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Gian
I stood stomped, my best friend has just kissed me out of nowhere and ran. I tried to call him, but he just ran. I was shocked that I didn't know what to think of it.
Jay and I had always been close growing up, we always shared our secrets and our lives. Maybe that's why he had grown attached to me.
I didn't mean to upset him. I saw the tears in his eyes and the initial regret in them. I'd never seen him run so fast as if he'd done something so disgusting he couldn't face me for doing it.
I touched my lips and they were still tingling. I had no idea what this feeling was. All I knew was I had to talk to Jay. I didn't want to lose my best friend cause of a stupid kiss that probably meant nothing.
I couldn't lose him; he'd saved me and I couldn't bear life without him being by my side.
Not everyone knew Jay and I's story, but we were all friends and Callum was the biggest pain in the ass. He was always stirring trouble and pushing you into something that you weren't comfortable with.
Jay was someone I wanted to go to college with, uni with to share a room with or even a flat we were that close to. I had no preference for sexuality cause I was open-minded, unlike my family who had a strong Italian influence and believed love only purely existed between a man and woman and not the same s*x what a crock of s**t.
I needed to find my best friend and find out what the hell got into him.
We all had classes together but he chose to ignore me trying to get his attention.
Finally, when the bell went for lunch I grabbed him and dragged him with me. "What the hell G?"
I dragged him into the janitor's closet, closing the door. At least here no one would disturb us or so I hoped.
The light flickered on new world technology. I grunted. I looked at him. "Why the hell have you been avoiding me?"
"Cause…. Cause. " He stuttered, flustered.
"Just tell me goddamn it! I know you're not shy. Far from it."
"CAUSE I KISSED YOU!"
"And?"
"I'm sorry G. I'm so sorry. I don't want to lose you as a friend."
"And you won't. Just tell me why you felt you had to kiss me?"
"Cal caught me staring at you. I didn't mean to, I swear. I was just thinking, nothing more. And he made a crack that I should tell you how I feel and he annoyed me so I shut him up."
"What are your feelings, Jay? And don't lie, I know when you're lying to me."
"I... I can't, you'll hate me."
I stepped closer to him my heart pumping faster. "Let me be the judge of that. Tell me, Jay." I stepped closer, talking into his ear. He shivered as I spoke. "Tell me how you feel?"
"I love you." He blurted. "Please don't hate me." He stood with tears trickling down his face.
Fuck.
"I've always loved you G. Since we made friends, you were always the one there for me when my family has problems. You were there for me when I hit rock bottom."
"You were there for me too."
"Seeing you like that nearly killed me G knowing if you didn't make it I could never tell you how much I loved you." The tears kept streaming down his face.
"I thought you had something for my sister?"
He laughed."She scares me G. You don't "
I laughed. I thought I could be pretty scary too.
"You're my best friend Jay the only one I want to share everything with."
"But I'm gay."
"Are you sure you are or are you just attracted to me?"
"I... I don't know. I feel different when I'm around you, safe, home."
"I feel like that with you too."
I placed my hand on his face. "I'm willing to give this a try if you are."
"What about your family G?"
"We'll cross that bridge when it comes to it."
I didn't care. I was already a disgrace to the family, a runt of the litter, the black sheep.
"Let's just enjoy this whilst we can."
He nodded.
I moved forward. "Let me kiss you."
He nodded.
I pressed my lips on him, kissing him. His lips were so soft. I pulled him closer deepening the kiss. I had no f*****g clue what I was doing. I'm still a virgin for f**k sake. I had no interest in a relationship ever, until now. I have no clue what my sexuality is, but right now I don't care.
He returned my kiss skipping his tongue in and my stomach fluttered with a thousand butterflies and a thousand reasons why we need to keep this on a low and why this was so wrong for it to make me feel like this.
We continued twisting our tongues together our bodies pressed together our erections painfully tugging. begging to be set free. We moved away breathing heavily.
"We best go, Jay, the others will be wondering where we got to."
He nodded flustered. "Can we keep this between us G. Until we know what's going on and if it's what we both want "
"Sure," I said pecking his lips. "Come on I'm starving."
He chuckled.
"You're not mad at me are you?"
"I could never be mad at you Jay. Come on."
He nodded. I opened the door making sure there was no one watching and we slipped out of the janitor's closet heading fie lunch where our friends bombarded us with questions. Of to where we were.
I Hate My Life
Gian
I was so happy today for once in my life my best friend had just confessed to me that he loved me we shared our first kiss, our second, third and forth before I got home and left him a mile away. We'd agreed to take it slow and explore everything before we jumped into a full-blown relationship.
We were leaving school soon and I planned to tell my parents I wanted to move out and they weren't going to stop me.
I closed the door hoping there wouldn't be any visitors today to my utter disappointment, my brothers were all sitting at the table. I guess mom was cooking her specially or they wouldn't be here.
"Oh look who it is. The Spas, what did you learn at school today? The ABC?" Lucas shot sarcastically.
"f**k you asshole. I'm not four!"
"You act like it."
"Screw you too."
"You're a Retard Gian suck it up."
"Kiss my ass, Stefano "
"You need to shut your mouth Retard before I fill it!."
"I'm not scared of you!"
"As I recall you cried last time. Boohoo."
I stood angrily in front of all of them. "f**k you, and you, and especially you!" I said pointing at them individually.
"Can't take the truth that we're all normal and you're not. You disabled freak."
"Mom should have drowned you at birth!"
"Or better still never had you!"
I clenched my fists storming out.
"That's it Retard just run away like you always do!"
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