He Says She Says

Stay Please? (Part 2)

Chapter Ten

Stay Please?

Sinalubong ko ang labi niya that’s about to descend on mine. My hands went around her waist and I pulled her tightly against mine. Everyone can totally agree that I hit it off with a lot of woman before. I’ve kissed a lot of girls including Ana. But no one, NO ONE ever made me feel like this. Like there were fireworks exploding everywhere and it’s exploding nonstop inside my head. I don’t even know if that’s possible. But this girl makes the word impossible seems like the biggest joke on earth.

            And I was so damn surprise to realize that my ‘buddy down there’ is getting too excited that it pains to have it restrained inside my pants now. Crap. Usually it takes more than just a kiss to arouse that throbbing trouble. Oh Lex, what on earth are you doing to me?

            I shifted uncomfortably on the couch while still holding her atop me. I don’t want her to feel that, it might freak her the hell out. Naramdaman kong iginapang niya dahan-dahan ang mga kamay niya across my chest then wrapping it around my neck. Kumalas siya ng bahagya just to have me feel her warm breath against my lips unintentionally while she pants.

            And all hell broke loose (as for me) when she teasingly bit on my lower lip with an unintentional (maybe?) grind of her hips against my bulge in between. I moaned silently sabay pikit ng mga mata ko ng kusa sa sobrang sarap ng pakiramdam na ‘yon. She totally nailed it.

            And she realized she did when she repeated that grind a little slower than earlier that made me grunt loudly. “Fvck, Lex!”

            I opened my eyes to look at her. She had that curious look in her face, probably curious as to what would that little movement will lead us to.

                  “Feels good?” tanong niya kasabay ng isa na namang mabagal na rotation niya sa ibaba ko. I couldn’t muster up enough energy to say hell yeah with that so she only heard a single moan of approval—that’s more than an approval even! “If it’s that good then…”

            s**t, she’s a tease! A damn adorable tease…

            My breath hitched as she ground her hips and hit my throbbing member with her fully clothed core continously. Fvck my life, she’s dry humping me!

            Her pace kept on as she moved her hands to the left side of my cheek and stroked it. My breathing keeps on getting deeper and deeper that it’s too much hard to keep quiet. Dammit. I think she’s planning on getting me off by this. Shouldn’t I be the one pleasuring her and not the other way around?

                 “Oh God, I’m close!” I grunted with my eyes abruptly opening wide the soon that I felt that familiar feeling.

            Hinawakan ko ang kamay niyang humahaplos sa mukha ko and restrained it from moving bago ko sinibasib ng halik ang labi niya. Bumaba mula sa leeg ko ang isa pa niyang kamay. Naramdaman kong hinihila niyon ang dulo ng shirt ko pataas. Pinakawalan ko ang isa pa niyang kamay so it’s much easier for her to do that as I am refusing to help her because the mixed sensation of the kiss and her grinding core are driving me insane to the point that I’m now as useless as I’m not normally used to.

                 “Oh God, baby…” I breathed when I pulled away to help her get my damn shirt off then I got back kissing her again and again. “Get me off fast, I want to pleasure you… please… fvck, you’re killing me! Oh God… Oh fvck! Ahhhhh!”

            My back arched unconsciously as I felt my insides convulsing. Hinila ko si Lex so I can ravaged her beautiful lips again and caged her inside me while I wait for myself to recover. Her hands flew to my back and held me tight. I slid up one of my own inside her tight shirt. Nagsi-sink in na sa akin ang pakiramdam ng sticky juices from inside my jeans and it’s making me feel messy and suffocated.

            And the worst stuff is that my little buddy there isn’t calming down. Holy crap.

            I pulled my face half an inch and my tongue licked her lips before I shoved it inside her mouth. I heard a slight moan, goodness did that turned me on all the more that I was even afraid I’d blow up another load again if I didn’t held myself back.

            Natanggal ko ang hook ng bra niya eventually. I also learned that Lex is a damn fast learner when she played with my tongue inside her mouth, circling it the way I was circling my own with hers. Damn girl, she’s going to kill me in no time. And I’m more than willing to die this happy. More than happy.

            Saglit akong humiwalay sa kanya para alisin ng tuluyan ang shirt niya. To my surprise she nibbled and licked on my neck down to my chest that it made me more hard to concentrate on what was I doing but I happily managed to do so.

            For the nth time that night, my breath caught up as I took her upper body in sight. “Too gorgeous, Lex, you’re too gorgeous for your own good.”

            I saw her blush then. Then something hit me. “Have you ever done this with a man?”

            Umiling siya, her innocence slowly creeping up on her face. “No. Never.”

            Does it mean… “You are a virgin?”

            She nodded meekly. And there goes my raging hard on, making himself known. Malamang naramdaman niya kaya nanlalaki ang mga matang tumingin siya sa akin. Oh no. “I-I’m sorry, I don’t mean to scare you. W-We’ll just go at it if you’re ready, you don’t need to push it, Lex. I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

            Nakahanda na ako sa isang malakas na sampal o sapak but much to my big surprise, she chuckled. “Aww you’re cute when you stammer, you know that?” tinignan ko lang siya ng nagtataka. Tumawa siyang muli before leaning in for a quick kiss then pulling away the moment I was kissing her back so she had the pleasure and satisfaction of seeing me chase her luscious lips back to mine. I could tell she liked that, she definitely does. “I’d rather lose it to you than with someone else, Bryce.”

                 “Oh Jesus Christ, I love you so damn much, Lex.”

            Tinawanan niya ako. “Who do you said you love? Jesus Christ or me? Oh my God!” and she gasped when I lovingly placed one of her breast inside my mouth. She moaned then arched her back in respond to me.

            I smiled through it then pulled away briefly to answer her. “I love Jesus Christ because he made me be with you who happens to be that one and only girl that I love so damn much.” then I went back to my heavenly job.

            Can I stay here all my life please?

            Her hands gripped my hair and pulled me against her. I slid one of my own hands to her other mound and massaged it gently. Her moans were extra louder now that I can’t help but let out a moan of my own by the way the sound of it turns me on too much.

            I decided it’s time to get things far now. Don’t get me wrong, my couch is fairly big and comfortable enough for s*x, I do things in there ocassionally but this isn’t just a simple s*x. This is one thing I haven’t experienced yet for the life me.

            I will be making love with Lex all night and that being said, I would prefer my huge bed than this couch here.

            So I stood up without letting Lex go. Nang ma-realize niya kung anong ginagawa ko, she tightened her legs around my waist and her arms flew around my neck. I kept my mouth busy with kissing her neck down to her cleavage, back up, nibbling her ears, kissing across her jawline, claiming her lips briefly, playing her tongue with mine, licking her neck again, back down her breasts and so forth habang naglalakad papunta sa kwarto ko, wherever the hell it is located, because right now I don’t even give a damn whether we ended at the bathroom, at the kitchen or anywhere. I just need to have this girl.

            At sa wakas, pagkatapos kong maubos ang lahat ng babasaging gamit ko sa kakatabig ko no’n, we ended up at my bedroom. I carefully laid her to my bed, managing to keep my mouth attached to her skin. I reached down to unzip her jeans. It’s either I’m a real hustler at bed that I managed to unzip it that fast or I’m just that excited.

            Excited is an understatement. I was beyond that.

                 “Oh God!” she gasped when I pulled her jeans with her panty down in one swift.

            For the second time of this night, I am stunned, taking up the view of her luscious core laid in front of me. She must have felt conscious when she closed her legs to cover it. Tinignan ko siya sa mata. Nando’n ang takot, anxiousness, excitement. The lust… that adorable glint in there… it’s making me wild! “Don’t. It’s beautiful, Lex. You are beautiful.”

            She reluctantly opened up. Slowly but still she did. I couldn’t resist my own urge, I went down on her, wanting nothing but her taste in my mouth. Her scent was intoxicating that it practically drove me on the edge. I flicked my tongue across her lovely opening, she shivered. I took it encouragingly and swept my tongue around the place earning both a heavy sigh and a slight moan after it.

            Kusang gumalaw ang mga kamay ko at inihagod iyon sa magkahiwalay niyang legs. Ramdam ko ang paggalaw niya, her back arching in response to what I was doing. Pati ang ‘kaibigan’ ko sa ibaba nagre-respond pati. Hindi ko naman masisisi ang sarili ko. This girl is too hot for her own good. Hinding-hindi ko siya hahayaang mag-isa sa gabi, no one would ever resist this girl even if they try.

            Binawi ko ang kaliwa kong kamay sa hita niya and led it to her wet core. I shoved a single finger inside her. Fvck she’s tight! Oh God, oh God… I don’t want to self-combust, help me.

                 “Ahhh… Bryce… s**t…” that moan, fvck I’m going wild!

            I pumped my finger inside her, earning a few moans as a response. I eventually added my second and she moaned louder. I licked her opening, taking in her taste. Much like her kisses and her mouth, she’s sweet. And then I felt her shudder. She’s rocking, quivering, trembling under me. “Oh oh oh oh ohhh! Bryce!”

            I held her thighs in place and lapped up all her sweet nectar as she shivered in her own o****m. “Oh God…” I heard her breathed as she started to calm down while I drown myself between her.

            Inangat ko ang sarili ko pagkaraan. Pumaibabaw ako sa kanya habang unti-unting tinatanggal ang jeans ko. Tinulungan niya ako nang mapansin niya. I really hope I wouldn’t scare her. Usually, girls that I bring gets a bit startled when they see what’s beneath that but nonetheless they still beg me to fvck them.

            But Lex is a virgin. Lex is someone I love. And for the life of me, I’ve never been with a virgin! What am I supposed to do? “Here, listen. This will hurt, but trust me, I’ll make it feel better. Just tell me kung gusto mo’kong tumigil. Titigil ako.”

            Tumango siya, her hands busy undoing my belt and my zipper. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo bago ko siya tulungang ibaba ang pantalon ko. Naiwan ang boxers ko and she soon pulled it down. And there goes the shocker.

                 “Oh my gosh it’s too… huge. Bryce, wouldn’t it tear me apart?”

                 “I don’t know, do you wanna continue or we’ll wait?”

                 “We won’t know unless we try. Right?” ^___^

            Dear God… life is good.

            Wala na akong sinayang na oras, I instantly ravaged her lips while positioning atop without placing any weight on her. Pumaikot ang mga kamay niya sa leeg ko, pulling me tightly against her. I rubbed my member against her wet core to entice her and as a response she moaned inside my mouth while her hands gripped my hair tightly that I almost grunted. It turns out that that was a major turn on for me.

            Slowly, I pushed. The opening was too tight even na nahihirapan rin akong ipasok iyon ng tuluyan. She whimpered slightly, I trailed kisses across her jawlines, licking under her chin down to her neck, her whimpering was replaced by a soft moan. But I halted ng kusa when I felt her fragile hymen inside. Kinabahan ako. The way I hear it from others, if I penetrated it past that barrier, girls would often feel pain.

            Damn, damn, damn! What the fvck am I going to do? I’m too scared to hurt her. “Babe? Are you sure?” I whispered under my breath.

            Bumuntong hininga siya bago tumango. “You’ll make it better for me anyway… right, Bryce?”

            I nodded. I’ll make everything better for her. I’ll make everything feel better for her as long as it’s possible. And even if it’s not, I’ll do anything to make it possible. I live to pleasure her, I live to give her what she wants, I live to make everything right for her. I live for Lex. I live for her alone. Only her.

            I eased up through her. Humigpit ang kapit niya sa’kin and her face slowly screaming pain. I proceeded to nibble on her earlobe and massaged her breast softly. By her moan I think I’m doing the right thing. I decided to penetrate past it in one thrust. She whimpered loudly. When I looked at her, she was tearing up.

                 “Oh God… Lex? Oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God…” I rambled as I wipe her tears from her cheek. “I’m gonna stop, I’m gonna stop.”

                 “No, no, no, no.” Pigil niya kasabay ng pagpulupot niya ng legs sa waist ko, pushing me further into her making her grunt in pain. I wanted to move out but I was too afraid it would hurt her. I’m deep within her, kapag gumalaw ako hindi ko alam kung masasaktan siya lalo. “Don’t move. It’s gonna hurt. Please, Bryce, don’t move.”

                 “Yeah, okay okay.”

            Pinakalma ko ang sarili ko. Wala ring magagawa kung matataranta ako. Lalo lang makakaapekto kay Lex ‘yon. But instead I showered her with kisses all around her face as I brush her hair with my fingers. And then I felt her moving under me. She was grounding her hips and it got me alarmed.

                 “Lex?”

                 “Y-You can move…”

            I peeked down to see she’s struggling to gyrate it around me. I slowly eased out from her then eased it back in. She breathed deep. I kept going in and going out. Several thrusts later she started moaning hard. Pinipigilan kong sumabog ng ganito kaaga, she felt too tight that it was almost impossible for me to keep it in.

            But luckily I did.

            I looked up, I saw her smiling down at me. I kept my thrusts long and slow. She’s still breathing hard as well as I am. Hinaplos niya ang kaliwang pisngi ko. I fuckin’ love that gesture. “Feels good?”

            I eagerly nodded. “Heck yeah.”

                 “Mind moving faster then?”

            I smiled at her then took her legs to clasp it around me. I leaned in forward at ipinangtukod ang dalawa kong kamay on either side of the bed aligning her pillow. Now our faces are just inches from each other. “No. Definitely not.”

            I pumped faster and harder as I kissed around her face down to her neck and back up. Her moans are sending me to the edge everytime. It’s definitely my trigger kasama na kapag tina-tug niya ang buhok ko. I need to remind myself na dapat ko siyang unahin kesa sa sarili ko. Truthfully I wasn’t used to this. I’m used to pleasure just myself alone. Kahit kailan hindi ko inuna ang iba bago ako lalo na pagdating sa kama. But I guess Lex will always be an excemption. She’ll always be.

                 “Oh ghaaaaddd! Bryce! Bryce, I’m close, I’m close!”

            I slammed faster against her. She was thrashing around, her eyes closed. My mouth is everywhere her body, leaving traces of fire as I roam around memorizing every details. I kissed down to her breast, softly bit one of her n*****s. She squealed and arch her body against mine, making my thrusts more aggressive than it’s already was.

                 “Oh s**t! Damn, Lex, you felt wonderful… ahhhh… f**k… yeah…”

            Lex’s breathing started to get faster. She’s close. Fine luck, my own o****m is approaching and it’s approaching sooner than I thought. “Lex… baby, open your eyes. Look at me, babe, look at me.” I breathed out, gasping and still kissing her everywhere.

            She forced her eyes open and stared right to my eyes. “Keep your eyes open, just look at me.”

            Hindi siya nagsalita pero tumingin siya sa akin. I kept slamming hard with a faster pace than earlier. She gasped again and again and I could tell she wanted to close her eyes. She was fighting it. “Oh God, Bryce!”

                 “Babe, your eyes. Look at me, look at me. Hey… keep it open.”

                 “I can’t! Ohhhhh!”

            My hand reached for her face, I leaned over at ipinatong ang forehead ko against hers. She opened her eyes while panting. “Look at me. Just look at me.”

            She obliged. Her mouth hung open as the sensation of her upcoming o****m building up. She wanted to scream but she didn’t instead she kept her mouth open while staring at me. “Aaaahhh… haaah! Ooooh f**k… Bryce… crap, I’m too close!”

            And I am closer than close.

            I stroked her hair gently while I thrust violently against her. She’s still staring right into me. And then I felt it. “f**k! Ahhhh! Lexxxx… Crap, oh my God! I love you…” I moaned and grunted while looking back at her eyes, letting her see my vulnerability at that exact moment. My emotions that no one was able to see. Only her. Only Lex. “I love you… oh f**k, I love you so damn much.”

            She was screaming the same but she heard it. I knew she heard it when she smiled.

            Having your eyes close in a one night stand is a must. For guys, it’s like an unspoken cosmic rule to never look into a girl’s eyes while having s*x especially when coming off. They said that they see emotions through us at that certain time. That we’re vulnerable at that certain time. And seeing that, a lot of girls get too attached that they don’t stick to the one night stand rule anymore.

            So I wanted Lex to see that. Gusto kong makita niya ang lahat-lahat, damn it all to hell gusto kong ma-attach siya sa akin. Gusto kong malaman niya na siya ang kahinaan ko. Na siya ang dahilan kung bakit hirap na hirap akong magmahal ng iba. Kung bakit kahit hindi ko sadya, nakakasakit ako ng ibang tao. Dahil sa kanya… dahil sa kanya lahat-lahat.

                 “Lagi mo bang sinasabi ‘yan kapag tapos na?” she asked gently.

            Umiling ako, afraid that she won’t believe me. Ang tanga-tanga ko naman kasi. Isinabay ko pa sa s*x ‘tong pag-amin ko.

                 “No… no. No, Lex, believe me. Para mo nang awa tigilan na natin lahat ng pagpapanggap. Nahihirapan na ako. Mahal kita. Mahal kita noon, mahal kita nung umalis ka, mahal pa rin kita nung bumalik ka, mahal kita bukas, mahal kita sa susunod at mamahalin kita kahit subukan ko mang hindi gawin ‘yon! Maniwala ka sa’kin sinubukan ko na. Ang dami ko nang taong ginamit para lang do’n. Maawa ka sa’kin h’wag mo na akong pahirapan. Ayoko na… gusto ko ikaw lang. Ikaw lang, Lexine. Patigilin mo na ang sakit, please? Ang sakit-sakit na, hindi ko na kaya, patigilin mo na…”

            I haven’t realized I was crying until I felt her hand wiping something from my face. Umiiyak siya. And from her watery lenses, I could see my poor self with a desperate and a tear-soaked face begging to her with all that I have for her to take me back. I let myself collapsed on top of her hugging her in my arms too tight that I’m afraid I’m going to break her tiny body. I buried my face against the right side of her neck.

            This is all I have. This is all I am. “This is just the Bryce Soriano everyone knows, Lex. This is just me. I ain’t high and mighty, I ain’t so brave and so tough. I could maybe take any girl in the world and make them love me. But I don’t want that. I may have everything… but in the end of it all, I just want you. And every fuckin’ time that I think you wouldn’t want me the same way that I want and need you so badly, it hurts. Like… like someone is twisting my heart inside, it freakin’ hurts too much. I need you so badly to ease that. But where are you? You’re too far. You’re too far that I couldn’t even reach you…”

            All that I heard was myself sobbing into her neck. Buong buhay ko, sa lahat ng pagkakataon, siya lang ang iniyakan ko. Siya lang ang tanging tao na may kakayahang magpaiyak sa akin. I cried when I thought Ana died before but Lex was part of it. I couldn’t contain that damn thought na kapag nawala si Ana, babalik na naman ako sa sobra-sobrang pangungulila kay Lex because no one like Ana would distract me to do that.

            Pero sino bang niloloko ko? Kahit ano pang distraction, ang tindi pa rin ng paghahanap ko sa kanya. Sobrang tindi na ang sakit-sakit na. I need her to ease it. I f*****g need her.

                 “I-I… I love you too, Bryce. Stop crying now, nasasaktan rin akong makita kang ganyan.” :'(

            Agad akong nag-angat ng paningin and looked at her awe-struck. “U-Ulitin mo nga. Babe, ulitin mo. Ulitin mo please?”

                 “Sabi ko mahal kita. Alam mo ‘yon. Alam mo naman ‘yon, Bryce, why do you have to cry for me? Mahal kita. Alam mo ‘yan.”

            I leaned against her palm when she touched my face and held it in her hands. “Sobrang tagal na nung huli kong marinig ‘yan. Ang tanging naaalala ko lang… sinabi mong mahal mo’ko tapos iniwan mo’ko. Naghintay ako sa labas ng bahay namin, baka bumalik ka. Naghintay ako buong gabi, wala ka. Akala ko no’n kapag mahal mo ang isang tao hindi mo siya iiwanan. Iniwan mo’ko, Lex. Akala ko hindi mo na’ko mahal. Ginawa ko lahat-lahat para mahalin mo’ko hanggang sa naging gago na lang ako sa mga mata mo. A piece of trash, the guy who walks around looking for a one night stand. You didn’t even asked me for once as to why I do that. Ginagawa ko ‘yon because I keep on hoping that someday… you would see me the way the other girls see me and that way you would like me. That way you would love me again. That way I would feel complete again. Not an empty shell of a man. I just want to be that guy that you would love. And it’s so f*****g hard to have that.”

            The next thing I knew, she threw her hands around me and sat up, flipping us for her to be able to straddle me. Niyakap niya ako ng sobrang higpit, patak ng patak ang mga luha niya sa leeg ko. “Hindi kita iniwan. Maniwala ka sa’kin hindi kita iniwan. Bryce, ayokong matali ka sa pagpapakasal sa akin kaya umalis ako. Gusto kong magkaroon ka ng sarili mong buhay. Yung buhay na hindi umiikot sa’kin. Gusto ko magkaroon tayo ng sariling buhay malayo sa arranged marriage na ‘yon.”

                 “Kailan mo ba tatanggapin na hindi pwedeng mangyari ‘yon dahil ikaw lang ang buhay ko? Sa’yo umiikot ang buong mundo ko, Lex! Gaano ba kahirap tanggapin ‘yon! Hindi kita sinasakal, hindi kita kahit kailan pinressure sa isang bagay na hindi mo gusto. Sinusunod ko lahat ng sinasabi mo, buong pagkatao ko, buong kaluluwa ko, buong puso ko sinasamba ka! Iniwan mo’ko… ni hindi mo’ko pinakiusapang sumunod. Sa halip gusto mong pakawalan kita, magkaroon ng panibagong buhay, magpakasal sa iba, at kalimutan ka! Have you ever realized it ruined my whole life? Lex, if I was still with you, if you didn’t go, I wouldn’t be sent to marry Ana, I wouldn’t be sent to the States to accompany her, I wouldn’t have a relationship with her, it wouldn’t have failed, I wouldn’t have to settle with Marga and Marga wouldn’t cheat on me with my brother and my brother would have stayed alive up to now! And the worst part in that is… you wouldn’t of hated me this much. Because it kills me too much, Lex, it stabbed me straight through the heart that I’m better off dead than breathing as you look at me with pure disgust written on your face!”

            Humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya when she buried her crying face in my neck. Walang tigil ang mga luha ko sa pagtulo. I’m pretty sure I’ve dropped a few amount of tears into Lex’s back while hugging her naked body against mine. Isa lang naman ang gusto ko. Isa lang naman ang gusto kong sabihin niya eh. Isa lang naman…

                 “C-Can… can we start again, Bryce? Babawi ako. Pangako babawi ako sa’yo. Sorry na? Sorry na, hindi ko sinasadya.”

            Tell me how am I supposed to resist this girl? I can never even if I try. “Mahal kita masyado para tanggihan ‘yan. Masasaktan ako ng sobra-sobra kapag hindi ko sinabing oo. Sana ngayon… sana ngayon hindi mo na’ko itulak palayo. Sana hindi mo na’ko itulak kay Ana. She have done her part, baby. There’s nothing she can do to stop me from loving you so much.”

                 “You don’t have to stop now.”

                 “I love you. I love you, Lex. I love you very very much.”

                 “I love you just as much, Bryce.”

            Tinignan ko ang mga mata niya. I wanted badly to just simply ravage her again. I need her again. I need her everytime. “Are you sore?”

            Tumawa siya beneath her tears na dahan-dahan kong pinapahid. “Obviously but it’s still good to go.”

            I grinned. “You wanna?”

            Then she chuckled. God that sound. She should be illegal to chuckle, that sound is going to kill me someday. “Hell to the yeah…”