out to eat. I don't know but I felt like I don't want to see them for now, because of my situation. They might be shocked if they knew that I have amnesia. I need to solve these before meeting them.

I went straight to my room and lay down on my bed. I need to fix things before doing some actions that might get me in trouble. And I am glad through my nightmares and dreams I kind of know who I am little by little.

I woke up because of the noise downstairs. I did not know that I fell asleep. I looked at my watch and it was already ten o'clock in the evening. I tiptoed as I went downstairs. I went to the kitchen because I followed where the voices came from. I silently rest my back on the wall beside the kitchen door.

"How is your brother?"

"He'll be fine. I transferred him to the nearest hospital, but I couldn't visit him, Mom. I am too busy at the office but I will send someone to attend him."

No! I escaped from the hospital!

"Don't worry son. The hospital's staff can take care of him."

"Okay, Dad."

I let out a sigh when I heard them talk about not visiting me. I don't want to cause any trouble, but what if the hospital calls them about me being missing? I will wait till the hospital notices me gone. For now, I need to finish fixing things.

I went to the basement to sleep. I know for sure that my brother will use my room.