Blackjack

Chapter 1   He grabs my waist pulling me into his roughly, crashing his lips into mine. “Alex I need you now” I say breathlessly. Before I know it we are both naked and he lay’s me on his bed, his c*** at my entrance. I take a deep breath and let out a moan as he slams into me the pleasure taking over my entire body. Beep beep beep... the sound of my alarm wakes me up. “ugg not again” I groan. Ever since my mother died a month ago and I decided to move into her house in my hometown back in California I’ve been having dreams of the last time I saw Alex. I had gone to his house to see him one more time before I left. I was moving to Texas to live with my aunt and uncle. I desperately begged him to move with me but he refused. I had been planning the move for months and had asked he come with me but he refused to leave his MC and his family behind. That was 10 years ago, the last time I ever talk to him. It broke my heart that he never returned my calls or letters, especially when I sent him a letter with an ultrasound picture of our baby. A product of our last morning together. We were heading out early this morning on our 20 hour drive to San Diego so I better get out of bed I tell myself. I peak in at my beautiful girl, wondering how this move will effect her life. She knows her father lives in San Diego, I’ve told her many stories about him and him and I together. I have never told her that he didn’t want her though, just that he was unable to be with us in Dallas. When I told her we would be moving into her grandmother’s house in California I expected her to ask if that ment she could finally meet her father but so far she hasn’t mentioned it. Deciding I should get ready before waking Addie up I quickly hop in the shower. After getting dressed I load up the last couple of boxes in my car then go inside to wake up Addie. “Addie” ....”Addie it’s time to get up.” She rolls over in her bed ignoreing me. “Addison Grace!” “5 minutes” she replys. “Addie, we don’t have 5 more minutes it’s a long drive and I’d like to make it half way before needing to pull over for the night.” “Fine im up are you happy” “Yes, I am now get dressed so we can say goodbye to Aunt Kathy and Uncle James” I say turning around to leave her to get ready. “Good morning dear” “Good morning Aunt Kathy” “Are you ready for your move?” Aunt Kathy asks “As ready as I'll ever be I suppose” I reply “Thank you for everything you have done for me and Addie, I appreciate it more than you could ever know and we will miss you so much.” “We are always here for you Hayley and always will be, I expect you and Addie to call all the time and visit whenever you can.” “We will Aunty, I promise.” I say hugging her tightly   Addie come strolling into the kitchen in a pair of legging and a comfy tee. I look, admiring the beautiful young lady I have raised. She looks nothing like me at all, she is all her father except her hair ha loose curls like mine. The blond colored hair and green eyes are all Alex she even has his nose and chin. I watch as she embraces my aunt who is more like a grandmother to her than my mother ever was, but she was more like a mother to me than my mother was. When I made the decision to move in with her and my uncle when I was 17 I did it to make a better life for myself. My mother and I never got along, she always blamed me for her loosing “the love of her life”. My so-called father ran out on us the day I was born. Leaving my mother when she was resting in the hospital bed with nothing but a note saying he didn’t want to be a father.    After living in Texas for a month I found out I was pregnant with Addie, I was so worried that my aunt and uncle would send me back to my mother not wanting to support a teenager and a child, but I was wrong. They helped me raise her while I finished college supporting us both only wanting me to focus on being a good student and a great mother so that when I was finished school, I could get my dream job and give Addie the childhood I didn’t have.   “Hayley why are you crying? We will still see you both as much as possible.” My aunt says bringing me out of my memories. “I was just thinking about how much you have been there for me over the last 10 years, I never would have gotten to where I am without you both and I am forever grateful.” I say bringing my aunt and uncle in for a hug.   “You both best get going” my uncle says choking back his tears   We all give each other one more hug and bid our goodbyes before packing in my Toyota highlander and heading towards Cali.