Secretly Married

15

Zanaya's POV

"I can't be nervous. I can do this. Fighting!" a chuckle escaped my lips as I saw Tokyo talking to herself while she's sitting in front of the mirror, a makeup artist was doing a retouch on Tokyo's makeup.

"You really are so cute," I told her and like every time, Tokyo just flashed her smile towards me.

"You're cute too," she said as she pouted her lips towards me.

"Yah, Tokyo!  Stop with the cutesy faces, man!" Max spat from across the room.

I laugh as Tokyo continued doing weird gestures on her lips while Max just rolled her eyes, smiling as she sat on the corner of the room and put out her phone.

This is our first ever awards night and we're very nervous.

I scanned the room and saw Cali talking to one of our managers.

I decided to seat on an empty chair while we wait for our queue to move to our seats.

The awards show hasn't even started.

A soft giggle escaped my lips when the makeup artist groans in front of Tokyo. As usual, Tokyo was messing with her.

She's such a kid.

I felt my phone vibrated from my purse.

Since the show hasn't even started, I took out my phone and check who sent the message.

My Sethie: Where are you?

My brows furrowed at his question. I thought he knew that we will be attending?

And a smile formed at the corner of my lips.

I remember how Seth asked for my phone the last time he and the boys were at our dorm and changed his name on my contacts.

He glared at me when he realized that I saved his name as "jerk" before that.

Grey and Sky saw it and I swear they said Seth will never hear the end of it.

During the whole time that his members were at our dorm, all they did was tease the both of us.

Seth being a little too clingy isn't much of great help either. What's even weird was how they all clicked with each other.

I was shocked when I realized how the fans were on point when they said Cali and Sky were almost at the same level of 4dness. But I don't think Sky like that thought.

I will never want to see a battle between who's weirder between the two.

After the boys went home, the girls pester the life of me asking too many questions. Some, I answered sincerely, others, I'm unable to.

Aside from the truth that Seth and I don't really spend a lot of time together, the fact that we bicker on those times isn't much of great help either so I don't have a lot of memories to share.

I decided to reply anyway.

Me: I'm inside the dressing room. Why?

After a few minutes, I saw the notification indicating that he already replied and a smile crept all the way through my lips when I saw his response.

My Sethie: Nothing. Is it bad to know where my girlfriend is

Up to this point, I'm still not used to this side of him.

I'm not sure if it's because he is acting or he's naturally like this. He is so sweet.

My cheeks turned red when I remember our little make-out session last time.

That should mean something to him, right?  Because it does with me.

I would have asked what's with him but decided otherwise. Instead, I decided to play along with this game that he's trying to have with me.

Me: Point taken. So, where's my boyfriend?

A soft chuckle escaped on my lips after sending the message.

It wasn't even a full minute when a reply came back. That was sure fast.

My Sethie: On our way to the dressing room. Sky was asking about California. He's thinking what he needs to do so Cali won't be able to beat his level of being weird.

Me: Well, that's really very productive of him. But I can assure you, beating Cali will be a little hard.

My Sethie: Anyways, what are you doing?

Me: Ahh, texting you?

My Sethie: Awwww, I'm flattered. I feel so important rn. My girlfriend is so sweet.

This little tease.

I smile as I tap from the keyboard on my phone.

Me: Of course I am. Consider yourself lucky because you can call yourself my boyfriend.  I actually wanna date myself too.

My Sethie: Sky read your message and he said you're weird. I don't care as long as your weird just to me. Have I told you I miss you?

That caught me a little off-guard but I still can't stop smiling.

Me: No.

My Sethie: Well then, I miss you babe and good luck on your performance later. We'll be cheering on you!

My heart started beating like crazy after I saw him call me babe. Somehow, a small hope was starting to fill in my heart that somehow, what we're starting right now would eventually lead to something that won't be breaking my heart.

I'm not even sure if it's out of nervousness or some butterflies are just busy partying at my stomach.

I bite my lower lip to keep myself from smiling while I respond.

Me: Awwww, thanks for that. I miss you too babe.

I felt someone sat beside me. I looked up and met Cali's eyes. Startled, I moved backward.

"Who are you texting, your boyfriend?" she whispered as she wiggles her eyebrow at the word boyfriend.

My cheeks blushed.

"Why?" I asked innocently.

"Because you look like some lovestruck lady smiling on your phone. You better be careful Zaya. People might notice. And have I told you, you're glowing?." she smiled cheekily before she stood up and went to Tokyo's direction.

What the hell was that?

I cupped my face in embarrassment.

Do I really look like that?

And then I thought about him. My hand landed on my chest.

Jesus. The mere thought of having a glance of him later is enough to make my heart go wild in excitement.

I'm not even sure if this is a good thing. I might mess up with our performance later.

I fanned my face as I try to calm myself down.

And then my phone lit up and saw another message popped up.

My Sethie: I'll see you soon. Your babe won't go home without a hug later, btw

I almost dropped my phone after what he said.

I was contemplating if I should reply to him but one of our managers suddenly came.

"The award show is about to start.  You need to walk on the red carpet. Let's do this."Our manager exclaimed.

I and the girls gather up and we hugged each other.

This is it.

After the Red Carpet, we were all sitting down on the area where most of the idols were situated and of course, I caught a glance of him.

Like always, he was oozing with charisma and he looked so f*****g hot, I had to resist the urge to say that he's actually mine.

What the f**k are you even thinking?

I didn't notice that I was staring at his direction until I caught his eyes and flashed a smile.

Startled, I turned my head in the opposite direction and I heard Max laugh beside me.

I looked at her as she touched my left knee.

"Little Zaya had been caught staring at her boyfriend," she muttered and I'm pretty sure Tokyo and Cali heard because they giggle.

My cheeks turned red and I frown in embarrassment.

Soon enough, we stood up from our seats to prepare for our performance but before doing that, my eyes caught something that I'm not really sure I like.

I saw Sally talking with Seth as the two sat almost beside each other. What triggered me the most was the fact that Seth was smiling all throughout and he seemed to enjoy the attention.

Some fans started to scream.

I felt a needle stuck on my chest, I had to bite the inside of my cheeks to stop my face from further showing a reaction.

Max must have noticed as she looked at me worriedly. I flashed a smile on her to let her know that I am fine.

Apparently, Red Flavor is seated just beside SHADOW and of course, some fans noticed especially the interaction between the two who were recently linked into a dating scandal.

My blood started to boil.

I miss you, babe, your face.

I squinted my eyes and looked away as we passed in front of them.

So much for telling me good luck with my performance.

You can do this Zaya. You don't need him.