Lilas.
I did it.
I lost it to my step father. I say to myself but a guilt of shame doesn’t wash over me as I thought it would after the event of last night. I didn’t know s*x was like that. I didn’t know one could be touched like that. I bite my lips, lost in the details of what happened between us and mindlessly playing it over and over again.
Salvatore took me out of the pool. He tcsrris me in his arms like a beloved jewel, he cleaned my body, asked me if I felt pain anywhere even though the only thing I felt was desire for him. He talked to me about what my virginity meant and reminded me that my worth wasn’t in it.
Crazy, isn’t it? The man who took it gave me comforting words about it. I listened to Salvatore as I was shocked. In high school, all my friends lost theirs in the ba
