Alpha's Abused Mate.

Facing The Past.

"Don't be here for me, I don't want it! I am never going to come back again, I have the one I always wanted!"

~one day later, palace’s arena~

Cora’s pov

“And three, two, one… Her Majesty Cora Petrov is the winner!” the speaker states and the crowd in front of me starts cheering.

I look at my opponent one last time and Cynthia smirks.

He is a vampire, one of the men that had circled Cora and guess what…

I made him regret the moment he was born! I mean it, I had full control of our fight all the time, he never had the opportunity to threaten me for real and the fight was quite short…

I am still in my lycan form but I have control and Cynthia has stepped back after the end of the fight. I bow slowly to the crowd and the lycans howl for my, well our victory and I turn around to bow again to the Kings and Queens on the stage.

Ivan is not there with them, he is waiting for me at my room next the arena. As my ‘trainer’ he has every right and I couldn’t deny the fact that I needed him as closer as possible. I wanted him to be the first and last person I would see before and after the fight.

The King of the werewolf nods in approval and my aunt sends me a kiss smiling. The weird thing is that even the vampire’s King and his Queen are smiling at me even though I won their contestant. They told me from the beginning that I had to fight with him and after the incident with Cora they have been supporting me.

“Her Majesty goes straight to the semi finals with her trainer, Ivan Konstantinof!” the speaker continues and the King signs for me that I can leave.

I bow one more time and I start walking to my room. I give a quick look to Rosa, Jose, Leo and Caleb and get in the room to find Ivan smiling in excitement yet relief.

“Well done love! Both of you did amazing!” he says and caresses my head with Cynthia purring.

I rub my head on his chest and he lets out a low laughter. I walk behind the changing curtains and I shift back to my human form immediately. I put on my underwear and its matched bra and then I continue with my black simple yet elegant dress that reaches my knees. I brush my hair quickly and then I do my makeup in front of the small mirror there is. In the end I put on my pair of black high heels and get out to run straight into Ivan’s arms.

“It was your best time!” he whispers and kisses my forehead.

“I think there was a reason and I had the one I wanted next to me!” I say smirking and pull him closer for a kiss but his worried expression makes me stop.

Yeah, I had forgotten about it but apparently he didn’t!

“Can you calm down and be more optimistic, please?” I say nervously and he sighs.

“I can come with you! Don’t you think it will be better?” he says forcing an innocent smile and I groan.

“We have talked about it so many times baby! He agreed but I have to go alone!” I say for the tenth time since last night.

“But what if he tries to do something? I don’t trust him!”

“Ivan baby… I don’t trust him either and you know it! And this is why I am going to meet him at Rosana and Mischa’s restaurant! Their parents will be there, you know that their father is going to kill him if he tries anything, well… If I don’t kill him first! Don’t worry, trust me!” I say capping his face and placing a kiss on his lips.

“Cora!” Owen says getting inside the room with my father behind him.

“Oh, hi!” I say forcing a smile and they come and kiss me smiling.

“It was fantastic baby! You gave him a great lesson!” my father says and taps my back.

I give a discreet look at Owen and I distinguish tension on his expression, he is…

Annoyed!

And I know the reason, I understand, they have all gotten crazy and it drives me crazy!

So let me tell you what happened from yesterday morning!

After I told Ivan that I had to talk with Noah he got out of control and not because he was mad at me but because he thinks that it’s one of Noah tricks. This is something I find logical, I have already thought of this possibility but I can’t risk it because it has to do with Miles and I need to find out the truth!

So once Ivan calmed down I had to talk to the others as well, all except from my aunt ( I don’t want her to worry more and get frustrated) and Natalie that is still at the hospital! I gathered them in Rosa’s room and I also asked from Caleb and Leo to come, Jose was already there with her.

I told them all that I had to talk to Noah in person and I asked from Caleb and Leo to tell him if he agrees or not. And at this point let’s just say that…

Owen broke almost everything around him because he lost his temper and wanted to go, find Noah and kill him. I suppose Ivan has found his partner in it, they have the same opinion, the note is Noah’s mini trick.

Anyway, Chloe managed to make Owen calm down and I did the same thing with Ivan. Caleb and Leo went to find Noah and fortunately he was not with Camilla the camilla and as I had imagined he agreed to talk to me, he was excited but he doesn’t know the reason I want to meet him.

I am saving it as a surprise, I want to see his reaction!

So after they came and told me that he wanted to talk to me I told them to give him the restaurant’s address and ask for me at the reception. The time was not certain because I had the fight today but I decided to meet him exactly two hours after the end of it and he agreed in excitement. This is why I got ready now because I will have to face the heavy traffic and I don’t want to be late, I prefer to wait for him…

The restaurant’s choose was mine and I did it on purpose for two reasons. The first one is that in this way I was sure that Ivan and the others would accept to let me go on my own (this was Noah’s term and I was expecting it) as Rosa’s parents are here for some days and they agreed to be there in case I need something. The second reason is because I will feel more comfortable, I will be with him in a private room/table and I have the advantage to record our meeting.

Yes! And I know it’s illegal but I do not give a damn s**t!

I have people that will take a look of it back to Russia and they will help me understand if he is acting or not from his body’s language. I have also taken some lessons about it because I need it in serious discussions with other royals etc but I don’t have so much experience.

So… Am I a devil?

“Maybe! But you are a genius for sure!” Cynthia whispers smirking devilishly and I chuckle.

“Brother for luna’s sake stop looking like this because I am losing my patience! You are not helping me at all!” I say through my teeth and my father nods while Ivan and Owen sigh in union.

“But Cora…”

“No buts brother! We talked about it! Don’t you trust me?” I interrupt him and he shakes is head in frustration.

“I trust you, it’s him that I can’t trust and I don’t want to! The bastard is insane! What if he forces you into something?” he almost yells and Ivan’s expression gets wild in less than a second.

Perfect Owen! Open your big mouth and make it worse, like always! What an i***t!

“Don’t you dare say it!” I warn Ivan firmly and he runs his hands through his hair.

“Owen, I don’t trust him, I will never trust him but if you trust me as you say close your mouth and let me handle it in my own way! Believe me I know him better than all of you together, I have lived with him, I know what he is capable of but I am not stepping back again! I am done being patient and trying to stay calm and logical! If he even tries to suggest or do something I don’t want t I will kill him and the end! Father of my son or not I don’t care!” I say doing my best to not lose my temper and then turn to Ivan.

My expression softens once my eyes meet his melancholic yet worried ones and I take his hand in mine. I give it a squeeze and smile weakly.

“I know you are worried because you love me but try to be patient for some hours, okay? I can make it, you know it! It’s just that I want to know, I need to! I will never be completely fine with it and especially if I don’t find out the truth! I need you by my side, that’s all I need! You know me, you taught me everything I know! Do you think I am going to fail?”

He wraps his arms around me the second I end my words ignoring my father and brother (not that they have problem with this scene but anyway) and buries his face in my neck. He takes my scent with deep breaths and I do the same because even this is giving me the strength I need to face Noah again.

I am not afraid of him, let’s be honest! I am just… I don’t know, I want to close this chapter once and for all and dealing with it brings me nervousness because in the past it killed me!

“You are right! If anyone can make it then this someone is you love! Just promise me that anything he does or says won’t affect you again! You won’t allow him to hurt you and doubt yourself!” Ivan says through our link and I smile emotionally.

What a man I have!?

He is the sweetest man there is, I am definitely lucky!

“I promise baby! He is never going to hurt me again! He can do nothing!” I reply and he kisses my neck making me giggle.

My father and brother are smirking next to us and once I give them a firm gaze they take some steps back and turn around to give us some more ‘privacy’. I pull a bit back and look into his eyes making amends not to cry and he touches his forehead on mine sighing heavily.

“I love you very much!” I whisper through our link again and Cynthia shakes her tail purring.

“I love you too and even more than you can imagine!”

I smile brightly and kiss him for one last time catching him off guard. He responds immediately although and if we were alone I am sure we would have ‘problems’ because our kiss is hungry and not so slow and gently.

“Wait for me!” I say in the end and break our kiss breathless.

“Always!”

~about two hours later, restaurant~

“Are you sure you are going to be alright baby? We can stay here if you want!” my uncle, Rosa and Mischa’s dad says and my aunt nods in agreement with concern.

“Thank you uncle but there is no need to! He asked to be alone with me anyway so…” I reply and they shake their heads nervously in understanding.

“I see… But if you need us just tell me and I will kill him!” he continues and I laugh.

I love them very much, they are like Rosa and Mischa. They were always close to me, even when we didn’t know how I was. They accepted me and they warned Mischa to protect me or else he would have serious troubles with them (not that he was ever going to hurt me, he is my brother) but I am just saying… They are great parents and my aunt loves them very much, they are some of her best and most trusted friends!

“Sir, Madams, the man you have informed us about it here!” one waiter says from the room’s door and we all nod.

Fucking awesome!

“Good! Let him wait for a second and then bring him in!” my uncle replies and the waiter signs in understanding.

“Alright darling! We are going. If you need anything just call us! I am going to come immediately!” my aunt states and kisses me in hurry.

“Are you sure about it?” my uncle asks for the last time.

They both know everything, this is why I feel comfortable to be here. They are some of the persons I trust the most and I know how sad and heartbroken they got when I told them my whole story and this is why they are so scared, they don’t want me to get hurt again.

“Yes uncle! Thank you for everything! I will be fine!” I reply and hug him quickly.

He sighs defeated and my aunt takes his hand and leads him out of the room. I am at the top floor of the restaurant, it’s a private area for special costumers but I am part of the family so I have this advantage.

I walk and sit at the one side of the table and place my hands on it. I give one last look around me and I exhale.

The room is not so big but it’s beautiful! Its walls are painted in light grey and silver, the chairs are in a quite modern style with velvet in grey tones and there are plants and a small fountain at the back wall on my left. The table is for two, and Noah won’t be so far away from me because this room is mostly for couples.

Great, I know!

I should have saved it for Ivan and me. Now I can’t come again because Noah’s imagine is accompanied with it!

Pf…

I take some deep breaths and tap my fingers on the table rhythmically. I just want this to go well, I want him to accept to give me the file and then he can do anything he wants but away from me. I need to know the truth, I own it to my son, to me…

Fuck!

“Madam…” another waiter which name is Carl says bringing me back to reality and I turn to him immediately.

He gives me a big smile because I already know him from the last time I was here with Rosa and I sign for him to continue.

“Mr. Jackman is here!”

I take another deep breath and clear my throat as Noah’s scent hits my nose, he is in tension but excited. I smell everything and…

This is going to be bad!

“Of course Carl! Let him in, thank you!” I say in hurry and turn again in front of me avoiding looking at Noah at first.

I listen to his footsteps and his scent get stronger as he gets in the room and thanks Carl. He walks to me and stops for a second. I guess, he wasn’t expecting from me to be so cold but we can’t have everything, can we?

“Are you going to just stand there? Sit!” I growl and he does as I say as fast as he can.

He takes the sit opposite of me and my eyes meet his for the first time after some days. He is nervous but happy, there is no doubt and this is driving me crazy. I have never seen his eyes so bright, it’s the first time they are shining so much and he looks very charming as he has worn dark blue trousers and a white shirt as I can see. He has takes care of his appearance, it’s usual for the Noah I know but something is different, he is really trying to impress me and this is so stupid!

“I am so happy…” he begins and tries to reach my hands on the table but I pull them back and he freezes hurt.

“Alright! Thing number one, I don’t know what you have thought but I am sure it has nothing to do with what is going to happen and thing number two, do not touch me!” I state in frustration and his expression changes immediately with pain filling his eyes.

Okay, this is good!

“Cora, I… I am sorry! I want to start all over again, I…”

“Jackman stop it! This is… Ridiculous!” I say breathless and he lowers his head.

It’s like he is ready to cry or something! I can’t believe I am actually living it!

“Did anyone follow you?” I ask shortly and he shakes his head negatively.

“No. Nobody knows. My father and Leo are keeping Camilla busy.”

“Yes, sure! We don’t want your mate to break in here and start her cheap act again!” I say with bitterness and he snaps his head again to me.

“Cora, you are my mate! She is not! She is nothing, she…”

“She what Noah? She is your mate because she has your mark on her neck and your child inside her! You made her your ‘Luna’ so stop trying to present things in ways that suit you!” I cut him angrily and he stiffens nervously.

“Can you please listen to me? Only for once, I am begging you! I love you, there is no one else for me! I… I thought that I had lost you for good and… The pack needed a Luna and…”

“Are you kidding me? Really? Yeah, of course you love me, this is why you had been abusing, r****g and cheating on me! And the pack had a Luna once, your true mate but you wanted someone else, some more like… Camilla! And you didn’t think you lost me, you did lost me the night you locked me in that damn room after you were done with r****g, hitting and humiliating me and left me to die!” I say trying not to scream and he closes his eyes shaking his head in desperation.

Believe it or not I don’t feel the need to cry! I am not hurt right now, I am angry. All this anger I had inside my heart all these years is now taking full control over me and Noah is responsible for this so I have to release it on him even if I am too hard or not!

“I am sorry for everything! I know I did wrong, I got jealous that night! They were all staring at you and… You were smiling to them, I lost my mind because you were never like this with me! I know I was wrong, what do you want me to do to prove you I mean it?” he says and tries to take my hand again but I pull it back for once more.

“Did you remember what you had told me that night? Do you? You wanted me to be kind with them, to act like everything was perfect when it wasn’t! I did nothing, I had eyes only for you even if you had been ‘killing’ me and you accused me for flirting! How could I smile at you when you were hitting me all the damn time! Even when I was pregnant I was scared of expressing myself! Are you for real? You never respected me and now you want another chance? You had more than one chance Noah and you never tried to prove me anything!”

“Baby, I know! Whatever you say you are right! I have no excuse but I am trying! I can try harder, I can do anything for you!” he says and gets ready to get up but I raise my hand and stop him.

“I don’t want you to try! I want only one thing from you! This is why I asked you to talk in private away from the palace.” I state getting to the point and he signs hurt for me to continue.

“What is this?” I ask and throw the note I had under my purse on the table.

He blinks his eyes some times and takes it in his hands confused yet surprised. He can’t be such a great actor but I am expecting anything from him so I can’t be sure…

He reads in and his eyes open widely, he gasps shocked and his hands start shaking.

“What… Is this?” he whispers breathless and I cross my hands in front of my chest with my eyes never leaving his face.

“I am asking you the same thing! Someone threw it in my room under my door two nights ago. Do you have any idea what this means?”

He lifts his eyes up to me and shakes his head negatively, he has turned pale and I am sure he has nothing to do with it now. He can’t do this is he is playing, it’s impossible.

Good for him!

“I talked with your father, brother and Jose. I asked them what they know about Miles’ death. They told me almost nothing useful but they mentioned a file you are holding!” I continue he blinks his eyes again.

“And?”

“And I want it!” I reply shortly and take the note from his hands.

“Cora… Who did this? I mean, how? I have no idea what all these mean! Really!” he says with a lost look and I raise my eyebrows not really impressed.

“If I knew you did this when I wouldn’t have been here with you! All I know is that someone wrote it and I have to find out if he is playing or not! He is playing with my son’s honor and I don’t accept it!”

“Our son… He was mine as well.” He murmurs and boom!

Just what I needed to explode!

Shit!

“No Noah! He is MY SON! MINE AND ONLY! You never loved him, you never really cared, I almost lost him because of you and one of your sluts and you took him away from me! You never even tried to protect him! He was never worse!” I scream and stand up hitting my hands on the table making it move.

“You know this is a lie! I loved my son, I still do! His death costed me, your loss costed me! I…”

“Shut up! Enough with your lies!” I roar and he freezes shocked.

“This is why you took him from me and you gave him to Leila, why you left such a small number of fighters that night, why you were drunk and you ignored Caleb? And my loss costed you and that’s why you accused me for his death, you tried to kill me and when I wanted to die you saved me and then you left to sleep with your w***e? This is why I woke up screaming from the pain?! Really? You loved my son and me?!” I scream shaking and gasping for air and he runs his hand through his hair trembling.

“I… I never wanted him to die! I… I was angry, that’s why I accused you but I am not lying when I say I wanted to save you and ask a second chance. I never wanted him to die and make you suffer so much!”

“If he was with me… He would have been alive and do you know why?” I ask with bitterness and some tears fall from my eyes as Miles’ face appears in front of me.

“Because I would have done everything I could in order to save him! You know it’s true! He would have been alive and I was punishing myself for his death when it was your own fault! I could do nothing to save him, you could but you didn’t! I will never forgive you for this! I may forgive you for anything else because I do not care about all the pain I felt but for my son… Well… I will never forget it, never! But if you ever loved him even a bit you are going to help me now!” I say and sit again feeling legs too weak to support me.

He walks to me, kneels right next to me and raises his hand for me to take it but I deny. I don’t move and he is already crying heavily. It’s the first time I see him in so much pain but I feel no sympathy. I can’t show understanding, there is no reason!

He is responsible for everything and I am done allowing him to accuse me or excusing himself. He has to grow the f**k up and admit his mistakes!

“I will do anything you want! Anything!” he whispers and I sigh in frustration.

“I want to see the file and then I need a copy of it! The sooner you have it the better!” I state and he nods with his head bended some inches away from me.

“Good! When you have it tell your father to inform me. We will have to meet in person again!” I say and push my chair back to stand up.

This time he manages to grab my hand and I stop instantly unable to react. I don’t know what to do. I mean…

I can see he is hurt, he is suffering and I am sure he is not lying but this changes nothing. As I said before he needs to admit everything and grow up. He has to accept that we are over and we are never going to be together.

I can’t be with him again! I want him to be alright because either I like it or not I made Miles with him or better because of him and I loved him back then but…

Everything between us is dead!

I am never going to ask for revenge, I don’t want it, I don’t need it but I want him away from me, that’s all!

“I love you very much!” he whispers and breaks into sobbing while kissing my hand.

I press my lips together and I lift up my head fighting to breathe because I am crying more than before and Cynthia leaves out some low, painful howls sharing my pain. She knows what I am thinking or feeling, she agrees and I don’t know why but she feels sorry for Noah’s wolf. She doesn’t hate him, she hates Noah!

I take one short breath and with my free hand I wipe the tears from my eyes. I open my eyes again and pull my hand back, away from Noah’s hold. He stays on his place without moving or making a single noise and I take one step back.

I take my purse and the note and he slowly lifts his head up to look at me. His wet, red from crying eyes meet mine and I gasp again. His expression is something I have ever seen.

I can’t understand him at all but I don’t want to, not anymore!

“Noah….” I begin and pause to breathe again.

“And I loved you very much but you never cared so… Why should I care about your love now?” I say and start walking to the door leaving him behind me frozen like a statue.

“I am sorry, I will always be here for you!” he cries out and he breaks into sobbing again.

“Don’t be… I have the one I always wanted!”

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Hello dear friends!

I am back and in less than a week after the last update but I had to change the queue of the updates because some chapters in some of my books (in wattpat or here) are going to be larger than I had imagined and I wanted to be alright with the 'shorter' ones!

As I mantioned at the previous chapter there is a second book and I am waiting for your comments, are you excited about it?

And also, tomorrow I am going to update again Mates And Emenies. Today I added three more chapters so if you haven't seen it go and check it out (if you are reading the story of course). There is one other story, His Rejected Queen and I am going to update it tomorrow or the one day after.

And at this point I am waiting for you comments about this chapter! What do you thing about this chapter? What is going to happen next? Was Cora right? What do you think of Noah?

And as always at this point I would like to thank you very much for your love, support, commends and impatience in order to read the chapters. I am trying my best so continue showing me how much you want more and commend and tell me your opinions and thoughts, or even share the story.

This is it for this week, see you again in the next chapter. Be safe and happy until next time! 

I love you all,

                                              Marie...