Secretly Married

16

Zanaya's POV

"Auntie, will uncle come to visit me as well? I miss him." I pout as Ji Hyun grimaced in front of me.

I am home In Australia. Our boss allowed us to stay the holiday with our families since we're not attending SERENITY Awards this year.

LUNA and Golden Awards just ended as well so this is the best time to relax until we go back to practice for the 24th Star Music Awards.

"Are you not excited and happy to see me?" I cooed her as we sit on a swing outside of our house.

I'm sad actually. Ji Hyun seemed to love Seth more than she loves me when I am her mother's sister.

"I am but I miss him too!" she said.

"Yah, Ji Hyun, stop being so stubborn. Your aunt flew back from Korea to see you. Why are you being like that?" her mother said as she looked at her a little disappointed.

My heart ached after I saw Ji Hyun's eyes started to fill with tears.

"No. I'm okay." I told my sister and I try to smile at Ji Hyun.

"I'm Sorry Aunt Zaya." Ji Hyun said as she hugged me real tight.

"Awwww, it's alright. You know how much Imo loves you, right?" I asked and she hugged me again.

After a while, Ji Hyun runs inside the house calling his father.

"Zaya, I'll leave first. I need to buy stocks for the kitchen. Do you want to come with me?" she asked.

I shake my head in response. "I'm fine here. Plus, I'll be going by the dock later." I told her.

She looked at me intently, "Is there something wrong?"

I gave her my sweetest smile."No. I'm all good. I just really miss being here." I told her.

After a few minutes, I watch as she rode her car and sped off.

I then stood up from my seat and walk my way towards the lake dock.

It's peaceful there and I love watching the sunset in that area.

I hugged my arms after I felt the coldness of the breeze.

It's almost six.

I reached the lake dock near our house and stood a few feet away from the end, the sun almost setting and the beautiful horizon visible before me.

A long sigh escapes my lips as I spread my arms and feel the breeze.

This is where I normally stay whenever I need to think of something, and right now, a lot of things had been bothering me. One of those is someone who'd been puzzling me.

Seth Devon.

I looked up slightly as I try to stop the tears that are threatening to spill.

"God, Seth... What are you doing?" I told to myself as I started fanning my face.

Sometimes, I hate that my tears easily make their appearance on simple things.

Like now, it had been weeks since I last saw or communicated with him.

The girls had noticed that I was ignoring his calls. I even tried so hard so that we won't cross paths during live shows and thank God, it's always busy during those times.

My heart feels restless.

I knew it was never a good idea to pretend that we're dating because something like this will happen.

Though it was clear to me that I was attracted to him even after he'd been an asshole to me the first time, I decided to make my stance firm and told myself that we're just married on papers. Sooner or later, we might separate ways. So I made sure I won't go further than having a little crush on him. It won't harm me in any way, right? Especially since he isn't aware of it.

I was doing so damn good, and then this whole dating facade happened.

I covered my face as I occasionally fix my hair which is flying all over the place due to the wind.

This isn't a fairy tale or drama where the famous guy ends up falling in love with the girl. I might not be aware but I might actually be on a wrong story.

For all I know, I may actually the antagonist on this drama. Because he's married to me, he can't be with the real person that he loves.

I tried to stand firm to my resolve and be aloof from the moment we got married and it actually helped that I was preparing for our debut and he's a little busy.

The problem is, ever since my debut, our paths crossed a lot more than expected and I don't even know how we ended up being in this weird drama.

Pretending to be dating when we are actually secretly married?

Yeah, how weird and ironic is that?

I moved at the very end of the dock and decided to sit there, my hands leaning behind me for support as I stare into the horizon.

And then tears silently started streaming down my face.

I'm really not okay at this point. My emotions are in a blur and I can't even tell it to my members. I don't have anybody to turn to and express my emotions.

It's hard keeping this to myself and it's getting really frustrating.

My family will be upset if they found out that what's happening to me. This might even cause conflict. I knew Dad will do something about this. He will really do something if he knew I was hurting like this.

My heart seems heavy.

I am really enjoying the times when Seth was being sweet to me.

The problem is, my feelings are starting to develop into more than a crush. My heart has already been swayed and I knew I can no longer stop it.

He's now holding a special place in my heart and the truth that he's doing all these to pretend that we're dating is getting me.

What if tomorrow, he asked me to stop pretending and go back to how we used to be?

What's worse if what will I do if we ended up getting a divorce and really forget about everything?

I know I can't demand it.

I'm hurting.

I'm hurting a lot that I can't stop myself from crying.

I'm so scared of tomorrow. I want to enjoy what's happening today but I can't.

When I saw him flirting with Sally, I realized that I should know my place.

But where should I be anyways?

Again, I covered my face as I try to calm myself.

This emotion can't get the best of me.

"Why can't we really be together?" I muttered.

"Do you want to?"

I was startled when I heard someone spoke behind me.

My eyes went wide open when I realized who it is.

Seth Devon was standing a few feet away from where I was sitting.

He was wearing a white buttoned-down polo shirt and his black fitted jeans. His hair was disheveled as the wind flew past both of us.

I quickly stood up and face him.

"What are you doing here?" my voice shook a little and my heart ached just seeing his beautiful face.

I want to run to him and hug him real bad but I don't know if I even have the right to do that.

I noticed his face changed as he frowns.

I watch him as he slowly moved his way towards me. My emotions are getting ahead of me and the butterflies on my stomach are going wild so I looked a the ground instead.

I looked like a mess.

I felt him stopped in front of me and soon, his hand touches my chin as he lifts my face so we can make eye contact.

"Why are you crying?" he softly asked as he tries to wipe the tears on my cheeks.

As soon as his hands made contact on my skin, I flinched a little unable to handle the electricity flowing through my body.

I just shook my head in response.

Stop acting like this to me Seth. Don't make me fall any further.

After a while, he cupped my face as he made me try to look at him but I can't help but look elsewhere.

He's so beautiful, I'm afraid I'll start to fall deeper if I see more of him.

"Yah, Zaya, are you still mad at me? I swear there's nothing between Sally and me," he said and I was startled.

I didn't know he'll start explaining.

"You don't have to explain anything to me. It's your life and you can date anyone you want." I bit my lower lip after what I said.

Of course, I don't mean it. I don't want him to date, anyone. I want him to just be mine but I can't tell him that.

"What are you saying?  Of course, I have to explain it to you because you're upset about it. Plus, you're my wife so you need to know."

I frown at what he said. He's right. I'm his wife but why don't I feel so good about that fact?  Is it because us being married isn't because of mutual consent?

"But you don't really want to marry me and you don't like me so I'd understand if you'll like to date someone else," I whispered.

Soft chuckles escaped his lips and I can't help but look at his smiling face. Soon enough, I was mesmerized with his beauty.

I was brought back from my trance when I felt him giving me a peck on the lips.

My cheeks blushed tomato red and my hands reached my face in embarrassment but since his hands are still on my face, I can barely cover mine.

"What are you doing?" I shyly asked him.

"My wife is so cute," he said and he looked at me teasingly.

I pouted.

"Stop it. You don't have to pretend to be my boyfriend since both of our members are not here."I told him.

But a sharp pain went past across my chest.

Then, I felt his hands wrapped around my body as he hugged my real tight.

"Yah..." I heard him said.

I closed my eyes as my hands wrapped around his body as well. Soon enough, we were swaying as we hugged each other.

I hope this never stops.

"Stop thinking about me with someone else. From now on, it's just you, okay?" he whispered.

I hugged him tighter as tears started to spill on my eyes again.

"Seth, stop this. You're making my heart flutter." I told him, not caring what he would think.

He pulled me away from me a little so he can see my face

"I'm not joking, stupid. I really like you now. So don't cry anymore. I don't like seeing my baby crying."

Contrary to what he said, I started crying more.

Did he say he like me?

"Yah Zaya." he started laughing at my reaction. "Stop crying... Please," he said as he laughs.

I try to wipe the tears away from my face.

"You really are so adorable." he started wiping my tears from my eyes and then he hugged me again.

"I miss you so much," he said as he looked at me straight in the eyes.

I'm starting to really love this feeling.

Does this mean, we're really together now?